Showing posts with label trial. Show all posts
Showing posts with label trial. Show all posts

Monday, November 24, 2025

War inAir-Witchcraft in Fog-Hindrances and Distractions

Trust Yahweh
Trust Jesus/Yeshua

[Updated more than I first intended, but that is a good thing. Additional info, commentary, and a few pictures- I wanted to get the post up, so not all the details I wanted to share were presented in the first post, but are now with update. The additions balance out several points. Monday, November 24, 2025--BP]

Some trust in chariots, some in horses, but we will trust in the Lord our God. [Ps20:]   ESV

Hindrances and Distractions

For this cause, we would have come to you, even I Paul, again and again, but Satan hindered us [blocked the way]. [1Thess 2:18]

Constant bombardments have caused an inability to concentrate as hindrances, disruptions and distractions kept stealing my focus. Hindrances and distractions are definitely two weapons in Satan's arsenal, or tools in his burglary kit, whichever way you prefer to see it.

The thief comes not but to steal, to kill and to destroy, but Jesus came to give life abundantly. [Jn 10:10]

Patience is a tough one to learn, or rather, to wait out...

It is like every test and challenge that has ever had to be endured along this faith walk, this incredible journey, have all gathered together and come back around for the granddaddy of all exams. Holy Spirit, please help us (all of God’s people) to endure to the end, in the name above all names, Jesus the Christ of Nazareth [precious Yeshua, our Jesus].

No matter how organized I have tried to be, how carefully I determined to take care of details, it is like a new curveball gets thrown in my direction, catching me off guard, demanding my attention.

Yeshua, my Jesus, must come first [truly needs to start my day] …I have learned that no day goes right if I leave thanksgiving, prayer and Bible reading to a later time (which, yes, despite my best efforts, sometimes gets pushed back to much later in the day, and rarely, but again, yes...occasionally even missed, due to happenstance).

And seriously, on those days when everything else is sadly given first place, or if time with the Lord is neglected altogether, the day ends up as an unproductive, disorderly day. Time flies by too fast with hardly anything accomplished that I wanted to get done.

Everything God does is done decently and in order, but the world, flesh, and life have a way of interrupting most times. Friends [beautiful souls that they are] are greeted, emails taken care of, business calls addressed, and anything else that I can think of as needing attention.

I will spare all the details, but suffice it to say these distractions, disruptions, and hindrances are serious enough to cause concern and attention, and mostly prayer! The enemy is on a rampage because indeed, he knows his time is short. We all sense the foreboding.

We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed [2Cor 4:8]

Tests of obedience, honesty, integrity, morals, patience, humility, you name it…testing one, two, three. God knows how we will manage when every possible evil begins to rear its ugly head amidst the chaos of deception, but do we know how we will manage?

watch out for those
low-riding curve balls

We might think we do, especially since our confidence rests in Christ Jesus. But how are we doing in the trials coming our way in these days now? I have good days and bad days; days of success…and days to repent. Growing pains, learning curves…is there an end, Lord?

We know the answer. “No end to troubles on this side of eternity”:  So, with our face set like flint [strong, unwavering, determined], we cling to Jesus like healthy grapes cling to a strong vine!” Christ does help us. 

When my faith is as a grain of mustard seed (and believe me, some days, a grain is all I can muster, but praise God, it's a grain!), that is all it takes Jesus said to move [spiritual] mountains! 

Mountains! How about that! That is grand! I know it sounds surreal, crazy even...but I can give a firsthand account that God's Word is true. It is putting that faith in action, and God supernaturally, invisibly (call it what you will), but He truly does get us through

 Just don't give in to the devil's lies. He will speak in the first person, but turn deaf ears. We are in a spiritual battle, but our Commander in chief is Jesus. He will get us through each zone.

It is in our weakness that we embrace the strength so readily available in and through Jesus (Yeshua). He warned us that in this world we will have tribulation, but to be of good cheer (brave up) because He has overcome the world. [Jn16:33]

It is not easy, and the good Lord knows it! Jesus did not say the above words glibly; there was nothing insincere or shallow about anything He said or did. He wanted us to clearly understand that the world is fallen, but also that He is an ever-present help in trouble. [Ps 46:1]

Yahweh sent Jesus, and when He completed His earthly mission as Saviour / Redeemer, He sent the Holy Spirit to guide, comfort, strengthen and instruct us until His return. We are the last generation Christ Jesus spoke of. 


Many Hands Make Little Work - Piece by Piece It Comes Together

Show me Your ways, Lord, teach me Your paths. Guide me in Your truth and teach me, for You are God my Saviour, and my hope is in You all day long. [Ps 25:4-5]

The hindrances and distractions have been to keep all of us behind on things. Yet, for me, all this time, it is to keep me behind all else as the Lord unfolds things regarding Charlie and Erika Kirk.

But, here is the clincher! Believe it or not, all (this) and that too is strictly a distraction, albeit, a major distraction nonetheless. See what I mean now about weapons in Satan's arsenal?

Or should I say, handy (important) tools in the devil's toolbox? Have  you noticed how that expression is buzzing around since Canada's FREEDOM convoy back in 2022? 

Buzz words = tools, toolbox. Now we have a new distraction, err, I mean, a new 'freedom'...with Charlie Kirk.

 Moving forward...next!

Suddenly, the words "tools" and 'toolbox' were buzzing. They were being heard everywhere, even on major TV stations, social media platforms, and news sites. 

We mimic each other...they label it 'trending'...or call us 'sheeple'. No wonder plagiarists believe they can get away with stuff [whispers>>>and for the most part, they do] - 

... And even if, by some remote chance, they are caught, a shrug is given, and a 'who cares' is heard. Like when (no disrespect intended, Mrs. Melania Trump), but like when you plagiarized Michelle Obama's speech word for word. 

The people gasped, some covered their mouths, most shook their heads. Others chuckled, while still others clicked or clucked their tongues. And then:

... Everyone moved forward. Next!

We have a wise Creator. He does not give one person all of the answers. As any good Father [and He is Supreme, the best], He loves us too much to tell us everything. He is a Divine Protector. 

He also knows the carnal nature all too well, and how much it loves to be stroked, and how easily it becomes puffed up with pride. The living God would never set any one of His children up for a fall.

And no marvel; for Satan himself
is transformed into an
angel of light.
[2Cor11:14]

Nor would Yahweh lead any one of His people into destruction, but we have an adversary who would. If we follow the wrong voice, it will lead us down a broad path. He will give a false prophet very convincing information (likely appearing as an angel of light, or counterfeiting the voice of God). 

Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall. [Prov16:18]

When a prophecy fails, Satan (or a [python] spirit of divination) laughs as the false prophet "humbly" (said with tongue in cheek) offers an explanation. I have yet to hear a false prophet admit they were wrong, but that does not mean that none of them have never said it. 

I just personally have not heard it. However, in all fairness, it is a big web [internet] and I am not omnipresent (everywhere at once: Shocker, I know). One scripture several of the false prophets often mention is: "[...] we see through a glass darkly.[1Cor13:12]

They often throw in: "We see in part and prophesy in part", further admitting that only God knows all things. [vs 9] And just to make sure that we drop any stones that may happen to be in our hands (and to get them dropped quickly to the ground if there are any), they will say, "I'm not a prophet."

But they also repeat, "Don't take my word for it; take it to the LORD!" (that's very popular - they all say that.

These foxy foxes make me angry. They cover their tracks and much more. They may fool the people (some, not all), but they NEVER fool God. (More on this in upcoming article. It makes me furious, yes, angry, righteous anger.

Here's a clue:  Just like the rest of us, the false prophets and false teachers, etc. all read comments too. They begin to delete; they begin to scrub; they begin to file down the rough edges, and polish up their presentation.

They adjust accordingly. They  are people pleasers. They also have the advantage of something else which I intend to talk about very clearly, and in some depth in near-future articles, as Jesus leads. Time is running out.

I refuse to coddle false prophets! Jesus did not. Elijah did not! Moses did not! God definitely does not.

Take heed no man (person) deceive you. (Jesus' warning) [Mat 24:4]

For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall show great signs and wonders; insomuch that, if possible, they shall deceive the very elect. (further warning by Jesus about these very days we are in now) [Mat 24:24]

Four times - FOUR - times in that short speech, Yeshua (our Jesus) spoke of deception. As I always say, for a man who did NOT waste words, for the Lord to repeat Himself four times like that, we really DO need to pay attention; to TAKE HEED no man (person) deceive us. Thank You Lord Jesus for the serious heads up!

                                

False prophets twist scripture just as surely as Satan does (and as he did in Eden). When one of their prophecies fail, they say: "You who are without sin, cast the first stone."  Another thing I have very often heard false prophets say is that they are not perfect, and that 'we all miss it sometimes'

Sometimes? If  the Holy Spirit is speaking through you, or if God gave you a message to speak forth, He will make no mistakes. 

Please know that. You will have to own the mistake. i emphatically repeat, El Shaddai [God Almighty] makes no mistakes. Repent and ask God to shut the mouths of the LYING lion (Satan) who deceived you.

We have all been deceived at some point. No? Did you ever believe in Santa Claus, or the tooth fairy, or the Easter bunny? Did you ever believe a lie someone that you loved told you, only to find out later that it was a lie?

Then you have been deceived. When you were a little child, did one of your parents tell you that chocolate milk comes from brown cows? Then, you have been deceived. 

Were you told that Adam and Eve ate an apple in the Garden? - that an apple was the "forbidden fruit"?

Then you have been deceived. It was probably Balaam's donkey or one of her distant cousins, a horse, that told you it was an apple. Then,  you have been deceived.

Nummy! Apples!
photo credit_ DreamsTime-Royal-free

They wanted you to stop eating apples (IF, in fact, they are the forbidden fruit) because they love apples, and wanted them all to themselves.  Just saying...

By the by, a little trivia. 

Back to a more serious note, the Bible is silent about what kind of fruit the forbidden fruit was. However, a Jewish professor, Azzan Yadin-Israel, wrote a book called: Temptation Transformed (University of Chicago Press, 2022).

Azzan Yadin-Israel, professor
of Jewish Studies at
Ruegers University, New Brunswick, N.J.

He gave Andrea Alexander the answer from his studies that he wrote in his book. The information was given for a lecture that was held at Douglass Student Center in New Brunswick, New Jersey, in February 2023. She also submitted the information in an article that she wrote for Rutgers University.

It all started back when the Bible was translated into Latin. In that language, the word "malum" happens to be a homonym of the Latin word for both "evil or bad" and "apple". A homonym is when one word with the same spelling has two separate meanings. 

For example:

* lead -- "a metal", or to "guide someone"

One word, same spelling, two separate meanings. The pronunciation for both words is identical, and transliterated into English in the same way, creating what has been called a "well-known linguistic coincidence".

Azzan Yadin-Israel wrote: "Since, the argument goes, the forbidden fruit caused the fall of man and humanity's expulsion from paradise, it is certainly a terrible malum ("evil"). So what fruit is a more likely candidate than the malum, "apple". this view has become received wisdom and is found in scholarly works across fields and disciplines."

That is interesting, is it not? Even though it is proven that the misunderstanding is due to a language barrier, or where one word took on two separate meanings, it is still an accepted work amongst scholars.

That makes me shake my head. It is like opening one's arms to deception.

End of trivia.

Back to the false prophets...

Pride keeps some of the false prophets from mentioning Romans 3:23, where it is written that ALL have fallen short of His glory, not some, but all of us. A-L-L. --- ALL! 

Like Porky Pig always said: "That's all, folks!"

ALL
 have fallen short

God Does Not Reveal Everything to Any One Person

What a Creator we have! His eye for detail and beauty is unmatched! Why, oh my, just look at the false teachers and false prophets who strut around now like a beautiful peacock with its plumage in full colourful display. 

beautiful peacock -- credit _Britannica

What a marvellous Creator we have!
peacock, full plumage on display
credit -- Britannica

They would have us believe that God tells them everything. And no rudeness toward you intended, Mr. Troy Black, but you make it seem like El Shaddai gives you the goods on a great number of people. Firstly, God is NOT a gossip.

It seems God tells you more than He told His good friend, Abraham. Good gracious, He did not even tell His only begotten and much beloved Son everything [in whom He is well pleased -- [Mat 3:17] ... such as the day or the hour that Jesus would be returning. Well, maybe He has been waiting to tell you. 

My apologies, I am being facetious. But when you post these videos time and time again with the titles promoted by "seducing spirits" aka "clickbait", are you targeting the naive, or the prophet chasers, or silly women? (and the innocent, those searching for truth but are not yet saved)?

Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away. For among them are those who creep into households and capture weak women, burdened with sins and led astray by various lusts [passions], always learning, and never able to arrive at a knowledge of the truth. [2Tim 3:5-7]

The Great TPUSA Distraction

I added much more to this article than I had originally intended, but there were things I felt had to be said. May the Holy Spirit do what He does best, and lead people where they will best be fed spiritually, helping them to discern, and teaching them what to look for in order to discern properly.

And to all the false teachers that tell people, "Don't judge", you need to learn that discernment requires judgment. One has to 'judge' to discern 'good' from 'evil', 'right' from 'wrong', 'truth' from 'error'. 

When Jesus spoke about not judging, He meant that we can NOT judge whether a person will go to heaven or not because He is not willing that ANY should perish, but that ALL (there's that word again), should come to repentance. 

However, will ALL come to repentance? Sadly, no. We know that not all will because it is written that there will be a falling away in the end times. That means walking away from the faith, not embracing it. 

We need to be able to discern (judge) the wolves in sheep's clothing, the goats, the hirelings, the charlatans, etc. We need to be able to judge, to discern, the familiar spirits, the seducing spirits, etc. It is Satan that does not want us to judge. We are to judge righteous judgment.

And when He comes, He will convince 
the world of sin, and of righteousness,
and of judgment
[Jn 16:8]

The first place we begin is with humility, and humbly praying for the help, wisdom, and guidance of the Holy Spirit, giving thanks to our King and Lord for teaching us; thanking Him for His Word. That is the next place where we go to learn about righteous judgment. 

We need to feed our spiritual man with the Bread of Life, and to nourish ourselves with living Water. Jesus is those things, and He is written about throughout the entire Bible, from the Old and New Testament alike. 

We need the Lord and we need to involve Jesus/Yeshua wholly in our surrendered life. You will not regret it. He will be our strength, our wisdom, our everything if we let Him.

Yes, I know, even the false prophets are saying that now. They have the advantage of AI (Did you wonder how we would do "greater works than Jesus"? We will never out-do the Lord...but AI, and other incredible technologies will surely be advantageous to this last generation.

Who is Charlie Kirk?

At first, when I stumbled across the news of Charlie Kirk's assassination, I was working on my War and Witchcraft series. I had never heard of Charlie Kirk before or a magazine called Jezebel.

However, I happened upon a news article that had been written and put in Jezebel, an extreme feminist magazine. According to Newsweek, the magazine wrote an article statingEsty witches paid to curse Charlie Kirk

That was the beginning of the piecing together of this more recent and one of the last big distractions that I have been mentioning. What I have come up with comes from the leading and direction of the Lord.

However, it has come over time (Kirk was assassinated on July 20, 2025) with the leading of the Lord, much researching, much prayer and many tears, and the help of many hands belonging to people I most likely will never meet on this side of heaven. Some of those hands are simply dirty, and we do not want to touch them.

The piecing together of the Charlie Kirk story all began with a verse on conspiracy.

For the Lord spoke to me with a strong hand, and instructed me that I should not walk in the way of this people, saying, A conspiracy, to all them to whom this people shall say, A conspiracy; neither fear their fear, nor be afraid.

Sanctify the Lord of hosts Himself; and let HIM be  your fear, and let HIM be your dread. [Is 8:11-13]

At first I was almost convinced that the Lord was instructing me not to join people in their conspiratorial thoughts regarding the assassination of Charlie Kirk, or the bizarre grieving of his wife, Erika. 

In fact, I confided that exact understanding to a close friend (who, unbeknownst to me, had already heard of the shooting of Kirk - but then again, she is American).But that was not what He was saying. Remember, Satan uses scripture too.

I returned to pray about it and felt the nudging in my spirit to go back to Isaiah 8 and read what the chapter was about, and glean any message the good Lord may be speaking to me through His Word.


Fear God
Wait for the Lord
photo -- Dreamstime - Free-Stock

When I returned to the book of Isaiah, chapter eight, my attention was immediately drawn to a subtitle that was posted directly above  verse 11, which was the scripture I was moved to begin with and write down.

It said: Fear God, Wait for the Lord, and near it was written: Fear God's power, not man's. That truly spoke to me because I was searching the Word, during prayer time with the Lord, regarding this man Kirk and his assassination.

A man certainly feels powerful when he has a weapon in his hand, but no matter what, God's power is greater. In re-reading the verses that I had read before, the words that seemed highlighted were in verse 12 which mentions a conspiracy, with the instructions: "neither fear their fear nor be afraid".

He speaks to us through His Word, and yes (though some disagree) in our hearts. His faithfulness of Adonai is immeasurable. In the upcoming articles, I will break down more the way the Lord reveals and is leading me.

Team work, not a competition against each other
Let us love one another - I love you...
We need to be working as one body,
with Christ Jesus as the Head.
Without the head, the body dies.
Selah...

And I love how He speaks through others, too. It is NOT a competition. We are to work as a team. Jesus meant for us to be one body working together, with Him as the HEAD. Without the head, the body dies. We need Jesus, admit it or not.

Israel was mentioned in scripture in Isaiah eight, and I sensed an alert in my spirit. It is the first mention, but more were to come (and all this is STILL a work in progress).

So much is happening in the world, is it not? Yet, we can and must rest and trust in Him. Be anxious for nothing, take all to Him in prayer, with thanksgiving. [Phil 4:6] Jesus comforts us.

Over the course of the next few weeks, step by step, He has led, is leading, and will lead. The Lord is not in a hurry, but He does have appointed times and things planned. He is the Providential God, Sovereign, majestic.

We are His children, His people, and we are at His command. Is it not glorious? What an honour, what a joy to be His...Thank You for all You did, are doing, and will do for us, Jesus. 

Next came the scriptures in Matthew 24, take heed no man deceive you – Jesus/Yeshua warning about being deceived, to guard against it four times in that chapter.  I am mentioning scriptures, words, verses, etc, but not in the order given or led. Then Egypt was highlighted, but so was the word “idolatry”, and Israel, and judgment. David, Bathsheba, Delilah, Jezebel, Solomon. 

If you try and guess, you likely will guess wrong. There is much to sort through, but I am cherry-picking from memory, and it is not in the order that I was led. It is not going to all be written here, not now. I am getting tired.

How I love Israel, but not as much as our Creator does. But if we are ungrateful children; if we become rebellious and disobedient, we will earn His wrath, His anger. Throughout history, God's people would go through stages, obey and worship, rebel and commit idolatry.

Look at the nations today. Are any a fine example of grateful, loving children? Whatever we want to do, we do it. Are we at the place yet where it is written that everyone does what is right in their own eyes?  Yet, He was pointing to Israel, time and again…and judgment. Why, Lord, I asked. At the beginning, I fasted and prayed. Hindrances, distractions…it was getting frustrating.

I do not believe in replacement theology, nor am I against Israel. But throughout its history, Israel, like the rest of us, kept getting into hot water and disobeying God. What are you showing  me, Lord?

Behind the Beautiful Mask

Erika Kirk, how I prayed…how badly I felt for being suspicious of her. She was part of the reason for the fast. How could I be so cold-hearted, suspecting; it would not shake free.

red warning flag waving

Deception, deception – red flags were waving.  The Lord reminded me of when He moved on me to write about the season of Judas’ (plural) back in June 2025.

He brought up Jezebel, a word I am slow to use, always have been because too many in the church seem to call everyone they do not like or they disagree with a “Jezebel”. It was after the word was highlighted in the Bible (I had hung onto it for awhile), that I stumbled across the story of Charlie Kirk. The Jezebel magazine had published a story.

There is much more I have been working on, but the distractions, the hindrances…have been unavoidable, and so frustrating. right now, our beautiful just turned two-year-old Bluetick hound dog mix is very sick. We are not sure what is wrong...pray the Lord keeps His hand upon Him and heal him, or at least, hold him steady until my pension comes in or we get resources, hopefully in a couple of days.

I might have chewed this branch too much

this will bring it back to life

It didn't grow back when
it was watered. How come?
Now what to do...thinking, thinking...

Noble is a big dog, but he just turned two a couple of weeks ago. It is my son's dog. He is a mutt lol - His parents were Bluetick Coonhound dog and Boxer, so those are the most dominant features. 

However, he is also Bulldog and Golden Retriever. Huh? Yeah, I know, I know - quite the combo.

For the longest time I kept calling him a Bluetooth Coonhound dog. Talk about "programmed", lol... 

I could not quite get used to Bluetick  (I think it is because I do not like ticks. Haha). I have it under control now - Bluetick coonhound dog.

We are not quite sure what is wrong. He limps he barely gets up. He finally ate today, but he will not drink water. He will eat ice cubes though. Praise God. He has an ear infection, and possibly stomach problems. Please pray if you are so led...until we can get him to a vet. 

His name is Noble because we wanted him to somehow honour the Creator - who gave him life, and gave him to us. People are frightened because of his deep, loud bark, and his size. But he is very gentle, not aggressive; does not go up to people and bark. They soon get over their initial fear when they see his demeanour is gentle and calm. Bless the Lord

Now, his getting sick is a major hindrance...a major distraction. He whimpers and cries out a lot, and needs much love and attention right now. It hurts to see him suffer;  one fights tears, but we serve an awesome God, and today there was a slight improvement, meaning - he ate, and took several ice cubes.

We will wait upon the Lord. Noble is such a good boy. God loves him even more than we do. I have peace in my heart. It is always good to get ourselves to the place of rest in Jesus. Amen


Wrapping It Up for Now

I will stop here for now just to post this much. I am so far behind…I have many file folders filled with topics, complete with links for work done by others. People put time and effort into their work. It is only proper to give credit where credit is due, and acknowledge the name of the contributor. 

The Lord is faithful. This so-called “revival” was/is not of God. Many believe it is, but no…not this one. Those of us who are the  more mature Christians long for the youth who are lost, or who are the prodigals, to come into the kingdom. 

With each generation, the middle-aged and elderly state that the youth are "the future", which is true. The cycle of life continues, from birth to the grave. Hope is always in the 'new', the 'youth'.

The elderly are supposed to possess patience and compassion, which come from long lessons of "learning to wait" teaches. With the ancient is wisdom, and with length of days comes understanding. [Job 12:12]

Those in the middle can glean from the youth because it was not so long ago for them, and they remember. Together, they can rejoice in their walk. They to find truth amidst all this deception, to find hope, understanding, encouragement, but mostly, loving acceptance . 

For the Lord to strengthen them, and ground them in truth.

And it is sad about this so-called revival, but God is not done. Satan is not the victor. Jesus  is…always! Emotionalism hit the globe - majorly. Let us continue to pray. There will be a  great falling away. Already we are witnessing it with the scandals that have been revealed in the past few years.

 I am believing the Lord to touch the hearts of those rejected, abused, misunderstood, abandoned, taken advantage of, given false hope, the prodigals, the searching...Your will be done, Father. Be glorified.

Familiar Spirits

Satan is a liar, a counterfeiter, a deceiver. He came to steal, to kill, and to destroy. Prayer is going up. The Lord may call for a fast. This is a heads up. I cannot say for sure, but it is a possible. 

He deals with us individually and corporately. Whether He leads me to fast and pray, and likely others (privately). He deals with us in wisdom, knowing the circumstances and individual situations. All is in His competent hands.

We are all going through a lot these days. It is a busy, chaotic time. We can wholly trust in Jesus, undoubtedly.

Delilah and Jezebel...these were two women who were likely very attractive seducing spirits. They were manipulative, and the men seemed to be quite smitten with them. 

Delilah betrayed Samson. He did not trust her at first, but she sweet-talked him into trusting her and for the love of money, she handed him over to his enemy...

Samson had wisdom, and was not easily manipulated. Yet, he loved her. It took Delilah several attempts before she successfully discovered his secrets. [Judges 16:18]

What is the Lord telling us by turning the spotlight on Delilah and Samson? Was it that Samson revealed his "secrets" [his "strong" points [strength]) to her? 

David and Bathsheba

King David and beautiful Bathsheba

David and Bathsheba, these are souls and their stories that were brought to my attention. King David was taken in by her beauty...he was a man in a position of leadership. 

Bathsheba's husband was taken out of the way. She was pregnant. It is a sad story...betrayal, deception, lust. So what is the Lord revealing?

I will likely have to fast further to find out why the Lord put this couple upon my heart. It is most troubling.

What is Israel doing that we may not know about, but God does? Why is the word judgment coming before my eyes with different scriptures. More on this in another article, but I am searching. I love Israel; it is because of their rebellion that I, as a Gentile, was able to come to Jesus.

Like I said, I have always stood by Israel because we are the wild branch grafted, but we cannot be caught up in the sins of Israel if they are once more rebelling or into idolatry.

We know that for the most part, they have not understood that Yeshua (our Jesus) is their Messiah. There are certainly Messianic Jews in Israel, but the majority of the nation has not accepted Jesus.

Also, and it grieves me to say this, but Israel has the largest PRIDE (gay parade) in the middle EAST, in Tel Aviv. 2024 was different, in that they had no parades due to the hostages still held by Hamas. June is Pride Month – Tel Aviv

What connection does Israel have with TPUSA because it was another reason that I did a seven-day fast - to pray. (I was very upset with myself for having doubts and suspicions regarding Erika. It still has not settled. I am learning more...

I posted it as hints a few weeks ago. It was well over a month ago that the Lord highlighted David and Bathsheba, and I broke down crying, not knowing why. Hindrances - distractions. Seducing spirits...warning, warnings!

Yahweh has raised His providential hand...be encouraged. Be strengthened.

Jesus/Yeshua has been training us, answering our prayers for increased discernment, for strengthening, for increased wisdom, and healing. We look eagerly for direction. Our arms open to welcome more into the kingdom of God. Think about it. All the angels rejoice over one soul, ONE soul who repents. Can you imagine what a party is going with many? 

Growing pains are never enjoyable, but the benefits are worth it. Critical thinking is something that needs to be combined with the Word of God and prayer. Let us keep trusting God.

Jesus never fails.

for His glory

to be continued...asap

Bonita                          dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

PS This has been so frustrating. Constantly today my daughter wants to talk to me (she's 41), and every time I am doing stuff she comes in. I love my daughter, absolutely, but I feel today the interruptions have been so many, I think there has been some help on the spiritual side to 'hinder' me. I am so tired, I will have to check for editing tomorrow 25 or 26th- BP



Tuesday, July 15, 2025

The Test of Faith - Part 1

 

An unseen test

(NOTE*: The following paragraphs are not in the original article. Readers will be notified of these additions which will be inserted as “notes”. It will say 'end note' when it goes back to the original article-BP)

Consider the hour. Allow the Holy Spirit to lead you…


Forgetting the Goodness of Adonai (Jesus)

I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. [Ps 27:13]

Holy, holy, holy is the name of Jesus…(Yeshua)

 Dear souls, we all need to stop for a moment in our hectic days (whether that busyness is physical or mental), and reflect upon Jesus, who reconciles us back to God, we have much to be grateful for.

Do we truly understand how precious we are to Him, and why He despises sin that destroys us, and why those who chose evil over good anger Him? Molded in the very image of God, He created man. He breathed into him, and he became a living spirit. All that Yahweh created was good.

When Adam (and Eve) messed up, He was not willing to destroy them even after they became corrupted by sin, although none could question the Creator.

 

Yet He planned a way to reconcile mankind back to Himself, after sin separated us from His presence. That way is the ONLY way. It is truth and LIFE. Jesus (Yeshua) IS the [only] way, truth and life, and no one goes to the Father but through Him. [Jn 14:6] 

Have you ever had a day [or days] where, yes, you read the Bible, but it is a quick read? I have. Perhaps just a few verses are read or a short chapter before closing the Holy Book and moving on because something else is captivating your attention, whether physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually.

Have you ever found yourself low on gratitude, despite all the times before that you offered up sincere thanksgiving? Is there a time when life or circumstances slid your soul into a selfish, fleshly mode, forgetting [even if temporarily] the goodness of your Maker because you have hit a patch of hardship that is not fair at all.

Owning our sin and godly repentance brings forgiveness, and the Lord never brings it up again. The devil does, and some people might, but never the Lord – not once a sin is forgiven.

What the spilling of His blood did for mankind…if we can get that down, deep down into our understanding and remembrance, we will fight harder against sin. It is agape love.

We are commanded to love God with all we are, and we love Him because He first loved us. His perfect love draws us to godly sorrow and repentance…humbles us because of His goodness.

O that men would praise the Lord for His goodness, and for His wonderful works to the children of men! For He satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness. [Ps 107:8-9]

Truth be told, I think most, if not all of us, can recall times that life seemed unfair, or something happened that caused our strength to drain from our body, leaving us focusing on the events happening rather than leaning on God in surrender that trusts. As we grow and mature in Christ, we are often fairly confident about our trust in God, are we not?

Great! But what happens when that trust is unexpectedly tried? Will it stand the test of faith or will you discover that time, trials, and hardships slowly chipped away at your trust, unbeknownst to you?

When troubles strike fast, hard and relentlessly, with some trials seemingly to be without end, how often do any of us remember Yahweh’s past mercies and goodness toward us?

We just want the trouble to stop, the hardship to go away. Maybe we are pleading for the return of something we lost, whether a person, place or thing. And if it does not come, then what?

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Will faith stand the test – any test?

Even the more righteous children of God at times forgot all He had done for them [albeit temporarily], when they were tempted beyond their strength – like Samson, Job, Elijah, kings Saul, David, and Solomon, apostle Peter, and many others before us.

NOTE*: This following article was first posted in November, 2016. Another life lesson occurred recently that corresponds with this article. Therefore, as you read along, you will see many “notes”, which include the above introduction. These notes, with their paragraphs, are not in the original article (link provided at the end of this writing). They were added in this article for the past week, up until today July 14, 2025 End note BP

 Tried by Fire

Original Intro: > At the very start of this article, I will say that most of what I write [on this blog] is geared towards those who are disciples of Jesus Christ.

However, my heart is concerned for the lost, the backslidden, the prodigals, [those searching], the struggling, all who are on their way to the lake of fire where they will be forever separated from God.

If you wonder why my concern, it is for three crucial reasons. Firstly, we are commanded by Yahweh, and reminded through His beloved and only begotten Son Jesus/Yeshua, to love Him with all we are [mind, soul, heart, strength], and to love our neighbour as ourselves. All the commandments hang upon these two.

Secondly, I once was all those things, lost, backslidden, searching, struggling, the prodigal, and on my way to hell, or more realistically stated, the lake of fire, lost forever.

And lastly, time is of the essence – look around. The Word of God regarding the last of the last days is dramatically unravelling before our very eyes, for those who have eyes to see and are not in denial.

For All Have Sinned

[NOTE*: And for that very reason, I use examples from my own life in my writings – the good, the bad, and the ugly, with the intent and desire to help a prodigal, the lost, or anyone in danger of being forever separated from God.

To point them to Jesus, to be saved and reconciled back to God, to be filled with the Holy Spirit, and to encourage them to get to know the true Jesus Christ (Yeshua) and the living Word of God, the Bible – there they will find answers, wisdom, and guidance needed.

And yes, I speak even to the faithful who are so battle-weary, so tired (for various reasons) that sometimes they find themselves struggling (against bitterness, anger, impatience, sheer frustration!) The latter? That would be me.

What happened? We should know and understand that there is no perfect Christian – only Yeshua/Jesus walked perfectly. We are being molded into His image, but it is a long process. It will not be completed until we are in our glorified bodies, not these corrupted vessels.

Most, if not all of us, are very quick to point to those in the Bible as examples when it comes to people of God who sinned, in an effort to playdown the significance of our own sins.

We might point to those mentioned previously up above (Job, Jacob, Jonah, kings Saul, David, Solomon, Peter), or anyone who was considered godly who ‘messed up’, thus justifying our sin by pointing to those in the Bible.

Sin is transgressing against God’s will, which has consequences. Some will point out how God blessed these people despite their ‘sins’, yet hesitate to mention their own sins and shortcomings if they think it might tarnish their glowing ‘image’.

Pointing out others who fell short of the glory of God can be a flawed attempt at diminishing our own sins. We cannot shirk our personal responsibility. We are accountable for our words, thoughts and deeds.

 I do not think we are called to present all our mess(es) before all the people. Some people will trample on confidences, misconstrue a matter, exaggerate it, or hold it over ones’ head.

However, it is written: Confess [your] faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much. [Jam 6:16]

The Catholic priests are trained to listen to the confessions of ‘sinners’, but only God (Jesus) can forgive the sins of mankind. He spilled His blood for us. The above scripture is not instructing us to confess our sins to someone so we can be forgiven as if they were God. [Jesus is God incarnate – God in the flesh]

It is my understanding that the Lord is instructing us that if we trespass [hurt or offend] against someone, then we are to go to the one we trespassed against, and humbly confess our faults (error) to them.

If they come to us, we can forgive their wrong against us, meaning to let it go into God’s hands, where the forgiveness of sins comes through Jesus the Messiah. Or vice versa, if we are the offender.

[…] Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. (The Lord’s Prayer) [Mat 6:12; Lk 11:4]

It is my experience that we cannot hate anyone we earnestly and fervently pray for. The humility in confessing a fault(s), followed by prayer brings healing…of the relationship, of the offense. It is good and the Lord blesses it (it avails much). End NOTE - BP2025July]

If I am to drive home one point, it would be this. There is hope in this turbulent time, and that I say with utmost confidence because of the Lord. It is not peace as the world gives, but a peace that passes all understanding - the peace of God [Jesus] being with you; the peace of being forgiven; the peace of knowing future hope - the peace that only abiding in Jesus Christ and He in you can give.

In His wisdom, He [Jesus] humbled me. In His love for me, He chastened me in the furnace of affliction, as the intensity of the fire shone into the deeper places of my heart. So hidden that I was even unaware…and sometimes the revealing of such impurities [dross] is hard to bear.

[NOTE*: I am not special, so please do not misunderstand and read more into this than what I am saying. The Lord corrects all who are His, as any loving parent does. I have said a thousand times that the Lord is so incredible in that He has a way of making each one of us feel like we are an only child, special to Him! It is agape love, a love we are not accustomed to on earth – End note – BP]

But to get to the root is to shake free…just as dross (impurities in silver and gold) is brutally loosened in intense fires to be able to come to the surface and be skimmed away, so the Lord deals with us, with the Holy Spirit and with fire.

                                

The Humility of Correction

And the Holy Spirit reminded me of the words He placed within my spirit: It is better to walk in the humility of correction than in the pride of error.

[NOTE*: It was earlier this year, 2016, or late last year [2015] that the above saying was placed upon my heart. It is God’s wisdom, not mine BP]

The sting of the impurities is strong as they are shaken loose so they will surface and be taken away ([disposed ofas sinful waste) is a hard but necessary process. It can be overpowering at first to one who sees [acknowledges] and owns their sin. It demands humility and truth, determination and strength to unite as one, as pride and error lose its hold and is overcome by God, an all-consuming fire. The Holy Spirit overcomes the flesh.

[NOTE*: Nine years after this is written, there is an even keener awareness and deeper understanding of one of the statements contained in the NT [New Testament] gospel.

A Pop Quiz [Surprise Test, No Warning]

Something happened a few days ago that opened my eyes to how easily I personally can trip up in a place that I thought I had conquered with Christ Jesus – and the Holy Spirit, of course, but still, conquered.

When it was over, I was ashamed, shaken, confused, and condemned; not condemned by God or by Jesus, but by myself and the adversary Satan. As people, we are quick to share our victories and successes with others as “testimony”, doing our best to keep our shirt buttons from popping (keeping ‘pride’ at bay).

However, we are slower with sharing “testimony” when it comes to our failures or our sins. We want to keep those under wraps, keep them between us and the Lord, learn from them and carry on.

But sometimes the Lord determines a thing is to be an example. It is written:

Being confident of this very thing, that He which has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ [Yeshua Mashiach]. [Phil 1:6]

 My heart to share is due to the knowing (as I speak with friends or sisters in Christ, as well as in letters from people) that we tend to think that we are alone in failing Jesus or in sinning against God, whether it be in a test or in some temptation that proved too strong against us.

Even though most of us have heard that others are going through things the same as us (with the intent to comfort us), more often than not, we are not so convinced. We feel alone, and tend to think others will not or do not understand the full extent of what we are going through.

Pride is subtle, and self-pity can be selfish; each one tends to think of itself, but we serve a good God who gives us understanding in His lessons, if we are willing to be taught (receive).

Another thing we often hear is that we must be teachable. Agreed! However, we must also be reachable. What is the difference?

Some are only teachable if they teach themselves or learn from a source they choose, such as a book, or a documentary, or through a trusted person. But to be reachable, we must be able to accept constructive criticism and lessons from all reliable sources, even unexpected (and perhaps unfavourable) sources.

First and foremost, we need to be willing to allow Jesus, through His Word and the Holy Spirit, to teach us. That is being reachable.

For example, what if we are in error but it is not detected by us because it lies deep within, or we are blind to it, or we are in denial to it if it was pointed out. That is where Jesus, through the Holy Spirit, comes in.

And sometimes the only way we will “see” it and admit to it is if we are tested in it and we fail the test. That is what happened to me recently. Something I thought I had dealt with and conquered (all thanksgiving to God), cropped up, and man, did I fail the test! End note-BP)

Tried by Fire

Only someone who owns a thing can give it away. Confession of sin is ownership. It’s reality; it is the nature of mankind, the fallen nature. To be rid of sinful waste is akin to skimming off the dross.

It is a purifying process, the dross as it were. Jesus is the Refiner, purchased and paid for us by His very blood. He is close to a broken and contrite heart, which the humility of confession brings – godly sorrow unto repentance.

If He chooses me to be but one voice to speak forth a message, please do remember (as I always stress emphatically), the messenger gets the message first! What’s the mean?

It means I best pay attention; I too must search my own heart and must confess and repent of anything the Holy Spirit reveals in me that is impure, unjust, unrighteous, sinful.

[NOTE*: Remember, this article was originally written in 2016, but this time there was a test that popped up – and I did not do well. End note -BP]

Pride, bitterness, unforgiveness, whatever may be hidden deep within…anything!  Any impurity that the precious Holy Spirit reveals must be separated from us, brought to the surface (acknowledged) and removed as waste (confess/repent), so that we may be purified and refined. We must turn away from our sin. He will purge us, but we must go through the fire.


This is done as surely as dross (impurities) is separated from silver and gold and skimmed away (removed), so that what remains is refined as silver and purified as gold. This is part of being molded into the image of Christ Jesus (Messiah Yeshua).

Many justify themselves by saying with utter confidence, “Well, God knows my heart.” It is true that God does indeed know our heart, but do we? It says many times throughout scripture that He will try the heart, and it will be tried by fire, even in the furnace of affliction. [Is 48:10]

In Deuteronomy 8:2, the Lord speaks to the Israelites, explaining that He led them in the wilderness to humble and prove them (try/test), to find out what was in their hearts and whether they would keep His commandments or not.

 I the Lord search the heart, I try (test) the reins (mind/will)even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit (results) of his doings. [Jer17:10]

1 Peter 1:7 states: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.

The trying of our heart and reins (mind/will) is found all throughout scripture, from the Old Testament to the New. We can choose to go through, or we can excuse sin, justify it, compromise or walk away. I am not “all that”, nor have I “arrived”. The Lord is still doing a work in me and shall until the day I pass from this life and time.

However, we must choose to work with Him. We are to be overcomers [Rev 12:11] and to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. [Phil 2:12] Our works do not save us, but our faith produces action; the fruit of our faith will be glad obedience to God and all He asks of us [His will].

It is time to choose sides and to stand, watch, pray and wait…He is bringing us all together, step by step.

Pain Can Change You

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[NOTE*: Slightly over two weeks ago, Saturday, June 28, on Canada’s birthday weekend [July 1 was on a Tuesday this year], a strange thing happened which afterwards, could only be considered a test of faith…a test without warning that I failed.

If your faith were suddenly tried/tested today or shortly, without warning (like a pop quiz), would your faith fail you? Consider carefully. The apostle Peter did not think so, and neither did I.

I said earlier that something came up that I thought I had conquered with the help of the Holy Spirit, and it was conquered. However, over the course of time since that victorious triumph, many more battles have ensued, also challenges and hardships.

Unless one suffers with [chronic] pain that does not go away, it is difficult to explain how it can chip away at our strength, our emotions, our mental stability, our moods, our social life, and possibly even our character.

As it increases, we either depend more on God, or we become bitter, angry, frustrated, or worse. I struggle at times, but with the help of Jesus, I do my best to repent if anger, bitterness, or other negativity crops up.

My pain may be physical, but what of those who carry an emotional or mental pain? It is just as real; it can be just as devastating. It too can make one bitter, angry, frustrated, confused, feeling hopeless, etc.

It is a fight, but with God, we can make it. We can! It is hard, not easy, and people know that when it comes to sin and the flesh, we must overcome. And we cannot do it alone because we have a powerful adversary. People want to pooh-pooh that, but do not!

It is such a reality that it is written that we overcome him [the devil, Satan, the adversary] by the blood of the Lamb and the Word of our testimony. [Rev 12:11] Jesus/Yeshua is the Word [Jn 1:1] which became flesh and dwelt among us (we beheld His glory…) [Jn 1:14]. The blood of the Saviour is precious; His very LIFE for us!

As for me, little did I know that changes were taking place, slowly and subtly but still taking place. Daniel warned of the “wearing down of the saints”. [Dan7:25] This does not necessarily mean to wear us down with physical pain, that is only one way. No!

I believe it tends to mean the mental and spiritual strength of the saints, which the enemy does over a period of time, but sometimes he does it in one fell swoop like he did to Job. He wants to rob us of our faith, tempt us, and cause us to be depressed and full of fear.

We can fall back into old ways without even trying. Spiritual warfare is a reality, not in the sense that the false prophets and false teachers present it, but I assure you, it is more real than most give it credit.

“We don’t want to give the devil glory – we don’t want to overemphasize the flesh.” Fine, say that, but you are only fooling yourself. Yes, some exaggerate things, but there are those types who exaggerate with anything you can think of.

Reality check: Talking about spiritual warfare is not giving the devil glory when we know Jesus (Yeshua) is already the victor. Even Sun Tzu, a wise general and a Chinese military strategist instructed people to know their enemy and themselves.

Sun Tzu
A person stating that they do not want to give the devil glory is like saying you know he exists but he does not bother you, so why mention him? It is unwise to be too quick to dismiss mention of the enemy. We must know him. The Bible gives a clear picture of his nature, his intent, and the great evil that he is, as are his legions. The reality is that we are in daily battles; one with our flesh, one with the world, and one with the devil.


All three want all of the attention from us. All three want to be desired and worshipped, but the devil takes the prize for pride.

The Spirit of Fear Embraces Unbelief

For me, trust had been an issue for decades in my life, due to far too many dramatic and extreme circumstances in my life, from infancy on up into adulthood. It affected my relationship with people, but even more so with God. Fear, which I was confident I had replaced with trust, gave way to unbelief.

It was sometime shortly after midnight on that warm Saturday summer night, when three vehicles were oddly situated on the street outside my home. Earlier that day there had been a quiet party at one of the neighbours. All was well and folks left early…until late evening arrived and this happened.

 

I had been doing something on the computer when something caused me to glance outside (my desk is by the living room window). Two cars were facing the same way [one illegally] on the road.

Another was backing up the driveway directly across the street. With the two vehicles facing the same direction, one was legally stopped by the curb; the other car was beside it, sitting in the middle of the road the wrong way.

Nervously, I shut the computer off (due to the odd parking and the truck going back and forth in a strange manner in the driveway). I do not know if I could be seen through the sheers, but I could not see anything inside of any vehicle. It was too dark.

My imagination was going wild and a spirit of fear moved upon me. It had only been a short time earlier that I had posted about praying for Christian Iranians, and how they are not part of the Islamic regime.

In my neighbourhood block are countless families from the Middle East. I never thought much about it until the post and the bizarre movement of the vehicles.

When I shut the PC off, one vehicle inched slowly forward, then moved backward again as IF to see in my window. This was repeated a few times. How utterly bizarre, so odd.

How much can be seen at night is unknown, but my curtains are sheer. The fear that came over me was surreal. Was it the post? Why was I so paranoid?

Or was something happening against a neighbour and the light from my computer made the drivers aware of others being up? Were they nervous about being watched, or was everything I was seeing an illusion, and nothing to worry about?

To cut to the quick, the moving around of the vehicles, back and forth, with one that had been parked the wrong way on the street, only to suddenly turn the car around and park the right way, all seemed so freakish...bizarre.

None of it was normal. Were the people high? Were they up to no good, or was it just drunken behavior? After all, there had been a birthday celebration earlier.

The other vehicle had also turned around and parked legally behind the car at the curb, but away from the driveway entrance onto the roadway. Both vehicles were running, as was the truck in the driveway, but now just parking lights were on.

Prayed but No Waiting for Answer


Twenty minutes passed and my fear was surreal. With my physical disabilities I knew there was no way I could defend myself. I did pray and quoted scriptures, but my heart was racing, my spirit unsettled.

I grabbed my walker and headed toward my daughter’s room, waking her up. She wasn’t up immediately, so I headed back to the living room. She came about five minutes later. The activity had been going on for about 25 minutes by that time. She looked out the window, stating that everything seemed calm.

When she said so, I too looked out. The vehicle in the driveway was now turned off, including their parking lights as well. It was still. One vehicle had left, and the other was sitting with just parking lights on. 

There was now nothing unusual or freaky happening. My daughter gave me a hug, tears of relief fell, and I was feeling very foolish and ashamed. She silently hugged me for a minute or so.

As I looked out again, I observed that the two cars were both gone now (that fast, within a minute), and the truck sat quietly parked for the night in the driveway. What had just happened? It was almost like I had imagined it all, but I know that I did not.

                                    

Embarrassed, I stated that sometimes when things seem odd, all we need is someone else’s perspective to calm us. She agreed, told me she loved me, and went back to bed. Now, I sat silently upon the couch, feeling like a doofa (female version of ‘doofus’).

God had answered prayer when I prayed during the height of all the activity, just not as "fast or quickly as I had hoped. I was impatient, full of fear and unbelief...

I had prayed before I went to wake up my daughter, calling on God to help me. I quoted Isaiah 54:17 and other scriptures. But I did not even give God time to respond. It was a microwave moment (where things had to be instant) … but it was not to be, so I ran to ‘mankind' (in this case, my daughter), instead of waiting upon God. Trusting in a person instead of trusting in our Sovereign God!

I had failed God. How could I face Him now? Fear and unbelief took the place of faith and trust. Now I did not even know what to say to Yahweh. God saw it all.

Confusion, shame, condemnation, guilt – every negative feeling and thought now hindered me. How could I have not trusted God? He worked with me for 39 years with several miraculous interventions, and this was the outcome? Why?

How could I have failed Jesus in such a serious way?

To be continued…

for His glory

Bonita                   dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com