Thursday, August 3, 2017

Rise Up_Prisoners of Hope


To get the full impact of this testimony, to show how God works to show forth His power and glory, and His concern for each of us individually, please start at the beginning (if you have not already).


The Testing was Not Over


It was also after the physical healing that other areas seemed to be targeted.  It started small, more of an annoyance than anything else.  I had purchased a blender about a year ago and it simply quit.  Changing my diet meant adding smoothies to try and heal my body from all the medications I had been on. 

Having a blender helped me to achieve that.  Frankly, I did not give it much thought because I had reasoned that it had lasted a good year for less than twenty dollars, so it did not bother me. It was merely an inconvenience more than anything. However, that was only the beginning. 

Approximately two weeks later, the transmission on my SUV gave up the ghost (quit, finished, kaput).  I still did not see the event as an attack from Satan as these things happen in life.  Was I surprised?  I was indeed! I had only had the vehicle for about seven months. There had been no warning signs that I was aware of.  It caught me completely off-guard. 

So, what was my attitude?  What was the condition of my heart? The glory belongs to the Lord alone…and I will not touch His glory!  In order not to mislead anyone, further testimony must be forthcoming in an effort to show the reader some of the ways God works.  His ways are unique with each of us.  There are times we can relate to similarities in His doings, but how often are we delighted and encouraged to hear how He deals with others?  We learn more of Him as we listen to testimonies that glorify Christ Jesus.

He has Torn; He will Heal


If God tears down, it is for a good cause and He will build up, restore. It all works together for good – for His purpose [Rom 8:28]
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God does not expose sin and pronounce pending judgment without also offering a solution and granting hope and comfort to His people. His solution is for people to humble themselves and seek His face, pray, and choose to turn away from sin.  He knows all our struggles and helps us if we are willing to let Him. In His mercy, He offers forgiveness; by His grace, He sent Jesus to die upon the cross for our sins. So great is His love. He tears down, but He rebuilds.  He is the potter, we are the clay.

Come, and let us return unto the LORD: for He has torn, and He will heal us; He has smitten, and He will bind us up. After two days will He revive us: in the third day He will raise us up, and we shall live in His sight.

Then shall we know, if we follow on to know the LORD: His going forth is prepared as the morning; and He shall come unto us as the rain, as the latter and former rain unto the earth.  [Hos 6:1-3]

A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up [Ecc 3:2, 3]

Be still. Believe for the impossible. Mary, the young virgin lady who was chosen to bear Jesus the Messiah said: Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to Your word. (And the angel [who brought God’s message] departed from her.)  [Lk 1:38]

Step by Step

When I first returned to Canada after being in the United States for several years, I returned to BC, the land of my heart.  However, the cost of living in the province was off the charts and completely unexpected.  Finding a place to rent was not easy. The demand for affordable housing was high and apartments went as fast as they were advertised. It was so high in fact that getting a potential landlord to answer an email or return a phone call was a rarity.

As a result, I ended up staying in shelters for four months.  About six weeks after my arrival, I renewed my Canadian driver’s license and purchased a 2000 Grand Am, thinking that it would be easier to find a place with a vehicle, but no, it would still be another two and a half months before I finally would find a place.  Even then, it was only a room, with a shared kitchen, living room, bathroom and laundry. How happy I was the day I was finally out of shelters.

It took yet another five months to finally succeed in finding an apartment, which is the one I have lived in now for slightly over two years.  Not quite a year had passed when the motor of the Grand Am blew. There was no way I could afford another vehicle. The apartment is located outside of town, more in the country.  How was I going to get groceries and do business?  My attitude left much to be desired when I found out that it would be about two grand (thousand) at the minimum to replace the motor.

Instead of remembering how it had been a blessing to even get the money for a vehicle so quickly after my return to Canada, I became quite disgruntled. The cost of replacing the motor was not only out of my reach, but given the age of the car and the high mileage, it simply was not worth it. I had already replaced other parts, and had just put a new battery, an expensive hydraulic hose (with a silicon chip) and winter tires on the vehicle as well.



Despite the fact that the external body of the Grand Am was in excellent condition, it still had to be scrapped.  I had tried to sell the car for parts, but there were no offers or calls.  For two days after the motor ceased, I grumbled and complained.  The Holy Spirit alerted me to my poor attitude and my lack of trust in the Lord. Somehow He amplified my words so that I was fully aware of not only my attitude, but my tone.

Those who know me or have followed the blog for some years know full well the challenges and the suffering I went through in the shelters. When I shared my experiences on the blog and on Blogtalk radio, it was not for sympathy. Not at all!  But rather, it was to share how God allowed everything that I had learned in my Christian walk to be tried, tested.

 It will not be repeated here, but less than a year later, it was still recent enough to remember the things the Lord taught. It was simply a matter of putting it into practice.  Was I such a hard work for the Lord that He had to keep allowing testing in major areas?  Obviously, there was still work to be done, or perhaps the fruit of His work had not yet come to the surface.  Or was my heart’s condition worse than I realized?

Two days of bad attitude were two days too long…I sincerely repented.  The Holy Spirit shone a spotlight on my attitude and it could not be ignored.  The Lord is never wrong, but I can be…and sadly, I was. It took the faithful Holy Spirit to open my ears and eyes to my behaviour. 

Immediately after repentance, the work the Lord had already done in my heart took over and my attitude made a 180° turn.  I repented of not trusting Jesus and began to thank Him instead.  As soon as any of us begin to thank God for one thing, numerous other things to be thankful for come to mind.  It has always seemed to me that when one begins with genuine thanksgiving, it automatically leads into praise.

Enter into His gates with thanksgiving and into His courts with praise; give thanks to Him and praise His name [Ps 100:4]

It is no exaggeration when I say that only a few days after I changed my attitude I received a phone call from my landlord. He and his wife had discussed my dilemma. He called to tell me that he had purchased a (year?) 1998 Nissan Altima, for $800. I could pay him back as soon as I was able to, without any pressure or deadline. 

I could barely believe my ears, but I immediately connected the unexpected blessing with my changed attitude. I thank God for the conviction of the Holy Spirit.  From my editing, I just happened to have half the amount of money ($400) when he informed me about the car. We arranged to get the vehicle the following day, as it was in the next town about 40 minutes away. He was glad to have half the money upfront, although surprised. That was God’s doing and timing, undoubtedly.   


Less than six weeks later, I managed to pay off the remaining amount.  No sooner was the car paid for than an accident occurred.  I had been approaching a stoplight in the left turning lane. A truck that was exiting a mall parking lot broadsided my car on the passenger side (T-boned).  No one was injured.  The young man was very apologetic, took full responsibility without argument, glad that I was alright and very cooperative in giving me all the details needed for the insurance company.

From my observation, the Nissan only seemed to have a hint of a dent and a couple of scratches, one being a long scratch down the side, so I was not even going to bother with a claim.  However, the passenger door would not open or shut properly, but I had thought that it would not take much to fix.


The next day an appointment was made with a claims adjuster in the government office.  Unfortunately, automobile insurance in British Columbia is not privatized.  It is a public insurance program that is owned and operated by the government, a Crown corporation owned by the Sovereign of Canada. 

I had fully intended to do the repairs and continue driving the car, but it was not to be. The insurance adjuster wrote the car off, stating that it would cost more to fix the door (deemed to be an unsafe and illegal condition) than the vehicle was worth.  

Since only $800 had been paid for the car, I knew that more than likely, I would again be without a vehicle, and I surely could not expect my landlord to step up to the plate a second time.  He had been most kind in helping me out, and I was not about to take such kindness for granted or frivolously.  Now perhaps the reader can understand why I have forgotten the year of the car.  I had only owned it for six weeks, and now it too had to be scrapped.

Who Rules Your Heart?


What was my attitude this time? I made sure my heart attitude was not one of bitterness, or grumbling or complaining. But again, all praise be to God whose Spirit exposed my negativity and rebuked such when the Grand Am had to be scrapped. Well, my Christian brothers and sisters would be pleased to hear that the Lord had done a good work. No way was I going to grumble and complain this time around. I was thankful for the opportunity that the landlord allotted. 

As he was not a Christian, I was convinced that the Lord had moved upon his heart, since he was in the financial position to assist me.  Even still, whether he was well able to afford the assistance or not, it was still an act of kindness.  No one can deny that fact.  

I believe that the landlord had acted on the Lord’s prompting, although he gave no credit to Him.  And yes, he had boasted to my neighbours (his other tenants) about how he had bought me the car. Of course, they would learn that the loan was paid back.


It was a couple of days before the insurance adjuster called me to say that I would receive $2,091 for the $800 Nissan.  Pardon me??  I was flabberghasted, but pleasantly so!  I saw it as coming from the hand of God. In fact, I am convinced that the Lord orchestrated the outcome of all the occurrences, to teach me and to try me.  Shortly thereafter, about two weeks, give or take, I purchased a 2003 Mazda Tribute SUV 4x4.

I had never owned a vehicle that new, never mind the fact that it was a 4x4 (4WD).  I was over the top, high with happiness and delight. The kilometers on the engine were high, but it had been well maintained.  The previous owner had originally purchased the vehicle for his wife and looked after it.  He had told me that his reason for selling it was because his wife wanted a newer vehicle.  The money from the insurance covered the cost of the SUV, plus the taxes. All glory to God!

The accident and resulting purchase of the vehicle occurred last year, in November, 2016.  I would enjoy driving the 4x4 for the following six months. It was in June (2017) when I was returning home from town after running some errands that suddenly the Mazda would not accelerate when I stepped on the gas.  I was travelling in the midst of heavy traffic upon the main highway that ran through town.   

I immediately turned on the hazard lights, scouting for a quick exit off the highway.  There “just happened” to be a convenient entrance to a bar and lodge parking lot to my right, so I quickly turned in so as not to slow rush hour traffic, and surprisingly coasted through the lot. If the reader saw the size of the parking lot, you would see the wonder that the SUV had coasted through without stopping.

Incredibly, there also happened to be a back street that was adjacent to the rear of the lot. I was able to coast onto the street before the vehicle came to a full stop, unable to go further.  I had reverse, but no forward gears, not even in 4WD mode. The transmission had failed. Praise God that I had brought my cell phone with me.  Many times I left it at home when I was not going to be away for long – I’ve changed that habit now.

I also had about $15, which just covered the cost of a taxi to get home.  God went ahead of me.  Not only was it amazing that I was able to coast through a fair-sized parking lot that just “happened” to be there, but the odds of a street being adjoined to it was nothing short of miraculous.  It was also in a place where there were no parking restrictions.  The SUV was still plated and insured, so it was safe to leave it parked there without concern about being ticketed or towed.

The incident was completely unexpected. There had been no evidence of leaking from the transmission, no burnt smell, no “check engine” light, no trouble switching gears or popping out of gear, and the transmission fluid level was fine.  There had been no warning signs for me to take the vehicle in to be checked, but the end was definite.  

Over the course of the next two days, I placed multiple calls trying desperately to find an inexpensive transmission.  Just as the Grand Am is infamous for blown motors, Mazda has been notorious for tranny problems.  I did not have that foreknowledge when I purchased the vehicle.  

As a result, there were no used transmissions available anywhere in western Canada at the time, but there was one available in Ontario.  The cost of the transmission plus shipping fees from Ontario to British Columbia, as well as the cost of labour to replace it, combined with the high kilometers already on the vehicle, was far too much. 

What was my attitude? Ha! Guess!  The devil was not going to get even so much as a whimper out of me!  When the Lord does a work, He does it well.  How could I not thank the Lord? Even being able to buy the SUV 4x4 in the first place was a gift from God.  I had never owned a 4WD before.  I had a riot in it, meaning it had been a real enjoyment, especially in the winter on BC’s mountainous roads. 

Its initial cost, including taxes, had been covered by the claims settlement. If I was to complain or grumble in the least, then I had surely learned nothing about trusting God after the Grand Am episode at all, not to mention I would be guilty of ingratitude and bitterness. Yes, the vehicle had to be scrapped.  I had accepted the fact that I would be without transportation for likely a year or so, until I could save a couple thousand to get yet another vehicle. 

I purchase my water from a depot because of the smell of chlorine in the town water that comes up from the tap, not to mention the foul smell that crops up randomly. At the time the Mazda went out of commission, the township had a “boil water” warning in place.  How was I going to carry two five gallon jugs onto a bus?  If I did manage to do so, I would have to take a second bus trip to town to get groceries, plus take care of other business in town.  

Buses are not as frequent in this small town as they are in larger communities.  One has to be prepared to wait, even up to an hour if a bus is missed.  People were asking questions for transportation, but I had no answers except to say it was all in God’s hands, and that it could be a year or so before I would be able to purchase another vehicle.

A Hard Hit

There had to be a reason behind everything that had been taking place.  The incident occurred very shortly after my knee had been healed.  The reader does not need it all repeated.  The friend that I had gone to the hospice with offered to pick me up for church.  I gladly accepted her offer.  The brethren prayed to the Lord on my behalf.

Five people had approached me at different times prophesying that God would provide a car for me.  It was indeed encouraging to hear, but personally, I could see no way how that was possible.  I am not in any position to get a loan and pay interest fees.  I live humbly but have no lack, thanks be to God.  Yes, God can make a way where there is no way.  Nothing is too hard for Him.

But despite the spoken statements grounded in faith from the brethren, it was impossible for me to figure out how my Lord would do that (leaning on that logic (reasoning) instead of trusting God, which we are counseled to avoid, and not be wise in our own eyes, but to fear God, as it is written in Proverbs 3: 5-7)

When I had looked up the local scrap yards, I saw an intriguing name that appeared in the search engine. When I clicked on the site, I learned that the province had a non-profit program that offered incentives to people as part of what is called RYR (Retire Your Ride) or “voluntary early retirement program”. 

Apparently, these vehicle scrappage programs exist across the country, which I had previously been unaware of.  If another unaware Canadian reads this, perhaps it will help them if they find themselves in a similar situation as I found myself in.  These programs are not well advertised and are not commonly known amongst the majority of citizens.  Anyone I mentioned it to were unaware of the program.

From one of several pages on the websites belonging to the Government of Canada, there are a few dedicated to explaining the purpose behind offering this program to Canadian citizens, but it helps significantly if one is first aware of such a program in order to search it out, or unless one just happens to discover it in a search for something else, as I myself had first heard or learned about it.

“The Government of Canada is committed to improving air quality across the country and reducing the health and environmental effects of air pollution. Accelerated on-road scrappage programs are positive steps in the right direction. 

These voluntary programs are developed and run by local organizations in communities across Canada and supported by partners, including Environment Canada. They are designed to improve air quality and to help reduce smog-forming and climate change emissions by permanently removing older, high emitting vehicles from Canadian roads.”  (Quoted from one Canadian government website)

It is the government’s aim to get all older vehicles off the roads of Canada as part of an effort to help control climate change, and emissions have a “greenhouse effect” due to the gases older vehicles emit, such as sulphur dioxide, carbon monoxide, toxic air pollutants and more.  The terms “global warming” and “climate change” are often confused today as meaning the same thing.

Even today, the topic and two terms stir up heated debates not only amongst scientists, but also amongst the general public.  It is true that although both are used interchangeably, the two expressions are not new ones and the definitions and meaning of each differ. Many consider global warming to be a hoax. 



A page on the NASA website uses both phrases interchangeably.  It is not my intent to delve into the topic here either, but rather to shed some light (clarify) on the motive and intent involved in the Canadian government creating such an opportune program that would encourage public cooperation.  The offer of money is, and always has been, a powerful incentive and motivator.

Why I had not come across the website previously in the search engine when I had to scrap the Grand Am was beyond me, but there it was now.  The offers are particularly compelling for those who are strapped for funds.  The downside of the program is that the onus is upon each individual to deliver their old vehicle to a scrap dealer. 

Not only are the types of vehicles on the government’s list expensive to buy, but the transportation must be one purchased from a limited list of models found at one of the local dealer who has partnered with the program. Everyone knows that buying from car dealerships is the most expensive avenue to take, due to overhead and added fees that are not included in a similar transaction done privately between citizens.  The interest fees on a lease-to-own vehicle are extremely high.

Despite the fact that my SUV was only eight blocks from the scrap yard, local companies quoted $150 as the minimal set fee for towing. A call was placed to the scrap yard.  Their fee was competitive with the local businesses, but when I explained my dilemma, the representative excused himself momentarily, placing me on hold. When he returned, he stated that since the vehicle was in close proximity to them, they could offer to tow the truck for $50. 

I was blessed and am absolutely convinced that the Lord moved on some hearts to help me out further.  Not only would the incentive (which could take up to six weeks to receive the cheque) that I chose cover the towing cost, but it also covered the expense of taxis I had to take to town over the course of three days.  Once an application is made online, it can take 24 hours or so before one knows if the application was approved or not.  The approval must then be printed up and submitted to the scrap yard.

Papers needed to be signed to transfer ownership over to the scrap yard, as well as to meet up with the tow truck driver, hand in the license plates and cancel the policy at my local insurance brokers.  When the cheque did arrive, the settlement amount would also pay the expense for other unavoidable and necessary trips to town via taxi over a three day period.  The Sovereign God always goes ahead of us, whether we are aware of it or not.

Without lengthy explanations, suffice it to say that the only incentive offered that I could take advantage of was the offer of a payment of $200 if a person scrapped their vehicle at a participating local business.  To me, the offer was a tremendous help when funds are lacking. 

After having scrapped the Grand Am at a loss (considering all the new parts or replacements I had made) and that it had only lasted me a year, I still considered it to be a blessing from the Lord, as I had been unaware of such a program.  I am convinced the Holy Spirit led me to the information, according to God’s wisdom, His way, His will and His timing.   

On the third day after the Mazda became permanently parked on the side street, I arranged for the truck to be towed. Suffice it to say that an application had been filled out online to the BC non-profit program, which was approved. The vehicle was confirmed as being the official property of the metal recycling company and scrapped.  It was then a matter of waiting for a cheque would be issued.

It was official – I was back to being a foot soldier. (A little humour is required here – very little.) 

When Is It Enough?


The upside was that I would have more time to work on the long-awaited article “Comfort My People” that  I had felt led to write after having opened at exactly Isaiah 40 three separate times, back in March (2017).  As soon as the Mazda was taken away, and plates were handed in with cancellation of the insurance policy, I headed home.

Once back, I eagerly fired up the laptop and…oh no!  Now what?  Pages were slow loading, often receiving an “Aw, snap!” message (page loading error/crashes).  An arrow prayer to the Lord met with silence.  Even trying to Google a solution was nearly impossible.  

Rather than being redundant, it took day after day of trying everything possible, from scans for viruses, Trojans and malware, which I initially thought was the culprit, to finally restoring the laptop to an earlier date.  Nothing, nothing worked.  A technician was willing to check out my computer remotely for $75 an hour.  I had no money to throw away like that.

Another extremely frustrating and stressful week!  Silent tears of exasperation rolled down my cheeks.  I had only begun to recover from the months of anguish, disorientation and confusion in the three weeks that had passed since my healing.  Was it all a test, an attack from Satan, or was it just life in general?  If it was a test, I longed to pass it.  If it was an attack from Satan, I sought to overcome it.  If it was life’s problems in general, I would just live it and keep on.

Weariness was upon me.  Is there no reprieve Lord?  Jesus said, Come unto Me all you that labour and are heavy laden (weary) and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and you shall find rest unto your souls.[Mat 11:28, 29]

If the Lord wanted to take the computer too, He had every right. First, there was the raging in my physical health. Then, the battles within my soul which included strained relationships (Satan was working), questioning my faith and my standing with God, as well as the confusion, disorientation, depression and angst that came with the side effects of medication were simultaneously challenging me.  Then, last but not least, there was the battle that my spirit man had been involved in with the wrestling against both my carnal nature (flesh) and the adversary. 

Four more days passed where it was nearly impossible to do anything on the computer, but the climax took place in the latter part of the week, namely the last three days. Indeed, I prayed. The Lord had tried me before to see if I would give "all" up, when He sent me to the United States. 

Surely I would not need to be tested again?  But what if...what if I DID need to be tested again?  So, I determined that day that if the Lord took it all again, I would just wait on Him and not complain.  He has my life in His hands and I had to choose ...either I choose to trust the Lord or I do not. Period!

I chose to trust, even if my heart was heavy at times, God knew that I wanted to do what was right in His eyes simply because of all the patience He bore in teaching me hard lessons. How could I disappoint Him? He had even taught me about love...after all this time...true love; the kind of love that does not betray, or abuse, or reject.  Do I believe Jesus loves me? I do...

So once that was established, I went back to my computer. It was late in the day, but that is when I called the landlady after I had the idea that the router may need rebooting. The information had come before my eyes a couple of times (as a possible problem) the few times I did manage to get a page or so loaded.  The rebooting was a last resort. If that failed, then my back was up against a wall without remedy. 

Why was all this happening?  What was I was to learn?  The thought occurred to me that ever since I had named a website “Time of Revealing (Warriors of Endurance), and a radio program “Warriors of Endurance in the Time of Revealing” in mid-2014, heavy trials and tribulations were my portion.  

The website is defunct as of June 1, 2017, and the radio program was discontinued shortly after I came out of the shelters, both due to finances.  If I were to determine where and when the latest trial began, I would have to consider mid to late 2014 as a starting point. Well, I certainly did not feel like any enduring warrior, but we are taught not to rely on feelings and emotions. 

We are taught not to be overwhelmed by outward appearances, but to keep our eyes on Jesus (Yeshua) the Christ.  We are to walk by faith and not by sight.  We are to speak the Word of God, which spiritually is a mighty two-edged sword of the Lord.  There are superb instructions, guidelines, armour, tools and weapons given to us in the Word of God.  It is wonderful that we have these things to utilize, but they are of little value if left unused.

It seemed that after I had prayed to the Lord, ending with admitting that I did not know what to do, it occurred to me that as a last resort, I should call the landlady to see if she would reboot the router (modem). The router for the entire building is located in the neighbour’s apartment next door, but she was away at work. It was later that day the router was rebooted and viola!  A victory shout sounded!

THAT was the problem all along. An entire week was needlessly lost.  Indeed, the devil may laugh, but God will see to it that His people are never ashamed.  It is waiting on His timing and His ways to bring about good that is hard and yes, even incredibly difficult for us.  The devil can only go so far. He was defeated at the cross as the Saviour’s precious and costly blood was shed for the sake of sinful mankind.  

My computer (hallelujah!) was safe. So many are weary, tired and under vicious attack in every area imaginable.  We must keep pressing on, my brothers and sisters.  Let us keep each other, the true ones in the Body of Christ, covered in prayer.  We have need of one another…we must know this, and even if we know it, reminders are helpful.  

Although our God still issues severe warnings by His Spirit, at the same time, He desires that His faithful, battle-weary ones be comforted and encouraged, so that none of us give up or give in, so that we will rise up, rise up higher with renewed (restored) hope, and endure to the end.  Hallelujah!

Expect the Unexpected and the Suddenlies


The Lord God is known to do unexpected things suddenly, whether in blessings or whether in judgment.

I have declared the former things from the beginning; and they went forth out of My mouth, and showed them; I did them suddenly, and they came to pass. [Is 48:3]

The week after the Mazda quit on me, a friend and her husband picked me up to go to a prayer meeting.  Perhaps ten of us humbly gathered together.  The saints of God prayed over me.  Only God knows everything and only He can move upon a heart.

The king’s heart is in the hand of the Lord, as the rivers of water: He turns it wherever He will.  [Prov 21:1]

A suggestion was made to take up a collection (completely unexpected)...and I was given $75. Considering there was very few of us gathered together that night for prayer, it was amazing.  I was blown away by the unexpected generosity and kindness of my brethren.  It immediately went for food…but something else happened.

I had listened to a random sermon online not long before that particular day of the prayer meeting.  I cannot say who the preacher was. At the time, the title caught my eye, but I cannot recall the name of it now.  The preacher man was teaching on listening to God and was using Naaman, a valiant commander of the army of Syria, as an example. [2Kin 5:1]

To cut to the quick, God’s prophet Elisha had given instructions from the Lord to Naaman when he had come to him to be healed of leprosy. 

And Elisha sent a messenger unto him, saying, God and wash in Jordan seven times, and your flesh shall come again to you, and you shall be clean.  
[2Kin 5:10]

Naaman’s pride was greatly bruised when the prophet sent a messenger to a warrior of high caliber and rank such as himself.  Even the directives from Elisha infuriated him because he had expected the prophet to call out to God, lay hands on him and he would be healed. [vs 11] It also enraged Naaman that he was to wash in the Jordan, which he considered to have murky waters in comparison to the cleaner waters of Abana and Pharpar, which were two rivers of Damascus. 

Did the prophet not know who he was dealing with?  The pride of the commander was evident.  When one of Naaman’s servants saw the anger of his master, he encouraged him to listen to the prophet.  Naaman chose to swallow his pride and followed Elisha’s command.  As a result of his obedience to the prophet, Naaman was healed to such perfection that it is written that his “flesh came again like unto the flesh of a little child, and he was clean.”  [vs 12-14]

One statement that the preacher made seemed to be highlighted.  It was a statement that I would not forget.  “When a prophet of God tells you to do anything, no matter how strange it seems, do it anyway.”  I remember thinking that no prophet these days told people to do odd or unusual things in order to receive a miracle.  That night I went to the prayer meeting at the little church in town.

A vibrant and godly couple from the UK who came to BC Canada, obeying the Lord’s leading, were at the meeting. They are musicians who lead the people into worship with an anointing that cannot be denied. The husband tells the people that the music is not about entertainment or emotionalism, it is about worshipping God.  He plays guitar whilst his wife plays keyboard; they both sing.  The brother has a prophetic gifting as well.  When he prayed over me, he also prophesied. 

Taking a handful of change from his pocket, he took a tooney, the largest coin in today’s Canadian currency with a value of $2 and gave it to me. The coin is silver with a gold-coloured center.  He told me to plant it in soil and not spend it.  He said not to expect a money tree, but prosperity. He made certain to point out that there are many ways God prospers people besides finances.

He went on to state that God also prospers His people in body, soul and spirit.  Of course I have well-learned that in my walk with the Lord.  However, since he knew nothing of me at that time, he wanted to be sure that I understood. I did.  Was this not an odd or strange directive spoken through a prophetic person of God? With childlike faith and a desire to obey God, I planted the toonie in the soil of a small rubber tree plant that I have.  No extra watering needed!



Two days after placing the coin in soil my new friend and a sister in Christ from the church called me and asked if I would be home that afternoon. Yes, I would be. This was the same friend that I had gone to the hospice with to visit the woman with cancer just two days before she died.  This was the same friend who had also been the one to initially ask people at the church to pray for the woman.

In less than an hour, she arrived along with her husband and sister.  She took me to the parking lot of the apartment building and asked me who a certain van belonged to.  Recognizing it immediately, I said, “You.”  She said, “No, it’s yours!” and with that her husband handed me the keys to a 2006 Dodge Grand Caravan (NOW the newest vehicle ever owned), with only 91,000 km (lowest I ever had), fresh oil change, new brakes, excellent summer tires (under warranty still) and more.  In my shock, I truly did not know what to say. 




Simply saying ‘thank you’ seemed not enough. They took me to town and transferred the vehicle in my name, got it plated and insured for the month and gave me the keys again.  It is no secret to those who know me that when an emergency or some significant event happens, I have what is called delayed reaction.  

It takes awhile for things to fully hit me. I would say that is why I am good in an emergency, as I am okay until time passes.  It could be hours, days or weeks.  It is possible that it is a defense mechanism that was developed over time, given certain traumas that happened in my life.


As I was about to get in the vehicle to drive home, I noticed tears in my friend’s eyes and upon her face.  Knowing that the van had previously belonged to her mother before she passed only a couple of months earlier, I interpreted the tears as being the result of sadness at seeing her mother’s vehicle go out of her possession.  Deeply touched by her tears, I told her that if it was too difficult for her, I would truly understand, and still ever appreciate the heart…anything so she would not be torn. 

But that was not the case whatsoever.  The tender soul explained that she was thinking how happy her parents would be if they knew their vehicle had been a blessing to another believer.  She was overjoyed at being able to give such a tremendous gift. What a beautiful outlook and thought!  It greatly moved me.  But even more heartwarming was how they had prayed about the matter, and their immediate obedience to Jesus! It was humbling and a sheer delight at the same time.  How great is our God!

God tests our faith.  I had planted the coin without hesitation, despite how foolish and crazy it sounded, but I never expected a vehicle.  However, the words of the man of God are true.  The Lord is well aware of all that we have need of, but it is the condition of the heart that He works with.  He purges and refines us so that we will shine forth like pure gold.  This is prosperity at its finest – spiritual prosperity.

Because you say, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and know not that you are wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked: I counsel you to buy of Me gold tried in the fire, that you may be rich; and white raiment, that you may be clothed, and that the shame of your nakedness do not appear; and anoint your eyes with eyesalve, that you may see.  [Rev 3:17, 18]

And I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on My name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is My people: and they shall say, The Lord is my God.  [Zech 13:9]

When I wrote out the testimony of my life, the title was given to me by the Lord. It is “First the Inside of the Cup”.  Our Creator is more concerned with the inside of our bodies, the heart, the spirit man that each of us have, the part of us that is born-again when we believe the gospel of Christ Jesus and receive Him as Lord and Saviour.  The title had been inspired by scripture that the Lord had led me to when He instructed me to write out my testimony.

Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you make clean the outside of the cup and of the platter, but within they are full extortion and excess.  You blind Pharisee, cleanse first that which is within the cup and platter, that the outside of them may be clean also.  [Mat 23:25, 26]

Whole Lotta Shaking Goin’ On


I do believe God’s word is Spirit and life [Jn 6:63] and truth! [Jn 14:6]  I do believe God’s word is timeless, that it speaks to us today, corporately and individually (that’s what SPIRIT and life and truth altogether accomplishes – the LIVING WORD of GOD).  

The righteous cry, and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. [Ps 34:17]

It is a fact that there was much turbulence physically for me. I know full well that others have been going through excruciating physical (body) circumstances.  Others have or still are dealing with crushing matters of the soul (mind, emotions, feelings, doubts, etc), whilst others are struggling in the matters of the spirit (heart). 

Countless people are tormented, feeling condemned because of struggles with sins, battles with demons, generational curses (through blood lines; all forms of witchcraft, freemasonry, dark occult), false prophets and teachers, a corrupted, plagued world, all of which play a part in the suffering that mankind, from young to old, is up against in these last of days.

With great hope and faith, His intervention is eagerly anticipated and awaited.
I understand that the Lord had spoken to me about miracles taking place, but also the fact that great trouble was fast approaching. He again warned of the counterfeiter Satan who would also manifest “signs and wonders”, through the false prophets that are in the world. 

It was shared on December 31, 2016 about part of what the Lord had impressed upon me (as well as others) part of what could be expected in 2017.  Then, on January 5, 2017, I shared the message given to me. In part, the message:

“It is no game; it is war! I am positioning My people. Many are experiencing or are about to experience miracles (deliverance, healing, restoration), fulfillment of long-awaited prayers, dreams and visions, that which was once thought impossible becoming reality.”

“Yea, but beware, for Satan and his evil cohorts are also manifesting ‘miracles’ and the ‘impossible’.  This will increase, as it is written. The counterfeiter has always been a master of illusion, with flatteries and smooth speech and dark sayings, he plants seeds of doubt in a whirlwind of confusion.”

[End excerpt]

Yet, through Christ Jesus and by His Spirit, we will discern the difference between that which is of God and that which is of the adversary, Satan. I do not believe that our past experience, knowledge or wisdom will help us discern.
According to our Messiah Jesus, He forewarned that [deception] would be so grand that if it were possible, even the elect [His people] would be deceived [Matthew 24]. Such is the craftiness and cunning of Satan and his cohorts, the enemies of the cross of Christ.

Who in the days of His flesh, when He offered up both prayers and supplications with loud crying and tears unto Him that was able to save Him from death, and He was heard in that He feared (holiness, devotion); Though He were a Son, yet learned He obedience by the things which He suffered.  [Heb 5:7, 8]  

Yet, even now miracles are taking place that can only be attributed to God. These have been going on for some time, but mostly kept from vast public knowledge. However, in the recent past years (decade or so?), miracles have been taking place that are so spectacular and absolutely validated that even mainstream media has had to report on the events due to the widespread positive talk of the people.

Even critics and skeptics, who set out to disprove such reports, have themselves been healed or have witnessed undeniable miracles firsthand, thereby having their mouths stopped, except to admit that indeed, faith and healings are real. 

Even certain stiff-necked, obstinate doctors have had to admit that although there are some miracles that can be explained medically (sigh – such is man that LOGIC must define everything), they are hard-pressed to admit that miracles have taken place that defy logic and must have required faith in God.

But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.  [Heb 11: 6]

Our Lord has stated 2017 will see many blessings and miracles, but we are to keep aware that great troubles will also be seen. The Lord God keeps everything in balance and perspective when we cleave to Him. He is ever-faithful and whitewashes nothing. He has always given fair warnings, convictions and exhortations.

Prisoners of Hope


Satan presents all manner of temptations and will do all it takes to convince a person to choose to swallow his lies.  But those whose hope is in the Lord will not be ashamed.

Turn you to the stronghold, you prisoners of hope: even today do I declare that I will render double unto you.  [Zech 9:12]

The Silversmith is a short 2 minute video that packs a punch that will knock the wind out of you as you come to understand the beauty and fullness of God’s word. In an article last year, I had mentioned how a silversmith knows that silver is purified.

The story goes that two women came across a scripture in Malachi:

But who may abide the day of His coming? and who shall stand when He appears? For He is like a refiner’s fire, and like fullers’ soap: And He shall sit as a refiner and purifier of silver: and He shall purify the sons of Levi, and purge them as gold and silver, that they may offer unto the Lord an offering in righteousness.  [Mal 3:2, 3]

Now only the part that is emboldened was used in the video. One woman decided to go to a silversmith. She asked questions, two of which make the story precious.  One question she asked was if he had to sit by the fire the whole time the silver is being refined.  He replied yes, but further stated that not only does he have to hold the silver, he has to make sure that he removes it from the flames at the precise and exact time, or it will be destroyed.

She pondered his words, then asked how he knew when the silver was completely refined.  He smiled and said it was when he could see his image in the silver.

But He knows the way that I take: when He has tried me, I shall come forth as gold. [Job 23:10]

For My name’s sake will I deferMine anger, and for praise will I refrain for you, that I cut you not off.  Behold, I have refined you, but not with silver; I have chosen you in the furnace of affliction[Is 48:10]     
          
Two minute video called The Silversmith

“Solomon taught his son to anticipate the LORD would prove, test and purify the hearts of His people by trials that test the heart, purify the motive and humble the spirit.”  Dr. Travis Smith (pastor) Source: Heart of a Shepherd

Marlene Kleepes had cerebral palsy, but she was also plagued with very severe spasms that were so violent that her attendants sometimes suffered broken bones trying to restrain her.  Marlene had been sent to the Mayo Clinic to get help and improvement, but her inheritance ran out.  She was to be sent to a nursing home.  She cried out to God and He gave her a vision of herself healed. 

She saw a certain “church” “jump off the page” and the pastor was called.
When he arrived, Marlene said he was the man in her vision who had prayed for her.  So the pastor took her to his church. He was not sure how to pray for healing, but he did and the congregation stood in agreement with him. 

After he prayed, he asked her if she wanted to stand on faith”.  Marlene did. With the pastor and another man lifting her up and supporting her, she took steps. At first, her knees and feet were pointed inward, but each step she took, they began to straighten out until she was walking normally. 

Within minutes, she was literally running around the church. Afterwards she returned to the Mayo clinic, where they recorded that they saw her walking for the first time.  Marlene was discharged.  

She returned some weeks later to the Mayo Clinic.  It is confirmed via medical records that all abnormalities (from cerebral palsy) are gone, and even Marlene’s eyesight is healed.  She no longer needs spectacles to see.  Marlene Kleeps is healed of cerebral palsy and enjoys a normal life to this day.  Today she preaches!

Another documented miracle!  Delia Knox, who was crippled (paralyzed) for 23 years after being hit by a drunk driver was healed.  


Behold you among the heathen, and regard, and wonder marvelously: for I will work a work in your days, which you will not believe, though it be told you.  [Habakkuk 1:5]

Would you believe it when I tell you that my kettle quit on me, only seven months after buying it?  How about if I told you that the new thongs (sandals) that I was wearing last week broke after having only worn them for a month?  I went into the bank and the sandal was repaired with packing tape until I could get home.  They had to be “scrapped”. 


Haha!  I kid you not! If I could make this stuff up, I would be in high demand in Hollywood by producers looking for good scripts. Satan will continuously accuse us, even making every negative thing that happens as though it were our fault. He is the father of lies. Life goes on…but God is for me, for us who trust and wait on Him!   

What shall we then say to these things?  If God be for us, who can be against us?  [Rom 8:31]

for His glory

Bonita                 dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com





Special Note:  For the past few weeks, several countries are upon my heart.  Our brethren are scattered around the world and in their own trials and tribulations.  They are part of the body of believers.  

We do well to keep them in prayer.  Like us, they are under the rule of the government of their country, and are not responsible for trespasses leaders make against other nations and their people.  Sadly, we tend to judge an entire nation of people by the actions of their leaders. 

The Lord has His people praying for their own nation, as well as other nations globally.  He often rotates the countries He places upon hearts to pray for.  There are approximately 196 countries in the world and God’s people are in them.  He cares for every single child of us within each nation, and for every lost soul. 

The Lord is not slack as some men count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.  
[2 Pet 3:9]

Russia has been strong upon my heart, as has Germany (with Belgium noted) and the UK.  Other countries (in alphabetic order) that I feel led to pray for at this time are: 

Africa, America, Australia, Britain/England (all of UK), Bulgaria, Canada (BC noted due to fires, earthquakes), China, Croatia, Finland, France, Iceland, India, Israel, Japan

Mexico, Norway, South America (Brazil, Venezuela, Ecuador, Peru, Puerto Rico), North Pacific, North and South Korea, Pakistan, Philippines, Saudi Arabia


Please join me in praying for any place that the Lord may put on your heart.  From time to time, I will post other countries that come heavy upon me to pray for. 196 countries – every one of them in need of prayer as much as our own country’s people need prayer.  

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

3_Rise Up_When God Spoke

It is recommended that you read the first two entries of this article in order to receive the full message. The links are below. - BP



Spirit of Heaviness - Depression

During those long four months of pain and serious occurrences, I had also fought depression. It covered me like a heavy blanket, so heavy at times that I thought the weight of it would crush me.  Combine that with pain, confusion, sleep deprivation, fear (yes, at times I was afraid, not knowing or understanding at the time what was happening or why), along with everything else that was going on at the time.

I was trying to overcome what I believed to be a flaw in my character, as well as any negative attitude that cropped up, yet the depression did not lift.  There were days that I was not interested in reading the Bible, times I certainly did not praise or give thanks, times that no worship went up and days when my prayers seemed to be nothing but selfish, as I pleaded for the pain to end, or for the Lord to take me home. 

I will not repeat it all again, but after months of fighting the depression, as well as the physical pain and all else, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something. It was over a decade ago, a couple of years after I finally surrendered and committed to the Lord (2005) that He taught me something. I wrote about it back in 2008 or 2009, and have spoken about it on Blogtalk radio.  The wisdom was gleaned from Isaiah 61 verse 3.

To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He might be glorified.

There are times that the depression that falls upon us is a SPIRIT, a spirit of heaviness, a spirit that will slowly squeeze, suffocate and crush the (spiritual) life out of its prey, unless it is cut off at the head (source).  Satan will do all he can to discourage us, to see us downtrodden. The Holy Spirit caused me to pay close attention to the words that I have emboldened in the above verse.  That is when He taught me that not all depression comes from genetics, shortcomings in character or personality or sin. 

There are other factors that can bring about depression which is not a spirit.  Chemical imbalances, substance abuse, sleep deprivation, stress, grieving loss due to death, divorce or other such tragedies can all affect our physical and mental state, causing depression. However, more often than not, depression relates to spiritual matters. 

I digress, as this is a whole other topic and not one I am going to delve into here.   We know that both wisdom and understanding came from the Lord when we study His Word.  We may get both fully at any given time, or the Lord may show us in part and teach us step by step along the way.  He knows what is best for each of us individually.

My son, despise not the chastening of the Lord; neither be weary of His correction: For whom the Lord loves He corrects; even as a father the son in whom he delights. Happy is the man that finds wisdom, and the man that gets understanding. [Prov 3:11-13]

There is no way we can walk the walk of faith if we do not have God’s precious and Holy Spirit dwelling within us.  Jesus promised He would send the “Comforter” and He has. We need the blessed Word of God for faith to grow. We need the Holy Spirit in every area, especially when it comes to discerning.  We cannot even worship unless we worship Him in Spirit and in truth.  Jesus knew that once He departed we would need help. Yes, God is perfect in all He does.
I will say that when a spirit of heaviness oppresses us, we are told in Isaiah 61 vs 3 to put on a garment of praise.  Evil spirits know the word of God, so do not be surprised if you do not “feel” like praising when the oppression comes.  We learn as we grow, but once we learn a thing, we must then discipline ourselves to put into practice that which we have been taught.  We learn that true worshippers worship the Father in spirit and in truth. The Lord looks for such people. [Jn 4:23]

Seek God if you are suffering from depression.  Allow His Holy Spirit to lead you into all truth.  For me the source of the depression was three-fold, physical (strong opiates, pain), emotional and spiritual (fears, lack of trust in God etc). 

Again, it is not my intent to go deeper into the topic here. It was but one of the many spiritual struggles I had to fight during that time period, and it was not the first time I had wrestled with depression or a spirit of heaviness.  I have spoken of this off and on since 2008 or so; however, I will add this before I move on.

There are times that we are in such clutches of despair (which depression is) that we cannot come out of it without help.  Yes, we depend on God in such times and He helps us through His Holy Spirit and His Word, but He is the one who designed us to work together. We need our brothers and sisters in Christ to pray for us.  We may need counseling.  God does not expect us to go through these battles alone, yet typically, the depressed person withdraws and does not want to fellowship.

We have need of one another, which is why we are called the “Body” of Christ.  Reaching out is nothing at all to be ashamed of, even if the devil says otherwise.  Cry out to God and He will deliver you. [Ps 120:1; Joel 2:32; Is 65:24]  We all will face difficult times and situations where we cannot go it alone.  Read the Word, pray, praise; of course, but please do not hesitate to reach out for counseling and help if need be.  

I do not pretend to have all the answers because I too am learning. Long before I was born, and even since being born-again, preachers and teachers have expounded on these things. My heart is to do my part and share my experiences and lessons with the greatest desire to help others.

When God Spoke
Remember when I said that throughout this time period God was mostly silent, but that He did give me a word or short messages randomly?  It is so. It started with two words that profoundly struck me, two words that resonated deep within my spirit that I could not shake.  In March, my new friend who was in hospice dying of cancer spoke of a “new beginning”. 

I had pondered her words many times since she said them when I was alone.  Deep within, it was apparent to me that the Lord was indeed saying that it was a time of a new beginning! The old things must pass away before the new (beginning) can come.

Behold, the former things are come to pass, and new things do I declare: before they spring forth I tell you of them. [Is 42:9]

It was also in early March the first time that the Lord had first put Isaiah chapter 40 so boldly before my eyes.  I know the words comforted me, but it was not long before I realized that the Lord wanted me to comfort His people.  In the third verse, the word prepare was noticed and acknowledged, but I put it on the back burner.

I understood that we were entering into a season, an appointed time for change, and that we were to prepare.  Full understanding had not yet come to me; I only saw in part.  The words “healing” and “restore” kept coming to mind, as well as “suddenlies” and “unexpectedly”.

But this is a people robbed and spoiled; they are all of them snared in holes, and they are hid in prison houses: they are for a prey, and none delivers; for a spoil, and none saith, Restore[Is 41:22]
A new start…a new beginning!  Trust Him with your life…He will do it!  I remembered the scripture: Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there anything too hard for me? [Jer 32:27]

The Lord saw the warring going on between my carnal nature and my spirit man. It was early in the month of May that I penned this message, but kept it private until led to release it. Below is the message.

Rise up! Rise up higher!! The army of the Lion must rise up!

Rise up! Don’t you dare give up! Sense in your spirit – time…time…it’s time!  The wait is over; change begins in the spiritual and the natural. The righteous anger of the Father has come to the forefront.  His longsuffering is undeniable. He has risen from His throne and said, “Enough is enough!”

The armies of God are rising up to go forward into battles. Deep within my spirit, I heard:

When it seems like Satan and his foul, unclean spirits are winning, wait and see…when it seems that all you have believed is not going to come to pass; wait!  It is now upon you. This is the appointed hour: this is the season.  Rise up higher warrior for such a time as this.

When it looks like it is over and that Satan has won – watch – a transition is taking place!  I AM in control.  My will is being done.  Let things unfold, no matter how they appear to be. Trust Me – trust Me with your life. You have not given up and you shall not. 

All I promised is upon you.  Watch how I change everything.  I have everything under control. It is now time for Me to restore.
This is the season – this is the time. Now it shall spring forth.  You have been humbled, but now I shall lift you up and you shall hear the sounds of great VICTORY

But thanks be to God which gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.  [1Cor 15:57]

VICTORY!   (End of message)

It was and is a prophetic word.  It can speak of now and/or it can speak of that which is to come.  And we know that the spirit of prophecy is the testimony of Jesus Christ.  [Rev 19:10]  Other messages came to me over the following months, but I was not led to release them to the public yet.  Even if I was going to be the last runner in the relay race, I have learned that I must wait until the Lord sends me forth to run with any message.

When I was writing more of this article back in May, over two months had passed since the Lord had first place Isaiah 40 so impressively before my eyes. He would do so two more times in March, with my Bible opening up at precisely the beginning of the chapter, without any dog-eared pages or bookmarks. There was no doubt that Jesus was making sure I did not forget.
The word “transition” had also been placed upon my heart. The word was shared with a close friend and sister in Christ in the States who had listened to my woes when I was going through the long trial of physical pain. It was then that I had written the following, which was intended for the “comfort My people” article. Oh, and by the way, THIS is now that article.

I had written:
This month (May 2017), a newsletter had been forwarded to me penned by a brother in Christ named Augusto Perez of The Appearance Ministries. He had written that he had understood in his spirit that a ‘shift’ had taken place. Is transition and shift taking place hand in hand?  One line that the brother wrote still leaves me in awe and will be kept in prayer for clarity.

Miracles which lead to a Shift in the Timeline can only be triggered by the vehicle of faith. Augusto Perez

It never ceases to amaze me how the Lord God orchestrates everything, bringing it all together harmoniously.   A few weeks ago (May 22, 2017), when I was sitting in my truck waiting for a business to open its doors, the Holy Spirit put a message in my heart: “Enough is enough! Get angry, but go into battle, being calm and confident, for I am with you as I was with Moses.”

All glory to Jesus/Yeshua.  I quickly scribbled the words on a loose piece of paper.  As I was pondering the message that I had written down, I looked up the street and saw a sign that I thought said “God’s time”.  I quickly added that to my note. How I rejoice when the Holy Spirit speaks.

However, when I looked at the sign again, I saw that it actually said “Gold’n Time”. Well, even if my eyes had played a trick on me, it was superbly timed and I accepted that the Lord allowed it in order to alert me to prepare to battle the enemy, knowing it is “God’s (His) Time”, and that He was with me.

And, behold, I am with you, and will keep you in all places where you go, and will bring you again into this land; for I will not leave you, until I have done that which I have spoken to you of.  [Gen 28:15]

So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return unto Me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. [Is 55:11]

I will end this portion of writing with a message that the Holy Spirit led me to when I was going through files on my external hard drive. As I scrolled through the file names, one in particular caught my eye.  It was called, He is Faithful – Obedience is Key to Promise.  It was written in February 2012, so it is unfortunately no longer posted on the blog.  It was one of the files that had not been corrupted as so many of my other files had been.

Only excerpts that jumped out at me in the prophetic word are going to be posted. When you see a bullet point, it means that it is an excerpt that has been pulled out of the original message.

He is Faithful – Obedience is Key to Promise
February 2012

Arise Bride of Christ!  Arise sons of God, My people, for all is in My hands.  Do not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust Me, trust Me, trust Me, for I AM your Father, your Creator.  Peace, be still.  Do not be afraid.  Rest in Me for I draw you close to My bosom.

Believe Me when you cannot see a way out, for you walk by faith and not by sight. [2Cor 5:7]

Let patience have its perfect way.  Have you considered that I find you worthy to go through all that you are going through? 

*      My people must choose to abandon sin; without excuse, without compromise.  The adversary continues in his agenda, to blindside My people, to cause them to stumble and fall into sin.  This strategy is to keep you far from Me upon the broad highway.  Confusion is his mastery.  

Yea, although I allow him to prove (test) you for a season, I bid you to endure.  As you trust in Me, it is I who shall draw a line of confusion around all enemies of the cross and their way shall be paved with stones of emptiness.  It shall be as nothing and you will not turn aside to the right or the left, as you cleave to Me.

My glory shall cover your armor and the brilliance of it shall blind the enemies of the cross and send them into confusion, for you are more than conquerors through My Christ, who loves you.  

My holy angels go forth at My command.  As you cry out for discernment and walk in My commandments, My Spirit shall cause your eyes to see all illusions, all grandeur of the adversary, all deceptions.  

The flesh of your ears and heart shall be circumcised, so that you will hear and receive truth, if you do not resist My Spirit.  Do not be as the Pharisees.  I shall cut away all excess flesh so that your heart will be clean and pure, yet you must not resist.  Before his own people stoned him, Stephen cried out:

Ye stiffnecked and uncircumcised in heart and ears, ye do always resist the Holy Ghost: as your fathers did, so do ye. [Acts 7:51]

*         This hardship has been allowed to bring you to your cross.  This call to holiness and obedience is absolute.  Shall the love of fleshly passions (habits) outshine your love for Me?  My LOVE is the foundation of your faith. Be rooted in My love, for then shall you go forth boldly.

I allow Satan to bring you to your cross.  Embrace the cross, knowing that as you bow before Me in obedience, whatever you ask of Me in My Son’s name, that shall I do, for then you shall know My will and not ask amiss.

Come unto Me and abide, so that your joy may be full.  Hardships, trials and tribulation shall be in this life, yet in abiding in Me, you shall know what to do.  I shall strengthen you to obey, if that is your earnest desire.  Will you obey Me? 

Will you follow My lead?  Am I truly your first love?  Do you trust Me in all things?  Do you love others as you love yourself?  Walk in love; walk in holiness; walk in obedienceWait upon Me.  Walk in faith, for without faith it is impossible to please Me.  [Heb 11:6]   
                                                
(So beloved brethren, I encourage you to embrace the cross. Embrace the trials and the tests, and give God the glory. It is Jesus/Yeshua who intercedes on our behalf, praying that our faith not fail us.  We can trust Him.  Endure this hardship, brave one, brethren of mine… the victory is nigh us! – BP)

O you afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay your foundations with sapphires. And I will make your windows of agates, and your gates of carbuncles, and all your borders of pleasant stones. [Is 54:11, 12]

Step Out in Faith
Watch and see what I shall do, as you step out in faith, overcoming all flesh, a complete dying to self.  You have longed to do the greater works in the miracles that are coming, running parallel to great tribulation upon all nations.  There is a cost.  

You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You: because he trusted in You.  [Is 26:3].  

*      God’s Remnant Armies

I AM positioning My people; from the generals to the foot soldiers.  You have been through gruesome trials and testing.  Those who are to be generals and top commanders in My armies must be dependablesubmissive to their King and obedient [quick to follow commands].  Likewise, all other members, right down to (and including) the foot soldiers must be dependable, submissive and obedient.

*       This is how good armies operate.  This is how a body of believers must function.  The Body of My Christ (Y'shua/Jesus) is composed of members from generals to foot soldiers.  Are all the hands, or are all the feet?  Are all the eyes, or are all the ears?  Every part is crucial and necessary to function as a whole and healthy body.  

 (End of Excerpts)

The next prophetic word is from April last year (2016), which the Holy Spirit led me to.  Out of the hundreds of articles and prophetic messages given, I see it as no coincidence when I just “happen” to open a file that speaks directly to the situation or trial that one may be experiencing. Below is the message.

Time to Do What You Delay in Doing

When all around you seems chaos, think hard upon times where I helped you in the past.  Did you not feel like I had left you?  Did confusion try to overpower you?  Did you not feel then that it was more than you could bear?

What did you do?  You pressed in, you sought Me and you found Me.  I strengthened you to endure.  I directed you to praise Me for the spirit of heaviness.  I directed you to pray for your enemies and to pray without ceasing.  I directed you to My word to strengthen you and to feed you.  I comforted you.

This is what you must remember, for I foretold it.  The enemy, the accuser of the brethren (Satan the adversary) has come before Me to accuse those who call themselves by My name.  He cannot enter into the holy of holies; yet there is a heaven above the earth that he roams back and forth about, seeking whom he may devour and upon the earth he walks about, seeking, ever-seeking.

Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about, seeking whom he may devour.  [1Pet 5:8]

He will accuse My people, saying:

'They love you and are loyal because you bless them...allow me to touch their lives.  Let us see if they love you when it's all taken away. Let us see if they trust you or have faith.  Let me interfere in their friendships and steal from that friendship.  Let me bring division in amongst them.  Let's see if they will still pray for each other.'

'Let me seduce their senses and stimulate their physical desires.  I know just the ones to put upon their path.  Let me interfere in their marriages, in their intimate relationships, in their trusted comrades.

If they don't run to you, they will simply thank you as they succumb to my temptations, not knowing they are deceived. Let's see if they really do cry out to you first.  Let us just see if their heart is really with and for you, or if they just honor you with their lips!

Let me put them to the harder tests; let me take and test them severely in every arena.’

(Note* - This is the prideful and arrogant attitude Satan operates in, and similarly nearly echo Satan’s very words concerning Job. - BP)

Now I say to you, you do well to remember this:

I allow the tests, the trying of your faith. I allow the trials and tribulations.  Did I not warn you of the fire and the water?  Did I not say that you will not be burned, nor will the waters overwhelm you?  Beware, least you are filled with pride, or anger or bitterness.  Fear not. Remember that I am with you. 

Remember, for you know that all things work together for good to those who love Me and are the called, according to My purpose. [Rom 8:28] I am He that will purge and purify you.

Those who die to self will not give into temptation.  Those who stay humble and seek My wisdom and direction will not be seduced or fall into pride about the good works they are doing, or allow division amongst those whom have stood by them in dark days, those whom I have ordained to be – those who are Mine. 

Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Who has saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began,  [Eph 2:9; 2 Tim1:9]

I have orchestrated your life, as you surrendered to Me.  You do well to remember that I AM Sovereign.  Do not go off with your own plans and ideas. Come to Me and I shall direct you and guide you by My Spirit.

My people, be guarded as you take your steps.  Wait upon Me to be sure it is time to step or if you should take a step at all.  Wait upon Me to see if it is time for you to move out or to stand your ground.  Yea, deep within you will know, for I am He who puts within you the wisdom, when you seek truth.  You must wait patiently.

Wait upon My timing, but do not run ahead.  More importantly, do not lag behind, for you know the darkness and you see the time.  In your desire to do My will, be sure that you are not going on to accomplish your own will.

Your faith is being sifted as wheat, just as Peter.  I forewarned you.  You may feel pain, anger, confusion, frustration, a desire to quit, a pull for change, a restlessness - or you may feel justified, righteous – experiencing thoughts, feelings and emotions of all kinds. 

Beware of flesh. Beware of the adversary, the counterfeiter. He will try to send you off in another direction, to the right or to the left.   Do not surrender to the negative, yea, but neither be swallowed up in pride and self-righteousness.  Be meek, be humble before Me. Surrender your life; lay it down and truly die to self.  

Forgive and you shall be forgiven. Be merciful and you shall obtain mercy. Be obedient and you shall reap your reward in due season.

With great love, I correct.
In mercy, I discipline.
Lay it all down now.  

Quit saying, I'm not perfect. 
Quit saying, I'm struggling.
Quit saying, I can't right now because...
Quit finding excuses and reasons.

Trust in your Lord with all your heart and lean not to you own understanding.  In all your ways acknowledge Me and I shall direct your steps. [Prov 3:5, 6]

How can I direct your steps if you will not obey or justify your reasons to delay? What of habitual sin?  Shall I let you go on in your ways, if I did not allow the Israelites, in days of old, to go on in their ways?  Have I not shown you mercy? 

Have I not been longsuffering?  I will break the chains of bondage when you cry out to Me and trust in Me. Are you so proud that you think every thought is of Me, or are you humble enough to seek Me in prayer and ask Me?

Be careful and guard yourself against any sin of presumption. Will you smash all of your idols and be done with idolatry? Selah  I AM the same yesterday, today and forever. I shall have no other gods before Me.

Focus on My Son, Y'shua (Jesus) and the end result - victory.  Pick up your cross, My disciple - death is not forever.  There is a resurrection that comes after death.  Be found WORTHY of Me. You say you trust Me and you do well, yet I ask you, ‘Can I trust you?’

I am working, not you.  Do not look at what you are doing.  Look at what I have done and shall do, when you truly die to self.  Give thanks.  It is almost time! Do you not know and do you not say... it shall come suddenly?  So shall My Son come again suddenly…as a thief in the night.  Only I know the day or the hour. Shall you miss your visitation?

My people will be needed by others in the days that are fast approaching - great destruction, death, tribulation such has never been seen before. Yea, great sorrow has begun - tribulation immeasurable awaits at the door. Prepare your hearts; prepare your minds. Repent of all that is not of Me; quickly come. Rend your heart and not your garments. 

If My people, which are called by My name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin, and heal their land.

Now Mine eyes shall be open, and Mine ears attent unto the prayer that is made in this place.  For now have I chosen and sanctified this house, that My name may be there forever: and Mine eyes and Mine heart shall be there perpetually. [1Chro 7:14-16]

Yea, so it shall be that I come to you when least expected.  Do not be caught off-guard.  Do not delay any longer nor continue on with excuses or reasons.  Why do you fight against that which I have ordained?

You will not find perfection in the world. To be perfect in My Son is to be complete in Him, mature in heart and whole. Yet, My work continues in My people, to circumcise the heart (of excess flesh) and to make you pure in heart (in intent and motive).

Babylon shall fall and the harlot will fall with it.  Come out from amongst them.  You are not their Savior; My Son Jesus (Y'shua) is the Savior.  (Again, I say) Do not look at what you are doing; look at what I am doing and shall do, when you truly die to self.  

I speak once, yea twice, but man perceives it not. [Job 33:14] 

Do not be so quick to cast off that which I have ordained because it is not how you thought it might be. Wait upon Me.

Press through and onward.  It is almost time for you to see it in the natural.  Have joy in your sorrowing.  Trust Me in the fire and water, for I will bring you through.   Yea, I am with thee.  

Great tribulation for the world soon begins; it has begun, for it begins slowly and then shall build momentum.  Lay down your life now, for you have asked that you be considered worthy to escape that which is coming and to know what I would have you to do. 

That is why you have been told to learn to hear My voice, not the voice of flesh or the voice of the adversary, who is a counterfeiter, father of lies, a murderer.

My grace is with you.
There is hope in your despair.
Confusion is not of Me.

Have faith to do (Die to self; humble yourself and in due time, I shall lift you up).
Have faith to move (In love, in forgiveness, in patience and understanding, in mercy and grace).

Love Me enough to obey.
Trust Me enough to do – and to wait on My timing.
Know that I am with you...

As you obey...
As you lay down your life...
As you trust in Me.

There are delays that I have allowed, even brought about, for purging, purifying, for disciplining (chastising), for molding and shaping, as the clay in the potter's hand, or as the sword in the hand of the blacksmith. 

Yet now I say to you, it is time to do what you delay in doing. Fear not. The delays have been necessary, to lay down the past gently. The enemy has tried to stop that which I have ordained, but you overcome him by the blood of the Lamb and the word of your testimony; and love not your life unto death. [Rev12:11]       Source: Time to Do

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