No Handouts
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I could use a hand over here... |
I have spent two nights up doing researching, mingled with sincere prayers, and yes, tears. Sleep has been a distant stranger, although I have caught myself snapping out of a 'nod-out' (oh no, a Biden moment?!) Squeaks out a 'help'...
For someone who went through their street life and countless years through young adulthood NOT crying because I was told 'strong girls don't cry', and other times being called a coward if I did cry, it seems like these past dozen years [especially past seven, give or take], some hidden reservoir has been emptying out of me. It is a good thing - a healing thing.
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blowout |
A pressure cooker can only take so much pressure before it blows! The blowout can hurt, and may require healing time, depending on the damage done, and the reason behind the 'blowout'. Blockage to the 'vent' was my reason. Washing with pure water (the WORD of God) began the healing.
How the true living God puts up with everything happening is beyond me; I cannot fathom it. The world's condition, the hearts of so many—the rage, hatred, cruelties—the list is too long.
Yet the astounding reality of God's love in that He has not wiped out the entire race is even more mind-boggling. It is a very good thing that we were made in HIS image and not the other way around. Thank You Yeshua!
My deep and sincere prayers have led to much in-depth research, and I am blown away. Back in 2009, which was posted, the Lord (not me) said, "That which you see is not as it appears to be."
The reminder was needed - I remember that I used to overhear my stepfather saying things like: Don't believe everything you hear, and only half of what you see." I did not understand it then, and it took decades before I did, and I give the Lord much thanks for that. (He has been most patient with me...)
What my heart desires now is to be and to do what He told me through scripture. When I saw the 33 (the number) that a news site had put up regarding the hostages, and the thought to fast and pray, I did ask the Lord about it.
It is important, crucially important now more than ever before in my life, and I say it without reserve and without shame. I pray that whatever I hear I would not be deceived [but able to discern]; that I would know if it comes from flesh, the world, or the enemy...His voice must be clear, and never do I want a 'copy' or 'imitation' to be mistakenly accepted.
With that being said, after the prayer, I opened a new Bible that I have rarely read. It opened immediately to 33 Ezekiel. I broke in tears at God's goodness, wisdom and omnipresence. It was last week, but I marked the [previously] unmarked Bible; I was so amazed.
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More pictures next time, but it is after 6:00 am and I need to lie down for a few...but what I have researched is heartbreaking. I ask every person who may read this to please pray about seeing clearly through any veil the enemy may have placed before the eyes - that it be removed - no deception.
But his agenda is not the one most people think it is. "O," the people say, "Look at all the executive orders. He is getting 'order' back. He is keeping his promises."
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Yeshua keeps all His promises |