While We Were Distracted_P.3_Fear Not Their Fear

If you missed it, please read this first part. Everything will be sensible, as it all falls into place.

[NOTE: Updated: Nov. 2026 - Added scripture and pictures - BP]

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The Great Hindrance

[Of David] The Lord is my light and my salvation, so why should I be afraid? Adonai [the LORD] is my fortress, protecting me from danger. Why should I tremble? [Ps 27:1] NLT [New Living Translation]

It is still a serious consideration to create a YouTube channel (likely faceless – no camera) to share whatever the Lord places upon my heart. He has countless voices. I do get that, and am well aware that I am but a drop in the bucket…an old dependable cliché.

I had a thought: allow me to express it this way.

If all of God’s messengers were water in a bucket and I were but a tablespoon of that water, my removal would scarcely be noticed. The remaining water would immediately flow in and fill the space I left behind. The reality is humbling, but the Lord is so worth it. People are desperate for truth, even though many refuse [reject] the truth when they hear it.

For two decades, I have strived to share the gospel of Jesus Christ [the Great Commission] [Mk 16:15; Mat 28:19-20] as all born-again believers, as salt and light, are instructed to do. I have done my best to never touch the glory of God or think more highly of myself than I ought, yet I do realize that my absence from the internet would not shake things up.

That is what it is all about because the work is the Lord’s; it is all His doing. As it has always been from the beginning, others will continue sharing the Good News.

Pride can be subtle (not always obvious). I have to guard against pride in myself: this flesh cannot be trusted, and my own heart can deceive me. [Jer 17:9] But Jesus! I can still mess up (hopefully less as we mature in Christ), yet Abba has done an amazing work in me compared to what I once was, just as He promised.

Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ: [Phil 1:6]

It’s imperative to me that people know that Jesus does this for everyone who sincerely hungers and thirsts for Him. He is Living Water; the Bread of Life. [Jn 4:10; 6:35] He is the Potter; we are the clay. [Is 64:8] He is the Good Shepherd; we are the sheep who can easily stray. [Jn 10:11] The same transformation and grace are available to all.

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He is not looking for perfect vessels, but rather, He is looking for vessels to perfect. 

[inspired by the precious Holy Spirit - BP2026]

As much as I have tried to keep up with daily writing, I am slower these days for many reasons. Years back, I began mentioning “distractions” in my writing, and ‘hindrances’ (such as the apostle Paul spoke of being ‘hindered’ by the adversary [Satan] [1Thes2:18].

Recently, I overheard my nine-year-old grandson warning a friend during a game to watch out for the “distraction box”, designed to lay false clues that would send ‘rogue agents’ down the wrong trail. Sounds like Satan and his minions, does it not?

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“Distraction box”. That phrase stuck with me.

Friends, every generation has faced distractions in different ways. Solomon had a point when he wrote that nothing is new under the sun. [Eccl 1:9] We have been contending with that since Eden; it is part of the fallen human nature.

However, Solomon was not exposed to the technologies or AI that we have today. Jesus did say that things that are coming are things that have never been before, and shall never be repeated.

For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be. [Mat 24:21]

The adversary and his minions, alongside the world, continually work to shape our thinking, influence our emotions, and direct our reactions, conditioning us to accept what should never be accepted. Some call it conditioning; I call it programming.

For now, I would appreciate your prayers as I consider starting a YouTube channel. I do not know whether I can continue keeping pace through writing alone. Things are moving quickly in this world, and 2030 is almost upon us. (Another topic, another day).

If you think time is going fast now, wait until the great tribulation begins. Things will move so quickly, hardly anyone will be able to keep up – except in one way. Jesus (Yeshua)! We all need Him, and that need will only increase!

What About Conspiracies?

A conspiracy is a plot or plan by two or more people involving a dangerous act or event that causes evil or harm to befall others.

Jesus is the Way to Stay Balanced

Jesus is our steady ground...
our foundation.
He will keep us balanced
if we let Him - we seek Him

The Assyrians were treacherous enemies of the Israelites, and the people were terrified when they heard the armies had gathered for an impending attack, thus denying the power of the living God. Even Isaiah was tempted to walk in fear, but the Lord strongly counselled the prophet.

For the LORD spoke thus to me with a strong hand, and warned me not to walk in the way of this people, saying: Do not say, A conspiracy to all this people call a conspiracy, and do not fear their fear, nor be in dread. But the LORD of hosts himself is the one to fear; He is the one you are to dread. [Is 8:11-13] ESV

 

He was not to call conspiracy what the people called conspiracy, and he was not to fear their fear. It was not whether the threats or political realities were real or not. The issue was the fear of the Assyrians’ power overwhelming them instead of placing their trust in the ‘Lord of hosts’ and remembering HIS power. Their fear was the dread of the conspiracy being acted out.

Fast-forward hundreds of years to the words of Jesus.

And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell. [Mat 10:28]

The Lord does not want us to be so fixated on the evil in this world that we are in constant dread. Violence, rebellion, corruption, and deception have been around from the beginning, as in the days of Noah, Sodom and Gomorrah. 

Ever since the flood, the lesson has remained the same. Believers in the living God are not to walk in fear and constant dread of the world’s darkness, but to stay balanced and anchored in God’s providence and sovereignty. Trust is the key.

We are instructed to watch and pray, which we are to do calmly, not as one consumed by the uncertainties and the wickedness all around. There are obvious imbalances, which many simply call division. Extremes on both sides are what are causing the dynamic equilibrium of the scales.

It seems that conspiracies and demons share a commonality. Some see them everywhere and in everything, whilst others deny their very existence, even when it is plainly visible. Whether one walks in paranoia driven by obsessive fear or in dismissal due to naivety, believers are called to neither because both avoid trust in God.

Deception, evil, and conspiracies all exist, and so does the adversary and his invisible armies. Our confidence is not found in uncovering the plots, but in finding our strength in Jesus, gaining more discernment through the Holy Spirit, and remaining steadfast in faith by keeping Jesus as our first love. Deception exists, but it is not the final word.

Time Speeds Up and Slows Down

For there is nothing hid, which shall not be manifested; neither was any thing kept secret, but that it should come abroad. [Mk 4:22; Lk 8:17]

Hopefully, all that has been written is kept in mind because now I continue with part two of the previous article posted a few days ago. In the last article, I spoke about time and CERN experiments regarding time. 

What I shared were conspiracy facts, not theories.  It is no secret that the shutdown of CERN is a reality. The video at that link was posted three months ago. The reason I brought CERN up was that I am constantly hearing people talk about how fast the days are going and time itself.

It is mentioned casually, but these comments are heard from strangers, or people I know (family, friends, neighbours), in articles, on podcasts, from young people to the elderly. People are noticing something wrong with time. 

CERN actually gave a reason scientifically (bringing up Einstein and this theory of relativity). The first part explains the theory of time. Scroll to CERN.

My thoughts go toward Jesus, who stated that unless He shortened the time in the coming days, no flesh would be saved alive. That is how serious the destruction of the world will be. If left up to us, humankind will destroy the world and everything alive in it. [Mat 24:22]

Increased Discernment Only Comes from Jesus

Like many others, I have been praying to Jesus that I would not be deceived, and if my discernment is lacking in some area, that He would reveal it. Most believers are praying for increased discernment, given the words of Jesus in Matthew 24:24, but also given the increase of things that are being exposed these past years.

Deception abounds.

 

Prayers are not always answered instantaneously, but they are answered. That has always been my experience. At times, there are things we must learn before an answer comes. Other times, the Lord must take care of things in the background before He reveals a matter, particularly if exposure involves people.

I do not pretend to have all the answers or all the understanding of God’s ways; none of us do. In fact, I know very little when it comes to the deep well of knowledge, especially when I discovered that the well is consistently being filled up from an ocean of knowledge.

That insight and understanding caused me to adopt the adage: “The more I learn, the less I know.”

And the Word of God causes me to walk more humbly as it confirms the truth.

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. [Is 55:8-9]

 

Overcoming our old nature is a process as we learn to avoid temptations and the devil when we proclaim the Word of God, and walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh. We lay down our lives daily by picking up the cross and nailing our fleshly lusts [passions], desires, and cravings to it.[Rev 12:11]

This walk is not easy, but I can promise you that the longer we abide in Jesus, the easier it gets.

Jesus helps us, but He will not force us to do His will. Most of us are astounded at the chaos, corruption, and deception that are in the church and in the world today. The infiltration began back in the days of the apostles.

One final point should be emphasized. We must distinguish between discernment and suspicion, as they are not the same thing. There were times I confused the two, but the Holy Spirit was gracious and pointed out my error.

I would rather walk in the humility of correction than in the error of pride. (An expression the Holy Spirit gave me approximately nine years ago – to God alone be the glory.)

Although deception abounds, truth is more powerful. God is truth, and all things are under His control and sovereign authority.

We guard against being cynical, suspicious, and fearful by seeking God. In doing so, we will be seeking the truth. If we fear anything, let us fear God, for the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. [Prov 9:10]

If we submit wholly to Jesus and walk humbly with Him by the power of the Holy Spirit, our discernment grows. The more we are aware of Yahweh’s holiness and perfection, the less we are overtaken by fear. We will then be guided by truth, for Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. [Jn 14:6]

Sounding the Alarm to Warn of Danger

Before I finished the previous article on ticks (first part), it was important to say the above to keep the focus on Jesus. Everything the Lord does is done decently and in order, and I intend to follow in His footsteps.

In this concluding second part, I will separate fact from fiction so that readers can pray effectively and specifically.

Thirty-three is a number that means much to me because it immediately brings to mind Ezekiel chapter 33. The Lord instructs the prophet to be a watchman, warning of impending judgment and any approaching danger he sees coming.

If he sounds the alarm and warns the people, yet they refuse to listen, their blood is upon their own heads. [33:4] However, if he sees a sword coming upon the land [God’s judgment] and fails to warn the people, then the Lord will hold the watchman accountable for his negligence. [33:6] For example, consider the prophet Jonah.

This is not about ticks being God’s judgment. Rather, this is about fulfilling the role of a watchman. When we see danger approaching, we are obligated to warn others. Whether they listen or not is ultimately between them and the Lord.

Some people teach that we are not under the law, but under grace. That is true; however, we are not lawless people. The adversary and his antichrist will be lawless.

Jesus summarized the law in two commandments: We are to love God with all our heart, all our soul, and all our being, and to love others as ourselves. [Mat 22:37-40] All ten commandments are fulfilled if we faithfully keep these two.

 

When we warn others of impending danger, whether they are believers or not, we are obeying the Lord by carrying out the second commandment. Our obedience is motivated first by our love for Christ and then by our love for others.

 

Ticks and Red Meat Allergy

There is a growing concern with ticks that goes beyond Lyme disease. Although that is concerning enough, tick bites have now also been linked to the Alpha-gal syndrome, which is an allergic reaction to red meat, and for some folks, dairy products as well.

 

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I have never liked ticks (who does?), but almost two months ago, when it was still cold here in Ontario, my son removed a crawling tick from the arm of his eight-year-old son, and three more from the dog. Ironically, of all things, our dog is a Bluetick coonhound mix! (He has been mentioned in previous articles – beautiful dog)

The snow had melted, but it was still too cold outside for ticks (at least, that is what I thought). But apparently, some species of ticks become active even in somewhat cooler temperatures. Good to know!

After I personally observed evidence of what I believed to be unusual tick behaviour, I decided to dig a little deeper. There was a reason the number “33” kept showing up, and no, I am not the sort to look for signs and wonders.

 

However, my Creator knows me. He knows that this number signals me to be on the watch [watchman], to pay attention and pray for His leading. He is ever faithful. Just as He instructed Isaiah, Yahweh does not want us walking in fear.

The Lord did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and a sound mind. [2Tim1:7]

 

Jesus does not want us to walk in ignorance and be caught off-guard either. He wants us to be aware of our surroundings, just as He was during His time upon this earth, but not to allow fear to halt or hinder us.

We understand that there are many conspiracies out there, announced agendas and plans in the world today, but we really need to stay anchored to Jesus, the Bible, prayer, and His will [plan].

That is why Jesus calls us to abide in Him and to hold fast to faith. We are to fear only God, which is to understand and trust in His sovereignty and providence.

 

Official Sites with Helpful Information about Ticks

Now I am coming to a section that most assuredly needs the Lord’s guidance. I have done my best to stick to trustworthy sources, but this is where the Lord’s wisdom and knowledge, along with discernment, must be sought through prayer.

My digging brought a bit more information from some well-known sources, such as government sites, universities, CDC, videos, et al. The majority warn of the blacklegged tick, known as a deer tick, which is notorious for transmitting

 Lyme disease, Powassan virus and other infectious diseases.

•  Canada – Official government site: offers an in-depth explanation of what symptoms, treatment, and links for the 10 provinces and 3 territories

• Ontario – Official government site: Separate link for Canada Health Services

• United States – Official: CDC [Center for Disease Control and Prevention]

• United Kingdom – Official UK site: for ticks and disease, mgmt. and prevention

• South Korea – Korea Disease Control and Prevention Agency

• Southeast Asia, Singapore – Ministry of Health Government site

• European – Official agency of the European Union

 

Hopefully, this helps inform others with information about bites of ticks, diseases, prevention and protective measures. It is a global problem.

In the previous article, I had mentioned two countries that used ticks as a biological weapon: Japan and the United States. There are no official documents, declassified or otherwise, that prove a CIA “black ops” unequivocally that ticks were covertly dropped on the population in Cuba.

Operation Mongoose was a secret code name for a project in January 1962. It had to do with the release of ticks, used as a bioweapon by the US military against Cuba and Fidel Castro. It was around the same time as the failure of the Bay of Pigs invasion.

This was one of several conspiracy items I stumbled across in my research about ticks. It is not the heart or core of this particle, but if you are interested, it can be read about here.

 

I first heard it mentioned on the ‘Redacted’ YouTube channel, with Clayton Morris and his wife, Natalie. Going to @28:45 on the video at the above link, the couple share a page from an article written by John Brhel, Binghamton University, posted Jan 6, 2026, that farmers have reported an increase in tick encounters (70 tick encounters over a period of six months) on their farms. [screenshot is from their video]

Then, the Lone Star tick is brought up @28.50. They report that this tick can lower your tolerance for eating red meat if you are bitten by one. Morris complains about how crazy it sounds that if one of the Lone Star ticks bite you, you develop a red meat allergy.

It is @29:20 where Clayton mentions that the US government, in declassified CIA documents, used ticks as a bioweapon to drop on Cuba [in 2016] and other places to spread Lyme disease.

He follows up the statement by asking if an investigation will ever be done to look into it. He states that members of Congress have tried, but it has been stonewalled.

However, according to the Spectator (an online news magazine), Donald Trump has signed an order into law to: “review and report on biological weapon(s) experiments on an in relation to ticks [and] tick-borne diseases.”

The Spectator writes: A growing body of evidence shows that during the Cold War, ticks were tinkered with and used as delivery mechanisms for biological warfare agents. And these weaponized ticks may have been released both intentionally and unintentionally on an unsuspecting public by the US military.

The article goes on to mention record numbers of tick bites have been reported in New York (in 2024), Maine (in 2024), and Wisconsin (in 2023). The full article is not available for public viewing unless you pay to join them. There is a paywall. I provide a link so you can see that what I have posted is indeed what was reported, but a heads up about the Paywall. All kinds of websites are forcing people to become members (including the Spectator, where this article originates) to finish reading it.

You spoke by the [precious] and Holy Spirit through the mouth of Your servant, our father David: Why do the nations rage and the peoples plot in vain [imagine vain things]? [Acts 4:25] BSV - ESV [Berean (and) English Standard Versions] 

S. Matthew Liao

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Redacted points to a bioethicist named Matthew Liao, who is a professor in the Dept. of Philosophy and the director of NYU’s Center for Bioethics. Back in 2014, Liao stated that we could solve climate change by shrinking people down and making them averse to eating meat. He says, “People eat too much meat.”

 

Excerpt:

Once he has shrunken us, Dr. Liao suggests: "...giving the tiny people medications to  make averse [sic] to eating meat. ”We can artificially induce intolerance to red meat by stimulating the immune system against common bovine proteins,” he told the BBC.

SOURCE: Grist

In 2016, at the World Economic Forum, Matthew Liao says that:

 “Possibly, we can use human engineering to make it the case that we’re intolerant to certain kinds of meat, to certain kinds of bovine – bovine proteins. And there are actually analogs of this in life.

There’s this thing called the Lone Star tick, where if it bites you, you’ll become allergic to meat. I can sort of describe the mechanism. So that’s something that we can do through human engineering. We can possibly address really big world problems through human engineering.” – Matthew Liao

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Bill Gates is involved with his fake meat. @31:00 Dr. Robert Malone: Declassified Documents Link U.S. Bioweapons Program to Lyme Disease Outbreak – Exclusive: In March 4, 2026 posted that declassified documents link U.S. bioweapons program linked to radioactive ticks; information that has been suppressed for 40 years. 

@31:05 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmgAUdkY3yA  Redacted:

Bill Gates funded research into genetically-engineered cattle ticks. A lengthy write-u at American Faith News. He is into plant or lab-grown meat. Then we have a tick that brings Lyme diThis tick is known to cause AGS, as verified by a publication in the ImmunoTargets and Therapy journal found in the U.S. National Library of Medicine (NLM).sease, and now they are pushing a Lyme disease vaccine.

Conclusion

I have provided enough links and information for the reader to search out and draw their own conclusions. I am grateful to the Lord for making me aware of the tick situation, starting with the four found in our home, on the dog and a young child, three months ago.

Although I was aware of the need to be on guard against ticks, as well as the reality of Lyme disease, I was unaware of other diseases that can also be carried by a tick.

The reality of a meat allergy and the fact that people are working on human engineering, genetic engineering, tissue engineering, bioprocess design, cell culture media, and 3D cell culture platforms (the latter four used to create lab-grown meat) reveal that man is playing God, creating and manipulating that which is already created.

At the above link, the original article, which was posted July 28, 2023 (almost three years ago), reports that 450,000 Americans have ‘red meat allergies’ from Alpha-Gal Syndrome, caused by tick bites.

AGS (Alpha-Gal Syndrome), which is a tick-borne disease, was first reported back in 2008. A grant of $1,469,352 was awarded for research into the “Asian blue” tick. American Faith News: “ This tick is known to cause AGS, as verified by a publication in the ImmunoTargets and Therapy journal found in the U.S. National Library of Medicine (NLM).”

 

Whether what I presented is connected or merely a series of parallel trends is for readers to examine for themselves. I am not suggesting that everyone mentioned is working jointly to achieve a shared goal. Rather, my heart desires to give you enough information for you to investigate (research) further, draw your own conclusions, and seek the Lord for discernment and wisdom.

 

Jesus said that things would be as never before and never shall be again, and this is not even the great tribulation yet. We are in the birth pangs; the whole earth is travailing. More can be read at: American Faith News

I hope I have provided evidence that ticks pose a real danger and that we need to be alert (aware), learn prevention, and discern as needed. This is where we must pray, and seek wisdom, and trust Yahweh’s guidance.

for His glory alone

Bonita                               dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

Repost: A Time to be Silent

(NOTE*: Updates made - additional text near the end of addendum ( the addendum was added for yesterday's post; it was not in the original article - link to the original is provided) also, a couple more pictures were added BPMar21.25)

This is a repost from seven years ago. May it minister and draw hearts closer to Jesus/Yeshua - in His name above all names, I pray.

Posted in the shalom and love of Yeshua the Messiah - our Jesus the Christ. To El Shaddai [God Almighty] be the glory, honour, reverence, praise and love. Amen!

                                   

Four long months have passed since I last posted. It has been a "helluva" season, but God orders the seasons and the times. The Lord is good and His mercy endures forever. As I begin posting, it will all come together, and may the Spirit of God be in the writings, for His glory.

A Time to Be Silent

Sometimes we have to be silent and wait upon God’s timing.

…a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence and a time to speak;  [Eccl 3:7]

Sometimes we have to go through things to give testimony (no trial or tribulation; no testimony).

That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ.  [1Pet 1:7]

Sometimes the refiner is a work. When He is, the dross must be removed; and the purity will be tested severely.

And I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on My name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is My people: and they shall say, The Lord is my God. [Zech 13:9]

Behold, I have refined you, but not with silver; I have chosen you in the furnace of affliction.

He must increase, but I must decrease. [Jn 3:30] 

Moses vs. Jesus - old covenant vs. new covenant - law vs. grace 

In other words, it is CHRIST [Messiah] that must be seen in us (HE increases) but the law must decrease (for the law, in which mankind failed [we could not measure up to perfectly obey the law]: law = the old covenant). 

That does not mean the law is null and void and we can live lawlessly.

It means:

Yeshua (our Jesus) was the 'perfect' Lamb, without spot, blemish, or wrinkle. In other words, He never sinned. He willingly offered up His life (for this reason, He came) as a sacrifice to satisfy the penalty of sin [disobedience to God equals separation from God which is spiritual death]. His death fulfilled the demands of the law.

That is why Yeshua (Jesus the Christ) is the ONLY way to be reconciled back to the holy, living God, spiritually 'born-again' (never to be separated from God again)

Indeed, He (Yeshua/Jesus) must increase [new covenant - grace]; I must decrease [old covenant, the 'old man' who disobeyed the law]

Yeshua compared John the Baptist [prophet] to the spirit of Elijah. John represented the old covenant. The prophet was a voice crying out in the wilderness: "Prepare ye the way of the Lord; make His paths straight." [Is 40:3; Lk 3:4]

(By that John the Baptist meant to 'prepare for Jesus, the Messiah and Saviour, by repentance and changing the heart, turning away from sin.)

• Moses                                        • Jesus

• old covenant                               • new covenant

• law                                            • grace

• blood (animal sacrifice, heifer)     • blood of [unblemished] Lamb =                                                                          Jesus/Yeshua   ram for forgiveness of sins                                                          Saviour whose death and resurrection made                                                        a way to be forgiven; reconciled back to God

Judging Between Sheep and Sheep

During these past four months, I had thought that perhaps I was one of the ones that the Lord was telling to “stand down”, that perhaps somehow I had failed or was weighed in the balances and found wanting. O, how I searched my heart; how I prayed [with the Holy Spirit's help]!

Back in 2012 (when I was still in USA, and when Obama was elected again, second term), the instruction came to write: Now It Begins

It was multi-faceted, and I intend to touch on it in another chapter, but not now; not here in this portion of my writing. 

This much only I will say. It is the beginning of a downward slope where things will start slowly but build momentum. It will be fast-moving and overwhelming by the time the great tribulation Jesus/Yeshua spoke of will begin. 

It is all written out for anyone to read in the Word of God. And for what we do not understand, there are still some godly men preachers/teachers who do not stray from the truth of scriptures, or twist them. They can explain. 

I know there is much I do not yet clearly understand, but as I learn, I share. And the plain truth is that there will be gaps and things that none of us will know until it happens, or until God Almighty reveals it to us, whichever comes first.

Then, in 2013, the Lord kept putting in my spirit about separating, a dividing; not only in exposing tares (though it was not time for removal) and the wheat (his doing), but division in relationships – family, brethren, work; marriages, friendships (enemy’s doing).

Then, in late 2013 or early 2014, the Holy Spirit led me to scripture in Ezekiel, where the Lord spoke through the prophet about judging between cattle and cattle. In my spirit man, I understood that the Lord was judging those who call themselves by His name. (Judgment had begun.)

For the time has come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begins with us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God. [1Pet 4:17]

He was angered at the shepherds fleecing the flock, the witchcraft in many of the churches, unholy prayers that tried to manipulate God (instead of willingly doing His will), praying in a way that He would be convinced to do “their will”, and certain Christians whose prayers were more like curses (witchcraft). The python spirit (spirit of divination) is rampant. This greatly displeased the Lord.

Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel, prophesy, and say unto them, Thus says the Lord God unto the shepherds; Woe be to the shepherds of Israel that do feed themselves! Should not the shepherds feed the flocks?

You eat the fat, and you clothe yourself with the wool, you kill them that are fed: but you feed not the flock.

The diseased have you not strengthened, neither have you healed that which was sick, neither have you bound up that which was broken, neither have you brought again that which was driven away, neither have you sought that which was lost; but with force and cruelty have you ruled them. [Ezek 34:2-4]

Serious Separation

So, in 2013, the Lord warned of a 'separating', judgment, and also division. In 2015, 2016, and 2017, He continued to warn the people (self included).

A couple of days before the end of last year, on December 29, the Lord placed ideas for an article upon my heart. On New Year’s Eve, December 31, 2017, He led me to post it. 

Here is an excerpt from that writing:

“A grieving is heard in the heavenlies, and hot tears are seen upon the faces of many of My people, for I am answering prayers for truth to be revealed, to protect them from deception. Therefore, there is a witnessing of sheep being separated from sheep. It is true, for it is written that the goats shall be separated from the sheep and the tares from the wheat. I am judging between sheep and sheep.”

And as for you, O my flock, thus says the Lord God; Behold, I judge between cattle and cattle (sheep and sheep), between the rams and the he-goats.  [Ezek 34:17]

Yea, I tell you that sheep are being separated from sheep, for it is a necessity in these latter times. This is happening globally.

Her priests have violated My law, and have profaned My holy things: they have put no difference between the holy and profane, neither have they shown difference between the unclean and the clean, and have hid their eyes from My Sabbaths, and I am profaned among them. [Ezek 22:26] 

He goes on to speak against greedy shepherds, false prophets, lazy watchmen, and some of the sheep in the flocks that love to have their ears tickled, and are moved about by every wind of doctrine and every false prophesy that is comfortable to hear.

He spoke of the striking [certain] shepherd(s) and the flock would scatter. He also foretold of church buildings whose doors would close, never to reopen.  He reminds us that we have the power to “choose”. He warned of false brethren, unforgiveness, pride, bitterness, and anger, justifying sins and no desire to repent, despite the warnings. He led me to write:

“Yes, a division is happening. Not only are unbelievers divided against believers/disciples of Christ, but also a dividing [division] happening among the sheep as well.”

And further along:

“I have risen from My throne. The shaking increases – judgment falls, and has been falling for some time. It shall increase. It is moving over the lands as surely as death moved over Egypt at the time that the firstborn of both man and beast were slain [Ex 11:5], when Pharaoh’s hard heart had no fear of the Creator of all things.”

The article is called: On the Verge of the Great and Terrible

The Lord made it very clear that many Christians have "no fear of the Lord". There was a time I had no fear of the Lord. The very thought now appalls me.

Time of Revealing

Since that prophetic writing on New Year’s Eve last year (2017), so much has gone down, not just globally but in the personal lives of multitudes, self included. In fact, in the past four months, since the last post, I had more than once thought that I was one of the ones the Lord was having “stand down”; and that the separating of the sheep had passed over me, and I was found on the side that was not the remnant, like the 10,000 in Gideon’s army that returned home because fear ruled in their heart.

Satan is the father of lies. He works with the fallen flesh of mankind, hoping to trap us with some temptation (we all vary in our strengths and weaknesses - your strength may be my weakness, and vice versa). 

We must be keen in discerning Satan's voice, our flesh, or the Shepherd's. Satan/Lucifer is the master deceiver; there is no truth in him. He may borrow a truth but twist it to deceive you. He is the author of confusion, and confusion is rampant in the fog of war, but trust the Spirit of God in every battle because for this reason (salvation) Messiah came. [Is 9:5]

Although I previously mentioned the part above, it is important to understand that if you are keeping a repentant heart and cleaving to the Lord, He will let you know. It is good if we do not think more highly of ourselves than we ought, but do not let Satan rob you of your right standing with God...never, because he will try.

Together, the Holy Spirit and you have come a long way on a narrow path. There have been obstacles, traps, and rugged terrain where knees got skinned, and egos got bruised, perhaps even crushed. It is good to let pride go - we all struggle with it, some much more than others.

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The Lord is faithful always to help us. He never leaves or forsakes. Do not fall for the lies of Satan, his demonic legions, or any enemy of the cross and of Christ.

In the upcoming articles, this will be expounded upon, but not here, not now. I simply want to say that many have been going through fire and storms (trials and tribulations), but for many, it was the trying of our faith to see what is in our hearts. It is a process. It was not the first (for the majority) - it won't be the last.

Remember, on the last day of last year (2017), He forewarned His people about greedy shepherds, false prophets, lazy watchmen, false brethren, and more. However, in the months following, beginning the first day of January 2018, of which we are now in the sixth month, the Lord has been trying (testing) us to see whether we love God with all our heart, mind, and soul; to see what is in our heart.

And you shall remember all the way which the Lord your God led you these forty years in the wilderness, to humble you, and to prove (test) you, to know what was in your heart, whether you would keep His commandments, or no. [Deut 8:2]

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings. [Jer 17:10]

Remember how Adam had been given one commandment to test him and to see what was in his heart (whether obedience or not) and if he would obey the Word of God?  We too can expect this test, though it will not be the commandment to not eat the fruit of a particular tree (though God could command that) but to see if we will obey His Word (Bible).

Yes, I had thought that after all my years of writing and warning people, and urging people to repent and walk holy and circumspectly, I thought these past four months were a trial in which I had failed. What a frightening and horrifying thought, a heart-wrenching possibility! Not just to fail a loving God, and the rescuer of my soul as well as my very salvation, but to fail and be a hypocrite to boot!

Humility and Repentance

Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon Him; for He cares for you.

Therefore I will judge you, O house of Israel, every one according to his ways, says the Lord God. Repent, and turn yourselves from all your transgressions; so iniquity shall not be your ruin.

And they went out and preached that men should repent. [Ezek 18:30; Mk6:12]

But we also have an adversary who is often used in the testing of our faith and obedience. He is the strong and cruel accuser of the brethren!

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. [1Pet 5:6-9]

Within the next couple of days, I will post the next article. For those who feel like giving up; the name of the series should come as both an exhortation and an encouragement: You are not alone; the Lord Jesus/Yeshua is always with you. We CAN NOT go by feelings - they will fail us. We cannot go by our thoughts - they are fickle and often dependent on our surroundings and other factors.

Jesus never fails. We may not understand or like what God allows to happen, or allows what we must go through, but He sees so much more than we do. We have to learn, to come to a place where we trust God/Jesus no matter what. It is not always easy. That is the truth.

Don’t Quit Just Before the Finish Line

A fall is not necessarily a sin. Cry out
to Jesus - Let humility answer and
grab hold of the cross.

Addendum  [March 20.2025]

Two preachers I had great respect for, likely because they seemed like men who were good fathers, but more importantly, men who loved the true, living God, YHWH, and exalted Jesus/Yeshua above all, both spoke about never giving up.

I did not follow either one when they were alive. Derek Prince was a new name to me about 2009/10, and even then I did not respond immediately to checking him out. His sermon about not giving up was the one that caught my attention.

David Wilkerson wrote a book called "The Cross and the Switchblade", which was lent to me in my 30s. It was a book that left a lasting impression upon me because after I was returned from kidnapping, my first drug of choice was heroin, but I did not know it was addictive. I never got addicted to it, and when I stopped about six months later (I never did it daily or anything), but I never returned to it. (THAT alone had to be Jesus, not me!)

I would rather walk in the 
humility of correction than in the
error of pride. BP2014

Don't give up was his message to the lost. But it was how David had such compassion and understanding for the street kids, the gangs, the drug addicts and prostitutes that captured my heart. I had wondered, what kind of love is that?

I received some of his newsletters before he passed, and watched a few videos of Pastor Wilkerson's, but had only been committed about six years before he passed. [I was a slow conversion; I really do not know how to explain it. I hear some who were so changed almost immediately - I took super-long)

His tragic and untimely death left me deeply saddened when I heard. He had my utmost respect. He loved his wife, was faithful, loved his children, and was a good father. Was he perfect? Only Jesus was...only Jesus.

David and Gwendolyn Wilkerson

An equally great depth of sorrow swept over me when his beloved wife, Gwendolyn, passed about a year later...She too was a faithful spouse, and held my respect as well.

My heart also went out to their children and grandchildren. They went through a lot of trials and hardships, as I read up about them over the years. Gwen battled cancer, a brave woman. She had her moments too - because she suffered much, was in great pain, and the battles were sometimes long.

We all have our 'moments', if the truth is told. All it takes is the right set of circumstances that wear a soul down. We all have limits. David Wilkerson also said something profound about 'giving up' that I still remember to this day, although it's been several years since I heard it. Mention of it has been in my writings before.

For me, giving up is NOT an option, but yes, as stated, I have had my moments and may have moments again when I think I cannot possibly make it. It is definitely not about giving up on the Lord, or my faith, but just myself (but that is usually lies from myself (carnal thinking/flesh) or the enemy, trying to get to me - bring about a spirit of heaviness, depression). 

I get discouraged about what seems like a small 'crop' of fruit, or that I could do more, but what, how? I put my heart into my writing, praying for the Spirit of the Lord to be in the writing to minister to a hurting, lost or hopeless soul...to bring glory to God through Jesus.

Jesus is forever a treasure - I desperately need Him and desire Him forever.  Every single soul needs the Saviour, the Messiah. He is the best - the greatest that ever could happen to us. He is my life.

It is the pain medication and long battle with it all that gets to me sometimes, but prayer and rest, pressing into Jesus is always the answer. He is so good, so faithful. My discouragement does not last long.

Jesus said, Come unto Me all who are weary and heavy-laden [heavily burdened], and I will give you REST. [Mat 11:28]

I do miss fellowship - going to church, but it is too difficult to get out at this time - but my miracle is coming!  

I do not allow guilt or shame to consume me. Jesus (Yeshua) took all that; He washed it all away with His precious blood. Everyone goes through weak times, and times of discouragement. Anyone who says they never do is either lying, high on something, or visiting here from a fantasyland. 

Jesus wept. [Jn 11:35] 

This well-known verse is understood as the shortest sentence contained in the Bible. Even knowing that He was going to raise Lazarus from the dead, the Messiah wept as He had compassion on all who were grieving for Lazarus, including Lazarus' two sisters, close friends of Jesus, Martha and Mary.

Fully God and fully man - Jesus understands our frailties; He understands that we are but dust. He is true to His Word, and I bear witness to the fact that He never does leave or forsake us. He may be quiet, but He is ever-present, yes, but not just in trouble - always. 

It is written: God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling. Selah [Ps 46:1-3]

He is a "very present help" ALWAYS, not just in trouble. But the wisdom of God, it was written because God knows that people often only turn to Him when we ARE in trouble. He has been calling His people to come closer and deeper for years now, but many say they read the Bible, and pray daily, but the deeper intimacy is not there.

I do walk with the Lord as close as I know how, but there are times that I do wish that He would put on skin and come and sit awhile with Me. But here's the beauty of it all. He did put on skin once (the Word became flesh and dwelt among us)...full of grace and truth [Jn 1:14 for the full verse]

I am striving to go deeper and closer - sometimes I am not sure how, except to spend that quality time praying and speaking with Him. I keep pressing in, but I still have moments...

Jesus is the King, Lord and Saviour of the kingdom of heaven, the kingdom whose beauty, value/worth which is likened to that of a great pearl, and how a soul should 'treasure' such a find. The Lord is soon returning - we all wait with bated breath...but meanwhile, we reach out to others

The Importance of Trust

Was it a matter of lacking the confidence in my strength to finish running the race, or was it more a matter of 'trust', knowing who it is that gives the strength - correction -- who IS my strength when I am weak?

When I was young, I trusted everyone who smiled and spoke kindly or in a non-threatening way. After I was kidnapped on my 16th birthday, I trusted very few. After marrying an abusive, alcoholic man (which was rebellion since God let me know beforehand that I was not to marry him), who even trespassed against his own children, I trusted no one.

Through time, repentance, testing, godly sorrow and brokenness, forgiving, and more, the Lord helped me to build up trust in Him, step by step, from glory to glory - the very one who deserved automatic trust was the very one most patient in understanding and in waiting. The Lord balances all things if we let Him do His work in us, and work with Him.

God is patient and kind, but He is no fool. I had no real guidance in my faith (it's a long story - another time), although I wanted to understand. He really picked from the bottom of the pile when He pulled me out of my stench - I am so grateful. Few others would stoop so low, but God /Jesus is like no other - NONE!

The two men, Derek Prince and David Wilkerson (alphabetical order) both had thought-provoking, faith-cementing statements regarding "giving up". Let's put it in simplistic and paraphrased order here, if I may.

(Of course I may - the privilege of having my own blog lol) 

Derek Prince

Derek Prince basically stated that when God is testing us, or when we are in a situation that seems never-ending [yes, even if it has gone on for 30-40 years - even Abraham waited 25 years, Joseph of the Hebrew tribes (Jacob's sons) waited 13 years], God never says it is a six-month trial and you only have one more day to go before it is over.

Run the race, and endure to the end -- even if
you have to cross the finish line
on your knees. Praise God!

We have to wait, NOT knowing how long a trial (test) or tribulation will be, and endure to the end. Many give up. Some fall, determined that it is enough, but then chose to rise again. Good.

If You Fall, Rest and Rise Again

We all need help sometimes,
whether physically or spiritually.
Don't let pride hinder it...
Rise up for Jesus

It is not the falling down that defines you, it is what you do when you RISE back UP. Go forward, friend, more determined to HOLD FAST to Christ, STANDING FIRMLY upon the Rock, a sure and solid foundation, ENDURING to the end.

Submit to God (sweet surrender - so many despise that, pride says, 'You're no slave, do not surrender) - they lack understanding. 

What if Abraham gave up after 24 years, 11 months, and 23 hours, not knowing there was only ONE hour left? [as Derek Prince taught] What if Joseph gave up after he interpreted the dreams of the Pharaoh's wine taster and his baker, instead of waiting the two years out?

Year after year passed. Finally, Sarai offered her Egyptian handmaiden Hagar as a wife to Abraham so that the handmaiden would conceive and bear the son [heir] God promised Abraham. Hagar did conceive and bore Ishmael. It did not mean that Abraham or Sarai [Sarah] 'gave up' on God's promise. They believed Yahweh.

Impatience is not to be mistaken for giving up, or for unbelief. They believed, but God was taking too long [that seems to be the thought behind the action] Abraham and Sarah believed God but in their minds (looking at their outward appearance, their old age and Sarai's barrenness), they were no longer young, and it had already been ten years [a decade] since the promise. 

Derek Prince had the right idea. God does not tell us how long a test or a tribulation will be. He knows we are impatient creatures. I believe that is why the time of our departure from these earthen vessels is kept from us also. How could we enjoy life doing a "count-down" to our time -- and the pressure! The Lord is wise in all His ways.

The closer we walk with Jesus (abiding, clinging to the Vine), and the more determined we are to walk by faith as well as in obedience to God's Word and to His will, the tests and trials get harder. The difference is like a grade two spelling test versus a university final exam.

It can get so hard that there is often a tendency to think we are being punished, but we are not. That is either our fleshly (carnal) thoughts or a fiery dart (lie/deception) from the adversary. It is like pressing the oil out of olives. We cry out for relief, for furlough, for an end - be encouraged, it will come - and other brethren go through it as well.

Our faith is tried. Our hearts are tried. YHWH speaks to us through His Word. 

Whose feet they hurt with fetters: he [Joseph] was laid in iron: Until the time that his word came: the Word of the Lord tried him. [Ps105:18-19]

And His Word will try us (both the rhema and logos) The Holy Spirit will lead us into all truth when we put Jesus first. 

Seek FIRST the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you. [Mat 6:33] (emphasis mine)

So, Prince encourages us not to give up because we could be on the last day, and what a shame to call it 'quits' then, when we were so close.

David Wilkerson

David Wilkerson not only encouraged those in the sheepfold, but he also encouraged the children he was raising. He strongly endorsed endurance, stating emphatically that the last half hour of a test or tribulation is the hardest part. That is the time that most people give up and quit, having no more strength to go on. 

But he explains it.

How many of us cry out saying, 'The harder I try (to do things properly or as instructed), the worse it gets. Or, "The closer I walk with Jesus, the more everything comes against me."

Because of your closeness, your 'pressing in', your abiding, your cleaving, for these things, you are a target - you are a threat to the adversary's kingdom!

Or you may say, "The more I read the Word and study it, the more other voices come at me, bringing confusion - whether it is the devil and his minions, my flesh (with its desires, wants, and needs, or at least what it 'thinks' it needs), or voices in the world, along with their agendas and seductions, it is hard to discern at times."  Or, "It's enough - I can't go on indefinitely, no end in sight..."

"But I can't give up either - it's not an option." Tears of frustration fall, along with repentance - that is the very time I have learned to praise. The Lord is compassionate, and full of understanding and wisdom. When we have a healthy fear of the Lord and love for Him, we need not get caught up in worry. The Holy Spirit in us helps us to guard our words, and attitude (keep gratitude close).

It may feel awkward or surreal praising Jesus in the battle, yet, at the same time, it is the right thing to do. The Lord taught me that in the hospital when I was literally in a spiritual warzone being acted out in the physical realm. I posted about it a few times (it was 2023, not sure right now where...but I have written about it more than once, to the glory of God. Amazing!)

The Lord led me to [2Chron 20]. Incredible story about Israel surrounded by an evil army that far outnumbered them. The Holy Spirit highlighted verse :21 where Jehoshaphat sent musicians out ahead of the army to praise God. 

When I timidly copied what the Holy Spirit was showing me (singing songs of praise about the "beauty of holiness" and how "the Lord's mercy endures forever" - I was making songs up as I went along, very quietly...in my hospital bed that they had placed in a storage room that staff had cleared out to put my bed in. I was being 'disciplined' aka 'punished' lol - long story, short time).

It was mind-boggling, and powerful, how everything had completely changed only hours later. It was a profound lesson that I will never forget, and such proof of the sovereignty and providence of El Shaddai, so much so that I have shared it several times since it happened  (2023), both in person and on the blog. Trust God's word; cause your faith have action and watch God move!

Satan is the author of confusion, and his intent is to cause your faith to be destroyed [if he can], and then have unbelief give way to a reprobate mind. Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but Christ came to give us life, and that more abundantly. [Jn 10:10]

The Good Shepherd gives us life abundantly, NOT meant as the false "prosperity doctrine" states, but a 'rich life' of peace (that passes all understanding), love, joy -- basically, the 'fruit' of the Holy Spirit provides. [Gal 5:22-23] At least, that is my understanding of it, but I am no preacher. There are still godly men teaching. God will always make sure of that, despite the desires of Satan and the world.

Brother Wilkerson reminds us that there could only be a half-hour left, that is all, but the intensity of the test or the tribulation can weary us, leaving us at the place where we say we have had enough, just as Job, Moses, Elijah, Jeremiah, and other men of God did.

Believing, faith, trust, prayer, sweat, pain, tears, perseverance - this is the investment that is placed in things that we believe God for, holding fast to Messiah in faith [clinging like grapes to the Vine - Christ being the Vine], trusting His promises, both corporate (for all believers) and personal (between Yahweh and any one of His own).

The prayers of the saints envelope all these things - all the tear-soaked praise, all the sweat of perseverance, fueled by the pain of endless hope that has kept the weary during the turbulent storms in the spiritual realm; storms that continue to beat against a house, threatening to bring it down with its violent winds and stinging pellets of rain.

It is dramatized by thunderous outbursts [the angry rhetoric of the opposition] and blinding flashes of lightning [unexpected clashes from the enemies of darkness against the children of light].

The spiritual war is constant; the battles have been planned from long ago and are being carried out strategically. Yet, the book of Revelation unveils the victory that Yeshua and all who are His gain as spoil in the end. God's kingdom wins. There should be no doubt, and all will bow to Christ Jesus in the end.

Wilkerson's warning about the hardest part of the test (tribulation/trial or battle) being the LAST half hour [where most give up from weariness because it has gone on too long, and no end is in sight] is godly wisdom to stand upon. As emphasized, it [hardest part] is always just before the victory. Most people  give up in the last half hour. 

Hold fast, beloved soul, hold tight to God Almighty through Jesus Christ, even though it is the hardest part of the test, the trial, or the battle, persevering [enduring] needs to be earnestly obeyed. I cannot remember who said it but it is akin "the strongest onslaught is just before the victory!" 

And I fell at his feet to worship him. And he said to me, See you do it not: I am your fellow-servant, and of your brethren that have the testimony of Jesus: worship God: for the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy. [Rev 19:19]

We can do all things through Jesus Christ [Yeshua Mashiach], and cleaving to Him in the last half hour of a very difficult, heart-wrenching time, there is our STRENGTH to finish - for our good, but to the glory of God alone through His beloved Son.

Guaranteed that this repost has been shared not only to help others know that they are not alone, and to say, "You've got this - through Jesus (Yeshua), you can do this!"

Not a Super-Christian!

I am speaking to myself too because as I have shared with family and friends, although I want to be strong, I am not a super-Christian. There have been moments, with plenty of tears, snot, and sweat, that I felt I was going to fail the Lord.

In fact, at one point, I had actually said that if healing does not come, and if the battles do not subside, I would fail the Lord - and for all the goodness, mercy and grace that He has poured out upon me (and so many others), I cannot bear the thought of letting Abba (my heavenly Father) and Saviour down.

And what does the Lord do? He strengthens us -  David encouraged [strengthened] himself in the Lord. [1Sam 30:6] Joshua was encouraged [strengthened] in [by, through] the Lord. [Josh 1:9]

Sometimes we 'fall' or 'stumble' spiritually. A fall does NOT necessarily mean one has sinned. Some people hear someone say they 'fell' and automatically assume that they mean they fell into sin. 

It can simply mean that they have run a long time, have grown weary, and in that fatigue, sat down and with head resting on the arms, a sigh goes forth, "I can't do this anymore..."

What that person needs is REST, and that much-needed rest will only come through and in quality time with Christ Jesus. Some folks have been going months, years, decade or more (remember Abraham, Joseph, Moses - prime examples on waiting over a decade, sometimes two, sometimes four!)

Yes, people lived longer back then. Do you think our Creator, the Great Potter, is not aware of that? He knows what we are capable of. We often have to discover it. Some think too highly of themselves, others too lowly. Only our Maker can put things into proper perspective.

Have you ever been running when suddenly you stumble and 'fall'? If you quit and stay down, it's over. But wait, what if it is only a temporary setback? Jesus travailed in the Garden of Gethsemane. His flesh did not want to go through what He had to go through.

Saying, Father, if You be willing, remove this cup from Me: nevertheless, not My will, but Yours, be done. [Lk 22:42]

Twice He went out to see His faithful inner circle, John, James and Peter, only to find them sleeping instead of praying for Him. He had returned to the inner garden to pray to His Abba [Father], but in the end, an angel came and ministered to Him. He was strengthened to endure all the horror ahead of Him.

He was strengthened to go forth, out of the inner garden to where His apostles were sleeping - there to meet Judas and go on to run His own race and finish the mission, the very purpose and reason why He came - to willingly lay down His life for sinful mankind.

He travailed - He anguished - He sorrowed - it seemed like more than His flesh could bear. Yet, He spent time with His Father, the living God, and was strengthened to endure to the end. Now, He wants us to come to Him, to be strengthened, and to rise up again to endure to the end of our race.

The devil will lie, to keep you down. Do not listen to the flesh that demands pleasure and comfort. Do not listen to the adversary (Satan/Lucifer) or any of his minions that are seeking to steal, kill and destroy you and our destiny with Christ Jesus.

If you get back up (even if it is to a crawl) and continue running the best you can, even if you do not win the race, you have finished it, so from that perspective, you are a winner if you RISE UP again, and do not quit.

A seasoned runner falls once, perhaps twice on a long-distance run. What if the second time they fall, they stay down? It seems as though they have quit but there were things going on inside their spirit man - a wrestling, a war within. 

Suddenly, the runner gets back up [even if it is only "on their knees" - hallelujah!, and with all their might, they press on, maybe not with swiftness or outer strength, but with determination and inner strength.

The finish line is often crossed
on your knees!

 They overcome the flesh and decided they will finish the rest of the race. Even if they did not win some ribbon or a shiny trophy, they won in the sense that they found the strength to continue on.

The one who falls and stays down is the casualty. They did not press in; nor abide - they 'chose' to fall away. They 'chose' by deciding God could not be trusted. They decided God does not care or else they would not have to suffer so much, or run an endless race. They forego embrace unbelief. Be strong in faith, my friends, like Abraham. 

He believed God's promise for twenty-five years [two and a half decades]! It is written that Abraham did not stagger at the promise of God through unbelief, but was STRONG in faith - doing what? - giving glory to GOD Almighty! El Shaddai

How long have you been waiting? Fear tried to come upon me whilst I watched my physical condition worsen. Fear actually affects the Immune system, did you know that? I did not. For the longest time, I was unaware of that fact. We are not taught these things by the world, but we are not of the world, and the Holy Spirit is a faithful teacher.

Could that be another reason that the Lord God or any one of His holy angels often said, "Do not fear", or "Fear not"? I am not speaking of the 'healthy' kind of fear that warns you if you go too close to a dangerous precipice, or if you put your weight on that badly cracked step on the wooden ladder, you could fall and get hurt. That is a healthy fear warning you of danger - to tread carefully.                                                         

I speak of the 'unhealthy' fear that causes toxins to develop in the immune system, as well as inflammation. We are told to put on a garment of praise for a 'spirit of fear'. Fear can paralyze us. I remember the first time I saw a demon, I was petrified and literally could not speak or move. 

I was not saved, but Jesus - the name above all names - I am sure that is what caused him [demon] to begin to move away from me. That omnipotent name kept going before (in my mind) like rapid-fire. God is everywhere and all-powerful indeed.

(I wrote about that here: >> War in the Air – Witchcraft in the Fog ) 

However, Satan never quits trying to make us quit, either by some physical sin, or the sin of unbelief, or worse. We must TRUST Jesus, which will override fear.

We overcome him (Satan/Lucifer) by the blood of the Lamb and the Word of our testimony, and love not our lives unto death. [Rev 12:11]

Do not give up or give in. Many of us are going through this together. It is the times we are in, but whether a test or preparation, the motive is to draw nearer the heart of our King and Lord. Our magnificent Saviour is soon returning. Keep looking up, praying and reaching out to others, -- for their sake, but for the glory of God through Christ.                                                                              

 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, norangels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,

Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. [Rom 8:37-39]

Amen. Hallelujah. We exalt You on high King and Lord Jesus/Yeshua. Your name is magnified in this place!

for His glory alone

Bonita                        dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com