Showing posts with label test of endurance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label test of endurance. Show all posts

Tuesday, October 13, 2020

Too Close to Quit Now - Seriously

Too Close to Quit Now - Seriously

Letters have been pouring in from all over...letters of discouragement, frustration, hopelessness, crushed hopes, shattered dreams, anger, bitterness. Even if I tried to cover all the emotions, I would still miss. In all my years of writing, never have I seen such a tsunami of negativity; black waves of sludge and debris.

Please, never do I say that in a flippant, judgmental or callous way. Perish such a thought! Rather, the reality of it grips me. 

When trouble seems to be our portion, when trials and tribulation seem endless, when the Lord seems silent (and may well be for a season), when the waiting seems to have no end, and when it seems that every demon around is mocking and laughing, the great temptation is to shake the proverbial fist toward heaven, curse (accuse) God, and walk away in absolute disgust, angry bitterness, even rage, throwing down all faith, hope and yes, love.

OR...

The falling away may be slower, less obvious, more subtle, yet the enemies of our soul, the enemies of the cross will chip away, chip away, chip away, slowly, methodically, deliberately...like a dripping faucet that just won't quit, with only one purpose in mind - to steal, kill and destroy, thus fulfilling God's word.

Satan and his evil hordes come to steal our hope, kill our destiny and destroy our faith. The father of lies, he who was a murderer from the beginning, knows no mercy, has no compassion and only exhibits brutality, cruelty and evil beyond description - I cannot find any word in my vocabulary that would adequately describe the dark, gross evil of him or of those (his legions) who bow to him (both in the spiritual and physical realms).


The clash of the kingdoms is a reality and has been going on since before any of us were born or even thought of, all the way back to the Garden of Eden, and even before that. Who knows when Lucifer, puffed up with pride regarding his breath-taking beauty (how handsome he was!), and the exquisite gift of music that he was/is in all of the heavens, an instrument himself he was - indeed, perfect, how, how and when did he manage to convince a third of the heavenly and holy angels to usurp God's authority and follow him?

Who knows what he promised them if they did follow him? The cunning and the craftiness of his words must have been filled with what sounded like exceptional goodness and wisdom, and so profound as to persuade angels, who saw God for themselves and KNEW His beauty, holiness, LOVE, perfection, goodness and so much more, to give it all up and follow after him (Lucifer).

I saw where many of these believers (who wrote all the lettershave put aside thanksgiving, for they found nothing now to thank God for. Praise was far from their lips, as accusation after accusation, and blame, and a myriad of emotions were expressed. For all of them it seems, the trials have gone on too long, as far as they are concerned. Hopelessness...talk about hope deferred!

Did the writers forget the last part of the verse, about how "when" the desire comes, it is a tree of life. (WHO is the tree of life? Jesus/Yeshua is. We forget - so tragic!

Hope deferred makes the heart sick: but when the desire comes, it is a tree of life. [Prov 13:12]

All of them, in their own ways of expressing, state their lack of understanding in why their prayers seem unanswered, and how could a God of love leave them so destitute, so forsaken? 

How could He be so silent, and just leave them there amidst their hopelessness, their grief, pain, brokenness and sorrow, in what (again, ALL of them) consider to be cruel, heartless and never-ending?

Trust and hope shattered, so disillusioned, void of faith and strength, and whether the writers of the letters realized it or not, I did not see in one of those letters a word of thanksgiving, gratitude or even remembrance of anything the Lord may have done in the past, or even the realization that He was/is right there with them, still loving them, still carrying them, still waiting for them to trust again.

The parallels and similarities of the words and hurts, sorrow and pain between all of the letters was astoundingly uncanny, and frankly, so is the timing - all of them coming in all at once (within a four week time period).

Now if one saw the number of letters, approximately 10 or 11, one might say that is barely any in a world of nearly eight billion (8,000,000,000) people. Yet, even one soul who gives up on Yeshua/Jesus and falls away, and goes back into the world and back into the domain of Satan, is one too many.

Repentance

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

And be not conformed to this world: but be you transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect will of God.

For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God has dealt to every man the measure of faith. [Rom 12:1-3]

That includes me. It is an inviting trap, set by the enemy, who works with our pride, trying to make us think we are better than others, or stronger, or wiser, or closer to God or (fill in the blank). Pride can trap us all.

I must confess that when our heavenly Father corrects me through his precious and Holy Spirit, his ways are often unexpected, yet always timely. And the correction is anything but welcome; it's extremely uncomfortable, but praise God for correction indeed. It means that we are His children. [See Hebrews 12:5-8]

 Due to a horrific year, with the past five months the most challenging ever in my entire life, and in my entire walk with the Lord (and no! I don't even mean anything about Covid-19; at all), I found myself struggling as I tried desperately to understand what has transpired in the past year, and why.

Just like the writers of the letters, I found myself in a similar way. Some, but definitely not all, of the letters echoed my own thoughts and questions. Although, as the Lord is my judge, I genuinely fear the Lord, and in those thoughts and questions I did not blaspheme my blessed Maker.

Did I blame him or accuse him? Not knowingly, and I truly do not think so, but yet, I wonder if deep within I may have. Some of the letters caused me to break down in tears because I realized how dangerously close I came to being unthankful (ungrateful for all He has done for me, even before I committed to him - long before!).

When I read the angry, accusatory, rebellious, (and sadly), the ungrateful words in some of the letters, I wept harder, realizing that if I did not guard my heart, and/or keep a repentant heart, those words could be mine.

It was understood that if I did not take my eyes off myself and my circumstances (problems, troubles), my particular trials and tribulation, my pain and sorrows, and if I did not refocus and place my vision (eyes) upon my King and Lord Jesus/Yeshua, where they belong, I would open myself up to pride, self-pity, self-righteousness and any other "self-ish" thing.

It was also realized how quickly bitterness can take root. The Holy Spirit pressed hard upon me more than once in the past five months to pray for any I felt came against me. Was it easy? Not at all. My flesh felt justified and I was in the right in one very serious situation, but I had to obey. 

I knew that if I did not pray for the person who was doing me wrong, not only would I be disobedient to the leading of the most Holy Spirit, but I would be embracing the devil's temptation to hate, to be bitter, to push God away through any negativity. So no, it was not easy, but I did pray - and the Lord, unexpectedly and suddenly, rewarded and blessed me. All glory to Christ alone!

That part has to paid attention to. It's not about being "good" or "nice", it is about spiritual warfare and spiritual laws in heavenly places. If we do not pray, even for our enemies (think of Job), then we would also dangerously (even if unknowingly) be welcoming the temptations that Satan lures the flesh with, those false comforts and satisfactions that will would indeed lead us away from the Lord, and place us upon the path of destruction. 

Satan would rejoice. Remember that please.

Who can remember every thought they think, or every word they have spoken? I know not one, including myself. So yes, I repented because I know that at one point I did sense anger. Toward God? Very possible, yes, but definitely at the duration of the hardships and the absence of relief to recover.

So I repented, ashamed of any ingratitude I may be holding or held, all pride, all selfishness, self-righteousness, any (possible) blasphemous thoughts, any accusations, whether spoken, thought or even "felt" (our emotions will betray us often) - just everything and anything that would hinder my walk with the Lord was brought up and refused...just in case I was guilty (my flesh will try and trick me and justify things, so yes, I had to be careful, covering all the bases).

Forgiveness was sought in all humility. The tenderness of the Lord is so cherished; so glorious, invaluable, yet Jesus/Yeshua has no difficulty extending it to us. O that eyes would be opened to see his presence near you when all seems so lonely and dark.

O that ears would be opened to hear his heart beat as he holds you close to his bosom (spiritually), like a hen does with her small chicks. Why do we fuss and cry like a colicky baby when we are in discomfort and pain, fighting him even as he tries to comfort us. We can push him away and then accuse him of leaving us, but he is still there. We are just so self-absorbed that we cannot sense, feel or see him.

His goodness - ah! his goodness, in part, is in the way he understands us; the way he ignores our statements as we angrily shout, "it's enough; take away my life...", as Elijah requested [1King 19:4]. Or: "kill me....don't let me see my wretchedness", as Moses grievously stated in sheer exhaustion and frustration [Num 11:15].

There are numerous other examples. We are in good company...real people, suffering in real ways, going to God and praying from the heart, having real feelings and real emotions. Did our Creator kill them as they asked?

No! He is a good Father, and closed his ear to the desperate, frustrated, hastily-spoken requests. He is wise, patient and kind, gentle, merciful - yet we, at times, consider him cold, heartless, cruel, merciless. I could never be God, not even a "little god'', as some religious people believe we (believers) are (which is a spirit of error). Jehovah is too marvelous, too wonderful, too "everything GOOD"!

Patience and Confidence

                             

I have shared it before, and shall share it again, because it was the Lord, through His Holy Spirit that revealed it to me, and to others, I'm sure. It is this...

For some time, faith has been tried and hearts severely tested. the fires are hot and extreme! This should be no surprise. The Word of God forewarns us, and we see countless examples of our forerunners who went through their own trials, temptations, trying of their faith and testing of their hearts.

We read it and get it. If some failed in areas, like we all do, such as Sampson, Saul (the king), Esau, Balaam, Ananias and his wife Sapphira, and other examples, we may read and judge, saying, "Pffft, how could they?"  

Yet, we often do not see our own failures and shortcomings, our own disobedience or sins. The Holy Spirit helps us. We long to walk after the Spirit; He will guide us properly. And if we walk after the Spirit, we are not condemned.

There is therefore now no condemnation to those which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. [Rom 8:1]

Many, in justifying themselves no matter what they do, will only quote the first part of the verse and leave off the part about not walking after the flesh, but walking in the Spirit.

Patience - is hard to learn. We need to stay confident in God (YHVH) through Messiah. The story of the turtle (tortoise) and the rabbit has such solid truths. The rabbit was so confident in his speed, that when he was challenged to race against the turtle, he basically laughed within himself, knowing how slow a turtle is.

In that smug, prideful confidence, he had the audacity to try and make a fool of the turtle for even thinking for a moment he could beat the rabbit in a race. In his pride and arrogance and misplaced confidence, the rabbit decided to take a nap.

Only the nap must have been very satisfying and comforting because the turtle passed by the rabbit as he slept. The turtle did not panic or try to rush. He was patient, being fully confident that he would win the race before the rabbit awoke. Sure enough, he did!

It just seems to take forever to learn patience; the lesson just seems to go on and on and on, like the never-ending story. If only it didn't take so long! But the lessons do end; there are rewards; there is good reason, several even.

But with the help of the Holy Spirit, we can be confident that if we learn patience, we will finish the race to the glory of God through Jesus Christ (Yeshua HaMashiach).

Cast not away therefore your confidence, which has great recompence of reward. For you have need of patience, that after you have done the will of God, you might receive the promise.

For yet a little while and he that shall come will come, and not tarry. Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him. [Heb 10:35-38]

The testing of our faith, the trying of our hearts, is not cruel at all. It is done out of love so that we learn how to wait, but more importantly, how to TRUST God. I had a hard time learning trust because of all the betrayals and other things that happened in my life. So few really trust these days, and if they do, it's not always in every area. Yet with our Creator, guaranteed, He can be trusted.

The word of God says it is better to trust in the Lord than to put our confidence in man or in princes. [Ps 146:3; Ps 118:8, 9]

Did the Lord give up on me? No, He patiently allowed me to go through various trials/tribulations, allowed me to see my shortcomings; was gracious enough to discipline and correct me; was kind enough to repeat lessons because it was necessary, not because of cruelty, meanness or lack of care.

Patience is not learned when everything is good and running smoothly in our lives. Patience is learned through various trials (tribulation), hardships, disappointments, heartaches and experiences. It is difficult, but worth it. 

Not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation works patience, And patience, experience, and experience, hope: And hope makes not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us. [Rom 5:3-5]

This does not mean we enjoy tribulation or trials, but that we learn through them. We learn patience; we gain experience, and our hope is established as we learn, through these various tribulations or trials, to trust God

My brethren, count it all joy when we fall into divers (different) temptations (trials); Knowing this, that the trying of your faith works patience, But let patience have her perfect work, that you may be perfect (whole, mature, complete) and entire, wanting nothing. [Jam 1:2-4]

For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, works for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;

While we look NOT at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal. [2Cor 4:16-18]

To all those who wrote, so discouraged, so confused, so frustrated and angry, and experiencing all kinds of trials that for some of you, have gone on for a very long time, I would like to say this.

You are not alone. I remind you, as we all need reminders, self included, to submit to God, humble yourself and acknowledge your need for him. Pour out your heart to Him but be careful not to accuse him. Tests are real and will happen, whether one likes to hear it or not, or believe it or not. They happen - frequently, as we grow in Christ - just like tests happen frequently throughout our school years - from grade one right through to the years in university or college.

Read Gods word and speak it back to him because he told us that his word does not return void. The Psalms is a beautiful book. There are prayers in there for every situation, every emotion and feeling, for the multitude of thoughts we think and so much more, all directed toward God.

If you look carefully, you will see that (not all the Psalms were written by King David. Even Moses wrote a psalm), that the psalmist would pour out his thoughts, his heart, whether angry, or frightened, or asking for vengeance or whatever, look to see how often in psalms the prayer reverts back to praise and gives God glory.

See how often praise and thanksgiving cloak the psalm. That is the key, yet it can be a difficult one to turn over, in order to unlock our victory and see our prayers answered. 

More often than naught, to praise God for all he is allowing, whether it is a death, a divorce, an incurable disease, a handicap, horrific pain, financial ruin, lost employment, material losses, whatever our particular trial is, simply does not make sense and it surely defies logic.

Who in their right mind would thank God or praise Him for allowing certain things to happen? No, most often, we want to scream out the injustice, the cruelty, all the negativity that comes with hardships, but praise God in it? Ridiculous, we think! Our flesh does not want to do it.

When we are going through hard times, our thoughts can race and our emotions and feelings can overwhelm us. The enemy, Satan and his minions, work with our flesh. It is my prayer that you turn to Jesus (Yeshua); humble yourself, just as I had to do. It's not always easy; our flesh resists bending the knee quite often.

DEFY logic; forget about your feelings and emotions and get down on bended knees. Humbly. Cry out to God. Look back at the times he helped you, whether you realized it or not. Thank him even if your flesh screams otherwise.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge him and he will direct your paths (steps) [Prov 3:5, 6]

If you have no fear of the Lord (honour, respect, awe, reverence, knowing His Sovereignty and power), then you are walking with the enemy, or at the very least, toward his camp.

If you accuse God, you are Satan's spokesperson. If you cannot trust God, then you are lost indeed, heading for the lake of fire. O beloved soul, don't listen to the lies. God cares. He sees. He hears. He is answering. So often, he works in silence, or behind the scenes where we cannot see him. Wait and He will reveal - He will answer. It will be right on time. Don't cover your ears please - it is truth!

O my God, I trust in you: let me not be ashamed, let not my enemies triumph over me. - - O keep my soul and deliver me: let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in you. [Ps 25:2, 20]

If you are still alive, you still have time to repent and ask forgiveness for unbelief and fear, yes fear. Some may say they are not afraid, they are angry. Well, it seems to me that some are 'afraid' to trust God, as if he will fail them. Why? Because in their mind, he takes too long (they lack patience), or he has not 'yet' answered their prayer, or in a way you expected. 

He WILL speak to you - countless ways, but be careful, the imitator (Satan), as well as our flesh, can trick us into mimicking the Shepherd's voice. We have to spend quality time with the Lord, and yes, sometimes even through trial and error, we must learn the Master's voice (our Shepherd), so we know him and will not follow after a counterfeit or false shepherd, who will lead us straight to a hungry pack of wolves, eager to devour God's sheep.

In the minds of some of the discouraged saints, they are convinced that the Lord has left them, overlooked or forgotten about them (lack of trust in God's Word, cloaked in unbelief). 

Jesus (Yeshua) promised he would never leave or forsake us. And he does not. But He did not say he would constantly be talking. We all go through times of silence, and yes, even at times we need him most. Why? Because we must believe His word, that He IS with us, even in the silence. We must learn to trust him in all things, and especially if he is quiet.

If you are spitting venomous words at the Lord, you are on the slippery slope downward toward the abyss, heading for the lake of fire, and the enemy and all the demons are applauding, cheering you on.

Blessed is that man that makes the LORD his trust, and respects not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. [Ps 40:4]

If you rebel against God, who will you trust? If you turn away from Him, who will you turn to in the day the entire world is in the hands of the lawless one? If you died this day, will lack of trust, or unbelief save you?

There is no harsh judgment here, but there is an earnest desire to shake some of my brethren by the shoulders and ask, "Who has beguiled you?" Some say they do not want prayer, but I will and am praying because I understand God's position on these things.

If you are reading this and know deep down you have said things you should not have said to God, it's not too late to repent. He is ever ready to forgive. He is gracious and merciful. He is good and his mercy endures forever. [Ps 136]

I will leave you with two verses, then I would like to share a word from 2013 that I came across, entitled: To The Weary

Both verses are well-known and often used, but God's Word stands forever, for it is Spirit and Truth. Shalom in Christ to all readers.

If My people, which are called by my name shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will i hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land. NOW my eyes shall be open, and my ears attent (listening) to the prayer that is made in this place.

[2Chron 7:14, 15]

One might say: "I have not done anything wrong. I'm just tired of all the trials, or tests, or whatever all these hardships are." Perhaps the error, my friend, is in thinking he has left you, or is uncaring, or whatever else negative that you put upon him...or perhaps it is time to repent of ingratitude. 

We all fall short; miss the mark...all of us, including myself. There are those who do not think so though; they believe they are "good" people and have no need of a Saviour.

Let us rise back up and run the race, and fight our battles, face set as a flint, and TRUST that God is not in need of counsel, and knows exactly what is the wisest and best thing for our [individual] lives - because He does. Walk away or turn away - and you will eternally regret it.

Rediscover the need for patience, and walk with the rest of the brethren, as together we all learn, even the hard and challenging lessons.

But beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that ONE DAY is with the Lord as a THOUSAND years, and a thousand years as one day. The Lord is NOT slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish, but that ALL SHOULD come to repentance. [2Pet 3: 8, 9]

Keep pressing on, even in the challenging, seemingly impossible situations. Trust the Lord and he WILL strengthen you. Humble yourself (flesh will fight you), and the Lord WILL lift you on high. 

Likewise, you younger, submit yourselves to the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed in humility: for God resists the proud and gives grace to the humble.

Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he cares for you. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour:

Whom RESIST steadfast in the faith, knowing that the SAME AFFLICTIONS are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. [1Pet 5:5-9]

To the Weary

July 14, 2013

To the Weary


Satan has beaten down many saints, but the Lord is ever ready to pick the wounded back up, heal, strengthen and restore.  He is faithful to give hope and encouragement.  

Just as the Lord gave me the dream with three revealing words – test of endurance (which was a warning for the Body of Christ) and how the Lord told my guest Jason Pillow about it being the time of the sealing of His people…the Lord spoke to another of His children, a godly woman, Latshia Smith, Prophetic Wind Ministries up in Buffalo NY, who was a guest on my show two weeks ago.  

To her, He warned about His remnant and how Satan was not just out to attack the prophets (in the 5 fold ministry), but just as Jezebel did in days gone by, and just as many did down through history, the plan is to not just attack, but to literally kill the prophets, to kill those in the five-fold ministry (and all dedicated disciples of Jesus Christ/Yeshua).

(*NOTE* - The Lord promised in the last days, by the prophet Joel (2:28, 29) and repeated by Peter (Acts 2:17), that he would pour out his Spirit upon all flesh and sons and daughters would prophecy, I believe that every born-again, Spirit-filled believer in Jesus/Y'shua can prophesy. The prophets of old were filled and spoke by the Holy Spirit. Now, we today have opportunity, all because of what Christ Jesus did. Satan came to steal, KILL and destroy [Jn 10:10] - every believer is now targeted! BP2013)

Multitudes of God’s people are going through incredible trials at this time.  Hold fast to the Lord and do not fear.  It is time for spiritual warfare as never before. (Do not expect this to lessen. It will increase the closer we get to our destinies, but more so, the closer we get to the Lord's return.)  We must absolutely be abiding in the Lord as never before.  He must be our constant companion.  

In the book of 1 Kings, chapters 18 and 19, we hear of Obadiah who hid 100 prophets of the Lord; he divided them into two groups of 50 and hid them in a cave.  If you have ever seen pictures of caves in the east, some of them are huge and very beautiful…quite capable of hiding a great number of people. 

We see where Elijah told Obadiah to warn Ahab that he was coming, which Obadiah did. Then we see where Elijah told Ahab to gather all the people of Israel, along with the 450 prophets of Jezebel who worshipped Baal.

A sacrifice was placed upon the altar by Jezebel’s prophets, who called out to Baal to consume the sacrifice, but nothing happened.  Elijah mocked them, saying that their god was either away talking, pursuing something, on a journey or asleep and needed to be awakened.   

They were so upset about Baal not responding, they cried out and cut themselves until they bled, just like many people do today, not only in the east, but also amongst the youth (and others) around the globe. 

Then he ordered that a sacrifice -a perfect bullock, be cut up and placed on the altar, a trench built and water to be put in the trench three times to fill it and to saturate the sacrifice. Three times; that means everything was drenched! 

Then, he called down fire and the Lord, the true living God, consumed the sacrifice.  At that point, when the people of Israel saw that the living God accepted the sacrifice, they were strengthened and at Elijah’s order; they rounded up all of Jezebel’s prophets and slew them. 

There was a famine in the land, so Elijah climbed to the top of Mt. Carmel and prayed and asked his servant [to go and see] if he saw a cloud.  After some time (seven times Elijah sent him), the servant finally saw a little cloud.  He told the servant to tell Ahab to go before the rain caught him.  Ahab took off and told Jezebel that Elijah killed her prophets.  When Jezebel heard of this, she put out a death sentence (threat) on Elijah. 

Then Jezebel sent a messenger unto Elijah, saying, So let the gods do to me, and more also, if I make not your life as the life of one of them by tomorrow about this time.  [1 Kings 19:2] 

This true prophet of God took off when he heard her words through a messenger.  He was likely very weary, having slain all the prophets, having called upon God for the consuming of the sacrifice, and the rain for the drought that caused the famine in the land...so he fled from Jezebel. 

But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers.  [1Kings 19:4]  

Have you not done that?  Have you not said ‘It’s enough Lord, take me home…I have failed you, I’m no better than my relatives?’  (or something along those lines?)

I have…I have been so weary as to ask the Lord to take me home and I most certainly did not do anything near to what Elijah did, but I have had my share of spiritual warfare and my own trials and tribulations…yet the Lord strengthened me every time, just as He did Elijah. Listen to others. They will say similar. Our Creator is very faithful.

 When you were at the end of your rope and you cried out to God, did He not strengthen you?  Yes, he did and that’s why you…and I…are still here. (proof)  The Lord sent an angel to strengthen Elijah with food and after he slept awhile, the angel fed Elijah again.  That food kept Elijah for 40 days and 40 nights as he journeyed to a cave on Mt. Horeb.

There the Lord asked Elijah what he was doing there, so he spoke about throwing down Baal’s altars and slaying Jezebel’s prophets, but he felt that he alone had escaped from Jezebel.  Then, the Lord not only instructed Elijah further on what He wanted him to do, but He encouraged him, when Elijah once again stated that only he alone was left.  He must have felt discouraged and quite alone to repeat it twice, but the Lord said:

Yet I have left Me seven thousand in Israel, all the knees which have not bowed unto Baal, and every mouth which has not kissed him.  [1 Kings 19:18]

So the body of Christ has been warned about a test of endurance, have been told that it is the time of sealing God’s people and have been warned that the  remnant in the five-fold ministry (actually, not just the five-fold, but, all of God's remnant of obedient, repentant believers - and I must add; there are wolves amongst the sheep, so, be guarded no matter who a person says they are!) and particularly the prophetic (see Joel 2:28 and Acts 2:17), will not just be under attack, but that the adversary seeks to literally kill them.

Many are suddenly having serious health issues. Keep strong. It has not all been for nothing; the Lord is on our side…I share this word that He put upon my heart today. (07.14.13 - July 14, 2013)

(To God the glory alone)

How heavy is your heart, My child, for the battle has been hard and long.  Hold fast to Me, for awhile longer and you shall see the victory.  The time of sealing, the test of endurance belongs to the remnant who are Mine and shall endure to the end, coming through victoriously, having been well-trained by previous tests and tribulations, having been purged and purified, in the fires and through the waters.

Yea, hold fast to Me, for I AM your refuge and your strong tower.  Yea, the cross is heavy when it is being carried, and excruciatingly hard to the flesh to stay upon, dying to self and all that is in the world.

Yet only after death can My resurrection power go forth to raise you up to a place where the enemy cannot touch you.  Healing and restoration are in My hand. Look up, look up for your redemption draws nigh.  Chaos and destruction are coming upon mankind and the world, yet I AM the one who shall create the new [Is 65:17; 66:22; Rev 21:1], when all is said and done.  Keep on your armor; pray without ceasingabide in Me and do that which I ask of you to do. (*note* 0bedience is the word that came to mind as I wrote this, and keeping a repentant heart. BP)

Great blessing is about to fall upon My obedient children; but great judgment also is falling upon all nations and all peoples of the earth.  Yes, and the wrath of the devil, the prince of this world is coming, but he has nothing on Me.

His wrath has been loosed for a time, yea, but he knows that his time is short. [Rev 12:12] Look to Me and abide, for I AM your strength, your wisdom, your discernment, your all in all.  My peace I give you, not as the world gives, but the peace I give passes all understanding. [Phil 4:7] Let not your heart be troubled [Jn 14:1]; neither be afraid.

Glory to the Lord alone for encouraging His people, so faithful and true is our King and Lord.

ORIGINAL POST:  http://crossinthewilderness.blogspot.com/2013/07/to-weary.html

 for His glory

 penned by

Bonita                                                          dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

Addendum: I cannot sugarcoat this, or tickle ears in order to be liked or accepted. It is not about me at all. It is about the eternal destiny of souls. If you are angry at God, so be it. When we read the Holy Scriptures, we can see where others were upset and voiced their inner thoughts, struggles and lack of understanding. Job comes to mind as one example.

However, to accuse God of unrighteousness or of lies; to make His word null and void, to speak against Him with disrespect or rather, no fear of the Lord is not only blasphemous, but gross error and dangerous ground to be upon.

Repent is a word people cringe at. Why? To repent means to "change your mind" and to "turn from wickedness" (see 2 Chronicles 7, verses 14 and 15). It is love that refuses to whitewash or sugarcoat truth, in order to make it acceptable.

Jesus/Yeshua was straight-forward. He called things out as they were, yet He is the epitome of love - God is love. A parent who loves their child will not lie to them. They will also correct and discipline out of that love. Our heavenly Father does that. In fact, the family in human form is but a reflection or example of our blessed Creator, Abba, our spiritual Father.

As I said to one beloved saint, I am not a counselor, but merely an ordinary woman, a sister in Christ. Does family not speak truth to one another? If we have learned hard lessons, do we not try to help a sibling (let's say, a bro or sis in Christ) avoid some of the pitfalls we fell into? Of course we do.

We can only try, but ultimately, the final choice remains with each individual. Even our Lord does not force Himself on mankind; however, He will speak the truth about the consequences of sin and the refusal to repent and believe in and receive the Messiah Yeshua/Jesus as Lord and Saviour. The lake of fire is a reality, like it or not. See Revelation 20, verses 14 and 15.

I have had a beam in my eyes before. The removal of such can be a painful process, but so necessary.  Yet, it is worth it because it is the only way I can possibly see clearly to help another who may have but a splinter to be removed.

We are told to love one another; to bear each other's burdens, to pray one for another. This is love in action, and it produces bountiful fruit. Be much blessed and know deep within, more importantly, believe deep within, YOU ARE LOVED. Repentance is a lifebuoy that will keep you from drowning in sin.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. [Ps 51:17]

The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy. 

[Ps 103:8]

Who is a God like unto you, that pardons iniquity (sin) and passes by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? He retains not his anger forever because he delights in mercy.

He will turn again; He will have compassion upon us; He will subdue our iniquities; and you will cast all their sins into the depths of the sea.

[Micah 7:18,19]



Saturday, April 25, 2015

Upcoming Radio Programs

Black helicopters flying overhead will be the norm.
Guest Jason Pillow will be discussing what he has learned about the Jade Helm 15, a new Special Operations exercise that is to take place from July 15 - September 15.  According to officials, "...JADE HELM 15, a form of Realistic Military Training (RMT), will coordinate with local law enforcement agencies and local property owners affected by this training exercise."
Below are Jason Pillow's statements:
'Joint Assistant for Development and Execution along withHomeland Eradication of Local Militants'
Armband for troops participating in Jade Helm 15
It Doesn't Get Any Clearer Than This!     
There is far more to Jade Helm than what most will tell you, or even realize. This operation has been going on for months and the dates that everyone is going on about is just the closing of the jaws on the trap.
From foreign troops on American soil to Guantanamo being emptied of Muslim terrorists to make room for American patriots and Christians who would dare to stand against the elite Satanists that want to kill and subjugate the world.
This show is not for the timid. The information that I have to share is terrifying, but that is what we need. Just as America did during WW2, we need to do now and embrace that fear and turn it into rage and anger, so that we can bow up, take a stand and say boldly that "WE WILL NOT TAKE THIS!"
Tune in Saturday, April 25, 2015 to listen to Jason Pillow's report.
BlogTalk Radio - Warriors of Endurance (in the Time of Revealing)
6pm - Pacific / 7pm Mountain / 8 pm Central / 9 pm Eastern
On Sunday, the final episode of No Greater Love will be aired.

This final episode is called "No Greater Love - Test of Endurance". 

There are times trials and tests come our way unexpectedly. If you have ever prayed to "endure to the end" and to be "made worthy for the Lamb of God, Y'shua/Jesus, don't be surprised at how the Lord just may answer that prayer. Yet, always remember that He promised that He would never leave nor forsake us.

BlogTalk Radio (BTR) - Warriors of Endurance (in the Time of Revealing)

Sunday, April 26, 2015 

2pm - Pacific / 3pm Mountain / 4pm Central / 5pm Eastern


for His glory

Bonita                           dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Faith and Patience


Back in June (approximately) last year, I spoke on air as well as posted about a dream I had.  The dream contained three words only..."test of endurance".  I understood that it meant a testing of faith, a testing of everything we had learned up to that time in our walk.  Sadly, it would mean a dividing, a separating because there would/will be those who will not see it through. 

A couple or few weeks later, another dream with three more words - "Satan's militant soldiers", which to me meant that the warriors involved in the test of endurance could expect vicious battles from Satan's (the adversary) best, his 'cream of the crop', which was a planned and allowed part of the testing.  Warriors must know how to battle and are expected to do so.  

Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. [Eph 6:11-13]

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom resist steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world. [1Pet5:8, 9]

Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;  Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God [Eph 6:14-17]

And he said, Hearken ye, all Judah, and ye inhabitants of Jerusalem, and thou king Jehoshaphat, Thus saith the LORD unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's[2Chron 20:15]

The dreams with the words of warning were put on the back burner for a time because nothing happened immediately (which is most often the way with prophetic words and/or dreams - even throughout the Word of God).  Yet, it (test of endurance) did and has come.  The war is never-ending, until that which is written in the Bible comes to fruition; (much is unfolding now) and the battles are relentless, non-ceasing and brutal.  

Yet the increase and intensity of the battles is unavoidably obvious amongst the people of God who have eyes to see and ears to hear.  We weary, but we go on.  We rise up as many times as it takes.  We pray, we read the Word - we pray more, we endure and we hold fast to the King of kings and Lord of lords. 

Obedience


(To the) Elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through sanctification of the Spirit, unto obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ: Grace unto you, and peace, be multiplied.

Know ye not, that to whom ye yield yourselves servants to obey, his servants ye are to whom ye obey; whether of sin unto death, or of obedience unto righteousness? [Rom6:16]


(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; 
And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled. [2Cor 10:4-6]

Though He (Jesus/Y'shua) were a Son, yet learned He obedience by the things which He suffered; [Heb5:8]

Victory Upon Us
When a ten-day fast was done in February, five godly women joined in with me for the last three days, when I was doing an Esther fast.  Each one committed to a day of fasting, with one sister going two days (no food only), whereas the precious Spirit of God Almighty directed that I go the three days without food or drink.  He strengthened all of us to complete this and we give the LORD GOD all the glory.

Prayers went up for the manifestation of long awaited promises/visions that many have been longing to see come to pass.  Prayers for healing, restoration, salvation of the lost, the return of the prodigals were also part of it - the longing to be doing the greater works as Jesus/Y'shua foretold, in global and astounding proportions.

It is understood that a falling away will happen, as this was also foretold by our Messiah.  Yet, I understood the Lord speaking about the "clash of the kingdoms" - escalated to phenomenal and unimaginable dimensions, intensity and acceleration as never before.  Just as the evil elite have fine-tuned their super-soldiers and nephilim walk amongst us, it is an imitation of the army the Almighty God, our Great Spirit Chief, is raising up.  

No, we will not be immortal as some would insist upon.  We too will see death, unless the Lord stops it or He returns first in all of His glory.  We all know that it is appointed unto all men (people) once to die.  

And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment: So Christ was once offered to bear the sins of many; and unto them that look for Him shall He appear the second time without sin unto salvation. [Heb 9:27, 28]

Whether we are protected through great dangers and spared death until the Lord's return, or whether our mission is completed and we rest until the day of resurrection is entirely in the hands of our Creator.  

Do I believe in divine protection?  Absolutely!  The written Word of God declares it and I have also been protected more than once, having even witnessed His angels in action. That does not make me invincible.  Godly people die every day, just as all the prophets and apostles did.  

Our lives are in the hands of the Sovereign Living God - we can trust Him.  We go forth day by day, doing as He leads, knowing that the vessels we occupy right now are temporal and this world is not our home.  That, my friends, is reality.  Yet, I do believe that we will see and participate in miracles and mind-boggling events, just as Noah, Abraham, Moses, Elijah, Gideon, Samson and many of our forerunners did.  We must be on guard against the counterfeit also and pray for increased discernment.

Therefore, I state boldly that although Satan has an army of super-soldiers and nephilim he has chosen and is raising up, the Sovereign God has been and is raising up an army of supernatural warriors, scattered throughout the nations of the world (soldiers [true believers] that will accomplish the supernatural by the Spirit of the Living God Almighty) that He has chosen.  Hallelujah! Embrace the testing and give glory to God!

Child-like Faith
We know that it is crucial to have faith. Someone once asked what it meant to have child-like faith.  Best answer I could come up with was the following.

When we go to sit down on a chair, we have faith that the chair will hold us. Typically, we don't even stop to question whether the chair will hold us or not, we simply have faith that it will.  If we are extremely heavy, we may look for a larger chair, but we will have faith that the larger chair will hold us.  

A child, no matter what their weight is, simply looks for a chair and sits down, having faith and trusting that the chair will hold them.  If the chair breaks, a look of surprise comes over his face, then a reaction comes.  Whether it is laughter or tears depends on whether he was hurt or not.  The child will receive comfort if he is greatly shaken by the situation, but he get over it and move on.

He will find another chair.  He does not give up, although he may be more cautious, being wiser, but he will again sit down, trusting and having faith that the chair will hold him. Each time the chair holds him without fail, his confidence is restored, his faith becomes strong again and he continues on.

Child-like faith in God is trusting and having faith that He will hold us, no matter what.  If something goes wrong, we may have a look of surprise. We may laugh or cry, even receiving comfort if need be, but we will get over it and move on.

We must continue to go forward, putting our trust and faith in the Lord again, believing that He will hold us.  We will be wiser, but each time we sit (or get thru a situation), our confidence is restored, our faith grows stronger and we continue on.

By My Spirit
[...]  This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by My spirit, saith the LORD of hosts. [Zec 4:6]

The book of Hebrews 11 breaks down faith.  The first verse begins:  Now faith is the substance [material, matter, stuff] of things hoped for, the evidence [data, confirmation, sign, facts] of things not seen.

The end-time, last days church will move in faith, trusting God to perform greater works through them because of Christ in them, the hope of glory.  Jesus gave the best wine in His first miracle at the wedding of Cana.  God saves the best 'til last.  Always - and the last days church shall be greater than at the first.  Jesus/Y'shua said so: "greater works".


Think upon our forerunners. The book of Hebrews records (and reminds us) of the faith of Enoch to be translated.  The Greek word used is metatithemi, which means to transfer (literally), change sides, exchange, transported.

It reminds me of Philip when he was baptizing the Ethiopian eunuch in Gaza (the desert lands).  Whilst the eunuch was coming up out of the water, Philip disappeared, literally, body, soul and spirit.  He was translated/transported to another place, a city called Azotus, which was Ashdod in the Old Testament.  Then he went on to preach in all cities until he came to Caesarea.

And he (Ethiopian eunuch) commanded the chariot to stand still: and they went down both into the water, both Philip and the eunuch; and he baptized him.

And when they were come up out of the water, the Spirit of the Lord caught away Philip, that the eunuch saw him no more: and he went on his way rejoicing. But Philip was found at Azotus: and passing through he preached in all the cities, till he came to Caesarea.  [Acts8:38-40]

The writer of the book of Hebrews goes on to speak of Noah, having faith to build an ark; Abraham, who left his father's house to sojourn in a strange country; Sarah who by faith conceived seed though she were barren.  The book contains multiple examples.

Do we have faith to believe that water would come out of a rock, if the Lord told us to strike it and thirsty people could drink? Could we walk around a fortress with monstrous walls as thick and solid as the walls of Jericho, believing they will come down when we complete God's instructions?

If we were only a group of 300 strong, will our faith be strong enough to face thousands upon thousands of vicious, blood-thirsty warriors, such as nephilim or super-soldiers, believing that as we followed God's instructions, we will have victory?

Will we believe that if we are imprisoned, God can send His angels to break us loose, have our shackles fall away and walk past trained and alert guards into freedom?  We have to stop thinking in ways of 'entertainment', sci-fi movies and believe that God is beyond what we can comprehend.

We will do the greater works, a remnant...and yes, this remnant goes through hell (so to speak) with relentless vigorous training and the testing of our faith almost makes us quit or give up.  Yes, we get weary, but we do not give up - we do not quit!

We Rise Up to Bow Down!
We rise up again by the power and Spirit of our Creator (all glory is His alone), in order to bow down humbly before our mighty and holy King.  As He strengthens us, we go forward, again and again and again, battle after battle after battle - as many times as it takes, until the day we are called home or Jesus (Y'shua) the Messiah returns and the day of resurrection occurs, whichever comes first.  Hallelujah!

Yes, there are those who have gone through more, almost non-stop throughout their lives. Many believers have nearly written them off (or have) thinking that something must be wrong with them if they are continuously being chastened by the Lord.  Yes, we too have been chastened, but many times, training and testing is mistaken for chastisement.

There will be a falling away, but an army of true believers will appear to the world, doing the greater works in such astounding measures that the news media and evil entities will not be able to stop the fast-spreading reports.  Hope will be restored; people will be healed, saved, delivered and restored.  
 
Why, oh why do you think Satan is working so hard to perfect technology and ways that will restore 'youth' to people, a clean bill of health, healing even incurable diseases, abilities to live extremely long lives, immortality, super-abilities - power to see as an eagle and even a bat; strength to scale walls, leap tall buildings, run faster than a cheetah and much more?

This is not fantasy.  These things have almost been perfected, but Satan/Lucifer is the father of lies, a counterfeiter/imitator who mirrors/copies all that he sees and knows God is doing.  He knows the Word of God (scripture) better than most Christians.  

He knows that the last of the last days is going to be the 'clash of the kingdoms', a time like has never been before and shall never be again.  It is all because of Jesus the Christ and all that He accomplished with His death, burial, resurrection and ascension.  We will not only witness, but we will be part of the great signs and wonders, as the Lord works through His vessels (instruments), as He did in days of old - even as He is doing now amongst us.

Yet, what I speak of are signs and wonders, miracles that will be so plenteous, so profound, so unbelievable that it is going to go global, meaning grand scale, where word of mouth will quench any negative news media report.  That is, if the news media reports any kind of good news report at all. Glory to the Lamb!  (I will write more on this at another time.) 

Repent, Be Holy, A Warning

The above title (Repent, Be Holy, A Warning  ) was the one the Holy Spirit gave me, which
was one of my first written messages and published online in May, 2006.  The first message was:
A Call to Repentance-Do You Hear It?  [A Call to All Nations – Sound the Alarm], spoken in a public forum in December, 2005 and released online in December, 2006. I have always said that the messenger receives the message first, so it is NOT a matter of being 'holier-than-thou'.  Perish the thought!  Each and every one of us, myself included, must repent and be holy.

However, we can not expect to be doing the greater works without repentance, or if we are compromising with the world and its ways.  As harsh as that may sound, it is true.  The Lord continues to a work in all of us (first the inside of the cup), but continue it He does, but we must allow Him.  We must keep a repentant heart, choose to walk holy (set apart), picking up our cross and dying daily.  We learn obedience and we do the will of the Father .

Our Creator is not looking for the wise, the perfect, the strongest.  In fact, we know that He chooses the weak things of the world to confound the wise.  Remember Gideon?
  
And he said unto Him, Oh my Lord, wherewith (by means of which, or with what) shall I save Israel? behold, my family is poor in Manasseh, and I am the least in my father's house. [Judges 6:15]

But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God has chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty [1Cor1:27]

We will cry out as Isaiah (58:1):  Cry aloud, spare not, lift up thy voice like a trumpet, and show My people their transgression, and the house of Jacob their sins.   

We will be as Elijah (1Kings18:21): And Elijah came unto all the people, and said, How long halt you between two opinions? if the LORD be God, follow Him: but if Baal, then follow him. And the people answered him not a word.

 Choices - it is all about choices.  Joshua exhorted the people (Josh24:15]:

And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom you will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land you dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD.

In the days of the Jesus, a report came to Him that Pilate had murdered some Galilaeans and had mingled their blood in with their sacrifices. There was also news that a tower in Siloam had fallen and eighteen people were killed.

Jesus/Y'shua must have understood the critical spirit and the judgmental nature of people when some suffer tragedies.  Perhaps it was the way or tone that the people reported the news to Jesus that He spoke the following words:

And Jesus answering said unto them, Suppose ye that these Galilaeans were sinners above all the Galilaeans, because they suffered such things? 

And Jesus answering said unto them, Suppose you that these Galilaeans were sinners above all the Galilaeans, because they suffered such things? I tell you, Nay: but, except you repent, you shall all likewise perish. 

Or those eighteen, upon whom the tower in Siloam fell, and slew them, think you that they were sinners above all men that dwelt in Jerusalem? I tell you, Nay: but, except you repent, you shall all likewise perish.   [Lk13:2-5]

Not a popular message.  Certainly not a way to win friends and influence people, as the adage goes, but truth is not popular or well-received.  It cuts to the quick and exposes the intents and motives of the heart.  The thoughts and the intents of the heart is important to the Lord God Almighty.

For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. [Heb 4:12]

And you shall be My people, and I will be your God. Behold, the whirlwind of the LORD goes forth with fury, a continuing whirlwind: it shall fall with pain upon the head of the wicked. The fierce anger of the LORD shall not return, until He has done it, and until He has performed the intents of His heart: in the latter days you shall consider it [Jer30:22-24]

We have to keep a repentant heart, and we should desire and pray that all come to repentance, even those who have have treated us wrongly.  Whether they repent or not is not something we can force or control, but we can and should pray.

The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance. [2Pet 3:9]

We also must ourselves search our hearts continually, asking the Lord to reveal all, so that we will not deceive ourselves.  

Patience
Along with faith must come patience.  That is what the Lord revealed after the ten day fast.  We must patiently wait for the breakthrough/birthing/outpouring/infilling (whatever you choose to call it), but it is indeed almost upon us.  This I truly believe and I am not the only one who feels the urgency of this in the spirit man.  Yet, we do have to be patient.

It is understood that many of us have been waiting (some years/decades) for the manifestation of promises/visions and answers to prayer.  We anticipate doing the greater works, yet we must wait a little longer.

For you have need of patience, that, after you have done the will of God, you might receive the promise.  [Heb 10:36]

He is continuing the work in us.  He has been purging, purifying and perfecting and it has not been easy to endure, but it will be worth it.  Have we not prayed that we would be without spot or blemish, that we would be found worthy?  Well, we can only be found worthy with Christ in us and the work of the Father continuing until the day of our Lord.

Testimony and Lessons of Faith

Last night's program was delayed due to circumstances beyond my control, but it did go forward at 8:00 pm with a sister in Christ and personal friend named Sue.  She shared some of the bizarre requests the Lord made of her and her husband, their steps of faith into unknown territory and the faithfulness of God to see them through and provide - even when it meant waiting for Him to move.

Tonight, Sue will be sharing a prophetic word that the Lord gave her last week, and expounding further about faith.  The last half hour will be open to calls if anyone would like to call in and ask questions and/or prayer.

Thursday, May 1, 2014 - Prophetic Word and Further Insight into Faith with sister Sue

7:00 pm EST (6:00 pm Central - 4:00 pm Pacific)




The call-in number is:
347-945-6708  In order to be noticed in the studio as a caller who wishes to speak on air with the host and/or guest, you will be prompted to push 1 (number one)

Please feel free to call in and ask for prayer, or share what is on your heart.  We all need and learn from each other, and through it all, God is glorified.

Upcoming Soon on Warriors of Endurance Radio Program

On Tuesday, May 13th at 7:00 pm EST (6:00 Central - 4:00 pm Pacific), I will have a special guest on whose 14 year old son was killed when he was a youth missions trip, along with four others.  The struggle of faith that this man had when tragedy struck and how God brought him through it all is an incredible testimony.

I will be posting further details later, but it will be a program and testimony that you will not want to miss.

for His glory
Bonita                  dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com