NOTE: - Some necessary editing was done early morning, Nov 9 + 12, 2022 BP
I give the Lord glory for all He is, and for giving strength to all of us who call upon Him humbly, admitting our weakness and NEED for Him, and His strength… Even when He gives us hard assignments, He goes ahead of us, yet stands with us, and is our rear guard as well. Bless the Lord for all He is! He is exalted on high!
Brethren, I pray that the Holy Spirit is in these
words, for the letter kills, but the Spirit makes alive [2Cor 3:6], and may our
King and Lord Jesus (Yeshua) be glorified. He is loved and highly
honoured.
As Led, Speak What You See
It has not only been yet another lengthy dark season in my life, but it
is a literal dark season for the world, not only in the physical realm but also
in the spiritual. That is a no-brainer. It takes no discernment to see this.
Evil struts around globally with pride. Ah, but keep in mind, I began this writing
awhile back. Let me explain.
Witches, Illuminati, Occult and the One World Plan
The intent was to forewarn brethren not to be
surprised if things intensify coming against you. (Unfortunately, this part is now
behind schedule).
It is a time of year that witchcraft glorifies Lucifer
(to Luciferians, he is a very real spiritual being; beliefs vary among
Satanists, but witchcraft is rampant [unbridled] and heavy these days).
Always try to keep in mind, and yes, it is challenging amidst the confused noises of battle, that Jesus IS the Lord of the battle. It is scriptural, and He stands by what He says.
Nevertheless, despite the racket, if you are a born-again, Holy Spirit filled child
of God through Jesus, keep in mind that “greater is He that is in me [you]
than he that is in the world.” [1Jn 4:4]
Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors
through Him [Jesus/Yeshua] that loved us. [Rom 8:37]
My armour is on. Let me help you. Gird up, my brother
[get ready to do; prepare for action]. Stand strong, my sister [we’ve
got each other’s back, by the grace of God].
Witches, those practicing the dark side of the occult,
the Illuminati, and the One World plan has been plotted, planned and pieced
together since the Garden, when God revealed His plan for salvation.
Satan was told that there would come one who would wound his head, and the serpent (that ancient serpent, Satan) would bruise His heel (this spoke of Messiah).
It is He (Jesus/Yeshua) who gave us
[those who abide in Him, and He in us] power [authority] to tread
on [spiritual] serpents and scorpions. [Lk10:19]
I discovered the messages of a man I respect through the ministry of a woman I respect. I wish I had more time to get to more of her work, but she is a woman who loves and honours God. She is careful to stick to sound doctrine and truth.
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| Jan Markell and Friends Olive Tree Ministries |
I honour brethren in the Lord who honour our King, Lord, Saviour and Redeemer. You have heard me mention her before on this blog, if you have read enough of my articles. Her name is Jan Markell of Olive Tree Ministries.
She honours and invites many fine brethren, men and
women of God to talk sessions, conferences etc. One such person is Amir
Tsarfati, a married man of God, and an Israeli, born in Jerusalem. He served in
the IDF (Israel Defense Forces), up to rank of major, and now serves in
the army of God, through Yeshua (our Jesus).
I only became aware of them a few years back. Praise God. It is true we learn from each other, but I believe in
giving credit where credit is do, and not ‘steal the words’ of others, like
Jeremiah rebukes some of the prophets of his day of doing. [Jer 23:30]
They still do it today, and believe me, it is not a
form of flattery; it is deception, especially taking from the unknown to pump
up themselves, yet ‘claiming’ to glorify the Lord. When a person pours hours of
endless prayer, tears, research and hard work into their work and then watch
someone else take it, it stings.
There are times we must pray when no one will know but
the Lord. He will know how hard it is, the desire ‘not’ to do so, yet the
humility required to obey a good and holy God. Jesus accomplished more than we
really know, but one day we will.
To get back on track with the dark seasonal time we
just passed through, about three years ago, Amir posted a YouTube video that
called: The Illuminati
and the One World Government video – Behold Israel with Amir Tsarfati
The above subtitle for this section was Inspired by the title of his video. I do not
know Jan Markell, Amir Tsarfati, Jack Hibbs, or any of Jan’s team, but we can
respect and honour our brethren just the same.
Ever Pointing to Jesus
For 15 years at least, I have been led of the Holy
Spirit to remind you that this battle is not ours but the Lord’s. Jesus had to
keep reminding me of that very point over those same years – I needed reminding;
I needed the reassurance. We all do.
Look to the cross of Messiah Jesus (precious Yeshua),
for all He accomplished with His crucifixion, death, burial, and resurrection.
All glory is His.
I present the meat of scriptures, not just the milk.
It helps me get it down on the tablets of my heart as well. It is our milk, our
meat. Christ is living Water and the Bread of life.
Always Jesus led me to speak of sin and consequences,
confession, repentance, and always, hope. In judgment, He does remember mercy,
unlike us. In the days of the ancient prophets, Jesus/Yeshua had not yet been
born.
It is what Jesus did for all of mankind that makes the
difference, but some of today’s prophets sound forth strong judgment
with no room to repent; no hope in Jesus.
And if it is an opposing politician against this man
Trump, the people like to have it so. We need to be careful that we do not make
an idol out of anyone or thing. I wonder if some people realize that is what
they are doing.
Would God call someone His ‘son’, if that person is
not a born-again, Spirit-filled believer? And if a person is born-again and
Spirit-filled, would they avoid speaking of the very one they owe their life
to?
Would they avoid speaking of the walk with Christ? If
so, why so? Because more than once, Trump has avoided verbalizing commitment or
mentioning any walk with Jesus. These are simply questions that have gone
through a thought process, nothing more.
I am not American, so I do not see the political arena
the same way. But Trudeau himself is a tyrant. As much as I do not like him, if
he DID turn to Christ for real, and turn from his hateful ways, I would
be glad he found the truth. All angels rejoice in the presence of Almighty God
over just ONE sinner who repents. [Lk 15:10]
Some ‘prophets’ wash their hands, and the sinful are condemned,
all in the name of the Lord – the same yesterday, today and forever. True. Ah,
but do we forget where Yeshua brought us from? Or is it that we do not consider
our sins to be as many as “those people”? Is it that our sins are not quite
as bad as theirs are?
Not sure if anyone noticed, but I dropped my stones. They
are back on the ground where they belong. Thank You Jesus for Your lessons,
even the harder ones.
Do we give other sinners time to repent like we had
time? Do we forget the great sacrifice Jesus made for all who believe, and turn
from their sin? He changed everything! We all desperately need a Saviour,
whether we are yet aware of it or not. We all must repent.
Yes, God is longsuffering [patient]. If He was not, I
would be doomed. But we can be foolish with our decision-making if we ‘forget’
that we are not even promised the rest of today to live on this earth, and we
wait until it is too late to turn to God through Jesus.
Something to consider…
Aiming for the Target
It had nothing to do with Covid-19; it had everything
to do with belonging to Jesus and being willing and obedient to all He asks of
us, both personally and in His Word. He is our Sovereign King, but also our
Lord.
Jesus (Yeshua) wants the hopeless to find hope;
the unlovable to know love (God is love), the discouraged to be
encouraged, and for faith to guard over the weary and heavy-burdened, until the
Lord Himself strengthens. Those things I’ve always written.
Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. [Rom
10:17] Faith is the substance [assurance, certainty] of things hoped for,
the evidence [proof] of things not seen. [Heb 11:1]
Jesus always told me to remember, and to help others
to remember: That now abide, these three, faith, hope and love, and the
greatest of these is love. [1Cor 13:13]
That is why the Holy Spirit told me that indeed, as
many have said (and even written books about): the battlefield is the
mind. But the beautiful Spirit went on to share that the “target”
is the heart because therein lies faith, hope and love – our will! I wrote
about it years ago when the Lord brought it to my attention. Glory…
I am a woman who has made many mistakes, and hopefully
less now. Even still, I am not infallible, just more cautious. With age,
lessons and experience comes wisdom.
If any of the consequences I paid for foolish sins and
choices will help another avoid making the same mistake, it is worth it to
spare their suffering. That is another reason why I have repeatedly stated over
the years, what Satan intended for evil, God intended for good.
Satan will do whatever it takes to destroy us, to steal
from us, to try and take us down. If he can, he will kill us. He will use loved
ones (family and friends), ESPECIALLY loved ones, or our brethren
in Christ to accomplish our destruction – yet, he cannot without God’s
permission.
I have repeated this multiple times over the years. It
is necessary. Not everyone remembers because we all read so much daily.
However, God knows, He keeps track.
The adversary and the enemies of our soul, enemies of the cross, and enemies of Christ [both spiritual and physical] will use neighbours, strangers to speak through, to shake our
confidence, to show disrespect, whatever his particular aim is to hurt us, at
any given time.
[NOTE: important sentence correction to clarify proper meaning - BP2022]
But again, that is only [1] IF he gets permission [2] IF he finds some open door.
I tend to keep in mind also the battle between the angel Gabriel and the archangel Michael, against the 'prince of Persia', which was one of the demonic 'princes' in Satan's hierarchy. Was permission asked? The original rebel never plays by the rules.
In that case, the evil 'prince' (principality-strongman) was ruffled. If a single feather gently floated earthbound, it belonged to the adversary (the original un-holy angel. Lucifer fell, and his title was changed to Satan (adversary/accuser).
There is a plethora of reasons why we should abide in Christ and He in us. This is certainly not the primary reason - an intimate relationship with our Creator is what Adam (and later Eve) enjoyed...until they gave in to temptation. We need His wisdom and guidance.
But God [the good news] -- always wins! Even Job, trapped in a dire situation understood God's sovereignty.
I know that You can do everything, And that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You. [Job 42:2] (Some translations say: "[...] And no purpose of Yours can be thwarted.) Scriptures such as these (and there are plenty) that confirm the Sovereignty and rule of Almighty God.
For me, there are times that an open door is my beloved son and little grandson. Who are you living with? The enemy is cruel; he will use our family or close friends. He will use innocent children or unsuspecting adults.
Remember when Jesus had to rebuke Peter? ["Get behind me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but of men." [Mat16:23]
Satan is a dirty player, a coldhearted, coldblooded murderer, thief and father
of lies. [Jn 8:44] He seeks to divide, to destroy, to steal and if he can, to kill.
Yet, can two walk together unless they are agreed?
[Amos 3:3]
Christians are constantly targeted by Satan; they always
have been, always will be. In the West, we have not known persecution like our
brothers and sisters who have suffered this in the East. That is going to change...signs are all around us. Laws are constantly being deleted, updated or newly introduced. [edited]
If someone says something we do not like, how many of us get
offended and call it persecution. If we question someone’s motives, or sense
something off and say we must test the spirit to see if it is of God, there are those (usually with hidden motives) who will rise up and
tell us not to judge, or accuse us of blasphemy.
One cannot discern without judgment. Could that ‘Do
not judge’ statement possibly mean not to judge hypocritically? For example, if
we say people are doing what they are doing for fame (popularity), or to
rub shoulders with those in power, or for the money, we have to be honest, at least
with ourselves.
And if we are guilty of the same thing? That would
be hypocritical judgment. Then, we would confess to Jesus, ask forgiveness, and ask Him to help change our heart (attitude, thinking). The Word will help us do this.
Or does it mean not to judge if they will be in heaven or hell, in other words, their salvation? Because the truth is that only God knows if they will sincerely repent before the day they die, or even if they are saved, but He is working out the flaws and kinks in them, as He is doing in us. We are 'all' being molded into Christ's image. That can be done quickly, or take time. That is God's call.
Listening to some prophecies, it is almost as if God has no mercy, no
compassion, and is eager to send them to the lake of fire. He is damning them to death with no room for repentance.
One might say, but those sinners have blood on their
hands. They are horribly wicked and evil. They deserve judgment, the lake of
fire and the second death. Well, so do I. I too fell short of the glory of God -- I have received undeserved mercy and unmerited grace, and deserved hell, deserved the lake of fire.
But are we not to pray for others, or would that put
certain prophecies at risk, if the wicked, evil, corrupt politicians repented,
and a prophecy or two would not come to pass, as God would forgive them (as
He graciously did us), and lift judgment?
Mm-hmm, it sounds like a “Jonah moment”! The
Holy Spirit helped me get this down in my heart. Why is the praying for others
done when there is ‘no risk’, but it looks good because…you are praying
for others?
Job prayed for his three friends who betrayed him and
misjudged him. Stephen asked the Lord to forgive those who were stoning him
because they did not know what they were doing.
Jesus, nailed upon a rugged, rough cross, with raw
flesh exposed after being torn open, barely able to breath for the fluid in His lungs, and the pressure
upon His organs, asked the Father to forgive those (who were crucifying Him)
because they did not know what they were doing.
We want to be forgiven, and our loved ones, and all
whom we care about, but not the globalists, the elite, the evil politicians? Chances are that they really are evil, precisely like the people in Noah's day, or as in the days of Lot. Luciferians believe that Jesus is the evil one, and that Christians have it backwards.
But what 'if' even one of them repented?
If Jesus gave the woman named Jezebel room to repent,
who called herself a prophetess (book of Revelation), a corrupt
seductress, murderous betrayer, fornicator, and one who ate things sacrificed to a god/goddess (idols), would He not give evil politicians or people with money and power a chance?
Yes. None will be able to stand before Adonai on judgment day with any valid accusation. Jesus gave 'that woman Jezebel' room to repent [Rev 2:21] would He not do so
with any of today’s corrupted, murderous, idolatrous, child-sacrificing, sex-trading
politicians who are totally rebellious to God?
Again, yes, He would, but we know the odds of them repenting are extremely low. After all, Lucifer, their 'god' allows, even condones, such atrocities! But we must train ourselves to control our feelings and emotions, which is not always easy to do ...especially if such atrocities involve a loved one.
Have you not seen how the Lord God has been exposing them (He spoke to me and others over 10 years ago that it was the ‘time of revealing’). He is trashing their reputations, exposing their lies and deceptions, taking all they have, to the point where they cry out for amnesty.
And if a wicked judge upon the earth grants such 'mercy' (likely due to bribery, or worse, some form of blackmail or threat), El Shaddai [Almighty God] will seal it when the death angel visits ALL of them. That is NOT cursing them.
Never, EVER, wish harm upon anyone - ever!
Please understand my meaning here. It is that the death angel visits all of us; we all die - the wages of sin (which we ALL are guilty of) is death. [Roman 6:23] What will be worse for them is not the death of their physical bodies, but the loss spiritually when they are thrown into the lake of fire! Selah
Catching popular opinion, noting what is in the news, getting tips from people who write in, or from the politicians ‘prayed’ over themselves, is not prophecy. Obsessed with death is not of God - God does not delight in the death of the wicked.
Say to them: As I live, says the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from his way and live. Turn, turn from your evil ways! For why should you die, O house of Israel? [Ezek 33:11]
The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some
men count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any
should perish, but that all should come to repentance. [2Pet
3:9]
Dark Shadows Dance
Samhain is pronounced ‘SAH-win’ [sexual and blood
ritual], and is an ancient Gaelic word (letter ‘m’ is silent, and the ‘h’
takes on a ‘w’ sound).
October 31[sexual and blood rituals] to November 5 [sexual ritual] is considered
Samhain and is acknowledged as a high (un)holy sabbat (four key [eight
sabbats yearly]) for pagans, Druids [Celtic origin], wiccans, witches,
soothsayers, mediums, charmers, necromancers, idolators.
The date 13 in October is chosen because it is 31
reversed. It all pertains to witchcraft/sorcery and rebellion. The first time
the number 13 is mentioned in the Bible is in the book of Genesis; it is linked
with rebellion.
Twelve years they served Chedorlaomer, and in the thirteenth
year, they rebelled. [Gen
14:4]
One of their expressions is: “As above, so below.” It
is a Luciferian chant, a way to worship their god; a rebellion against God (a
mockery); the meaning varies amongst different groups.
Spiritually, a child of God can sense when there is resistance against
them, even when the resistance is from those who call themselves children of
‘light’. The Word of God and the Holy Spirit help us to discern, but there is also a gift of discernment.
As much as I despise witchcraft/sorcery, it cannot be denied or ignored, and neither can spiritual warfare.
In doing so, we would also have to deny and ignore scriptures. Satan has his 'festivals' and ‘festivities’ as well. This time of year is rife with the occult, particularly with rituals
and [blood] ‘sacrifices’.
What is ironic is how things have a way of repeating themselves.
Off and on for several years now, for countless brethren, there have been
patterns occurring, most unwelcome ones.
If we go back in time, over the past several years, we
see them. Either these things were happening in our lives, or we heard about it
from other brethren. We see where many of the saints had hindrances,
interferences, obstacles and distractions get in the way of accomplishing other
important matters.
We also see patterns of onslaughts, just as battles
within any war. They are so intense, hitting every level (body, soul and
spirit) that even the strongest are crying out for relief at times. It is written in
the archives.
That can be the work of the world, the flesh, the enemy
– either one, both, or a combination of all three working together. I have a
hard time understanding why some suffer so much and others, not so much in
comparison.
Why? If both are striving to be willing and obedient, keeping a repentant heart, if both love the Lord with all their heart, mind and soul…why? At times I have wondered if it does not go back to generational.
It is not that we are held responsible or guilty for relatives now or in the past, but the difference between a generational bloodline that faithfully served the living God, versus a bloodline that was consistently rebellious and resistant to God.
Parents and grandparents teach children, passing along their beliefs. It is not to go deeper here on the subject, but it is something to think about. It is more random thoughts than it is something that has proven factual. I have other thoughts that do not concur with that idea, going by scripture.
It is only fuel in Satan’s hand to say, “See, you’re not as good a Christian as them”; “Your family's fruit is rotten, so all the vultures and birds of prey, and occasionally an eagle, are attracted to the dead, decaying flesh.”
Cast down those imaginations, child of God. Put up the shield to
fight those fiery darts. Satan is a liar, and the mind of flesh is at enmity with God. [Rom 8:7] We can do this. We have to do this, in the name above
all names, Jesus of Nazareth.
The hindrances/interferences are unavoidable. They are
sudden, urgent business matters, or necessary health appointments, or family
issues that cannot be ignored or sidestepped. The ‘hit’ must be bravely taken
and dealt with.
Counteract - Prayer and Fasting with Humility
It is how I have been led. We each have our individual duties the Lord organizes, given our background, experience, and exposure to certain things in life. This time the fasting was not as intense as in times past (younger,
healthier days), meaning that I only fasted through the night and until
3:00 PM in the afternoon. I did that for five days, until I was obstructed again –
this time with health.
I have watched negative activity from the dark side increase just as obviously as all of us globally have seen the wickedness in the world increase. We counter it with faith and prayers, keeping on our armour, armed with shield (faith) and sword (word). But we can sometimes weary.
If we are already weakened physically, for whatever reason (work, family, health, schedules, etc.),
guaranteed we will cry out to God for strength and help. He is faithful.
Anyone who has followed this blog for any amount of time knows that the purpose of this site is Christ Jesus/Yeshua, and pointing people to Him and the Word. I have always tried to encourage people not to give up, to always pray, to repent, and keep a repentant heart.
There are plenty of titles in the archives that even have some
of those key words. This desire was birthed from listening to people who have faced discouragement, who are weary, who are fed up. Not everyone is angry, bitter or unforgiving. Some have suffered much loss of family, friends, or other great hardships.
And it is most certainly not that I have arrived and am some great pillar of strength. Like others, my strength most often comes from Jesus Himself, through the Holy Spirit. Ministering to others minsters to me as well. I learn as well, when I try and help others with something.
Even the desires in my heart were likely placed there by Him. It is a beautiful thing Jesus did for us - so deep, so multifaceted, so perfect in every way! Glory - He is exalted.
Transparency has often quenched pride, that is if testimony will be a helping hand to another downtrodden, weary soldier. Every
soldier tires out, even the young men faint and grow weary; some stumble and
fall, but we hope in the Lord.
It is those times, those times when we are weak (and
I am weak), that we are instructed to wait…wait upon the Lord. HE WILL
renew our strength, and we will RISE (mount up) AGAIN! [Is
40:29-31] Thus it is written, so it is true.
We counter Satan with the Word of God (our
double-edged sword). Yet, there are certain times that we must resort to
prayer and fasting.
Go back in the archives, go back to 2013 (oh how I
wish from 2008-2012 were not missing). Notwithstanding, go back and you
will see consistency. You will see a pattern. You will witness the faithfulness of the living God; You will hear the love of Jesus; You will see that God is Sovereign, doing all consistently and in order.
The testimony of Jesus Christ (Yeshua haMashiach)
is the spirit of prophecy. [Rev 19:10] Prophecy is to point people to look to Jesus,
to focus on Him. It is to exhort, to edify, to rebuke, to correct, and if so
led, to foretell.
I have shared my failures, and my triumphs, for I am a
woman who has made many mistakes in this life, and my heart has been to help
others by taking their hand (spiritually), and say, “Don’t make the
same mistake I did. The key is Jesus.”
But if I can spare just a few souls from making wrong
choices as I did, and convince them that Jesus will never leave them or forsake
them (that is something else I have always threaded throughout the years –
the fabric of truth, God’s promises to us through Jesus).
Consistently I have reminded others (and I myself
needed the reminding) that Jesus promised to never leave nor forsake us. From
the beginning, Deuteronomy 31:8 until the day God manifested Himself in the
flesh. His WORD became flesh, and His only begotten Son was born of a
virgin.
Repeatedly, God reminds us (yes, we need constant
reminders, especially in these busy, hectic times), He tells us “I will
never fail you, never leave you or forsake you.” [Josh 1:5], and right on
up into the New Testament, Hebrews 13:5, and Matthew 28:20. How comforting are Jesus’
words (He IS the Word).
Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have
commanded you: and lo, I AM with you always, even unto the end of the world.
[Mat28:20] [words of Jesus]
We must travail in our own Garden of Gethsemane,
knowing that we have our own cross to pick up and nail our fleshly desires and
appetites to (our ‘self’, our ‘flesh’, which means our 'carnal nature') to that cross; not literally 'ourselves' or 'flesh', but
spiritually speaking.
Are we willing to drink from the same cup of suffering?
Oh, I thought hard about it in 2005, just prior to full commitment to Christ,
but I was so sure. ‘I’m a warrior’, I proudly thought, and ‘I can do
all things through Christ Jesus. [Phil 4:13]
I had to pick up my cross. “I can do this”, I
said, so determined, so sure that it could not be that bad, that hard. After
all, it is not like it was a physical cross to bear. How little I knew…
More than once, too many times to count, I have fallen
under the weight of it, unsure if I would ever rise again. But as surely as
Simon of Cyrene was there to take the cross for Jesus (as ordered by a Roman
soldier), I look to see the nail-pierced hand of Messiah Jesus, reaching
out to hold me up, and even carry both the cross and me, if necessary, until
strength returns. Then, He becomes my strength -- the JOY of the Lord is my strength.
Guaranteed, our flesh will fight us. It is the
survival instinct; flesh does not want to die. The devil will mock. "Who do
you think you are, grasshopper?" And the world will do all it can to entice you, distract you, tempt you, seduce you. It works
hand in hand with the devil and our fleshly desires and appetites. But God! But Jesus! Glory to the Lamb of God who is the LION of the tribe of Judah!
Witchcraft and the Devil’s Work
Discussing realities is not glorifying something. It
is simply discussing realities. From the 13th of October to the 5th
of November, the spiritual realm is like the mazes of four to six-lane
highways, filled with curses, incantations, chanting, hexes, vexes, rituals, sacrifices (at times, blood sacrifices), unholy 'prayers', all seeking to open portals to gain the power and aid of
supernatural beings (demons).
A hex means to cast spells, to bewitch or curse
someone. The purpose of a vex is to cause mental suffering, distress, great
angst – how many felt those things coming against them during this season?
How many suffered interference as a result of the any of the above being carried out through the hands of someone
close to them, even loved ones, in the past month, even up to a couple of days
ago? I am not saying they are witches, or even tampering with the occult.
I am asking if you suffered mentally or were
distressed, or suffered deep anxiety, a foreboding dread at something a loved
one, whether friend or relative, said to you? Remember when Satan spoke
through Peter, and Jesus had to rebuke Satan as He looked at Peter?
Do those same loved ones celebrate Halloween ‘innocently’,
dressing up in ghoulish costumes, glorifying death (skeletons, ghosts,
tombstones, police tape, witches)? Spider webs and bats, vampires,
monsters -- it is endless and up to individual imaginations.
Whether you know it or not, just as the blood of a
lamb was a sign to the death angel to pass over a house if he saw the blood, so
the ‘decorations’ are a sign to the dark forces/demons to target a house if
they see they celebrate the occult holiday. Satan is a counterfeiter…copies
what he sees God do, and perverts it.
I do not celebrate Halloween, and I have not for over 20
years, perhaps just three years prior to committing to Christ. However, I live
with my 31-year-old son who has a five-year-old son.
My explanation for having no part of Halloween whatsoever
was factual, but non-condemning. I was confident my stand for the Lord versus
the dark side was not only understood, but respected.
I was wrong. I had seen a couple of pumpkins go out
with smiles, but that was all I had seen. I struggled even with that because it acts as a sign of approval for the 'celebration' (personal opinion).
But when I went to the store one day, there were about
10 ‘ghosts’ hanging in the bushes, yellow ‘police tape’ around the hand
railings on the landing of the front steps of the house; tombstones, graves,
spiders and webs. I was devastated.
We became a target, or rather, I did. Demons can see when a person is saved, and the Holy Spirit dwells within, especially as one abiding in Christ. “Look! We are celebrating!” (No, 'we' are not!) The decorations send a silent message out that
speaks loud and clear, and the house can become a target, a place of
interest.
It is going to be difficult for me to reach the places
my son placed them (I long to take them down, even before now), but my son is an adult. This is his home too and I am not the head of the house - we share the home.
I asked the Lord’s forgiveness. I did not have my children full-time for seven years of their young lives [another story, another time], but even if I did have them, back then, I would have 'celebrated' Halloween too.
However, one thing I did insist on is taht they could not dress up as anything 'evil'. In other words, no devils, no witches or ghosts, no vampires, or monsters. They did not mind being princesses, cowboys, robots, etc.
We are told that it is in those early years, children must learn the difference between good from evil... as any good parent would do in order to train up a child in the way they
should go. [Prov 22:6]
Our family bloodline is riddled with sins and evil behaviour, some of which I care not to name. Suffice it to say, alcohol has been a problem in generations on both sides of the family. Yet, I do not know of any that were Christian because I cannot go back further on my mother's side than her (she did not know who her parents were), and only back as far as my grandparents on my father's side.
They immigrated to Canada from Bulgaria in the early 1900s, so I am second-generation Canadian on one side, and unknown on the other. My mother was left on a doorstep in a basket. She knew who her mother was (a woman of Irish descent), but the father was unknown, with a blank spot left on the birth certificate.
I do know alcohol was a problem on both sides of the family. My mother died fairly young from cirrhosis of the liver, from years of drinking beer, and later, hard liquor (quality Scotch).
As for faith, it is possible the Bulgarians were Catholic or had similar beliefs. No Bible was ever seen in the house (once I came out of the orphanage). However, my mother cringed hearing preachers. Jesus was only used as a cuss word.
Yet oddly, she did confess that one time, when she was pregnant with me, she 'prayed to God' for a girl because she already had two boys. I only wish she remembered that I was an 'answer to prayer' the day that she legally disowned me in court.
My mother and her husband (my step-father) were afraid I would fight their will for monetary gain because they were well-off. Everything they owned, including money, was bequeathed to their two daughters by him.
Ironically, they could have saved themselves the stress, time, and headache because th sad truth is that I was never interested in their money or what they owned. I only longed to be accepted/loved by them. It never happened.
Sadly, they died 28 hours apart - mother of cirrhosis of the liver, step-father from lung cancer over 35 years ago. My sincerest desire is that both repented as they lay there in their individual hospital beds.
I did ask the Lord not to hold any sin or offense that was done against me against them. I do not know if such a request can be granted but I did ask for the sins to be removed from the book of records in heaven.
Jesus cried out to God upon the very cross that He was being crucified upon, "Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do." [Lk 23:34] Stephen shared the attitude of the Messiah, as he was being stoned to death: "Lord, lay not this sin to their charge." [Acts 7:60]
I do not know if what I asked is akin to that, but in truth, Yeshua (my Jesus) was the example that inspired such a request. It was after I was saved, and the Holy Spirit was leading me through scenes in my life so that I could make sure that no unforgiveness lay hidden in me. Some things took work, but God is faithful. He does not tire or give up. He follows things through to completion - always.
For those alive, I actually did my best to contact them and make amends. If they could not be found, I prayed about it and left in the competent hands of Jesus. For those dead, I made the request about the book of records, which even included the gang involved in my kidnapping over 50 years ago.
Some had already passed, whether from an accident, or from drugs, or some disease. Some were killed in a gang war, or drive-by shootings, reported in newspapers. But are we not told that God's will is that ALL should not perish, but come to repentance? [2Pet 3:9] He does not delight in the death of the wicked.[Ezek 33:11]
Back on track; given the family bloodlines that I know of (which is very limited), I do pray continually for the Lord to be sure all family is saved,
but it is understood that it is always God’s way and in His timing …something else I have said for years. I war spiritually for loved ones, and results are seen [the glory to God], but some door remains open, or gets reopened after it is
slammed shut – a vicious repetitive battle, but it is worth it - keeping in mind who the Lord of the battle is.
There are those who would like to see me quit, and
then say God removed me. I am grateful that the Lord has turned a deaf ear even
to my own requests to take me home that were hastily spoken out of exhaustion and pain.
Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the
devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour: Whom RESIST
steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in
your brethren that are in the world. [1Pet 5:8, 9]
The Chemtrail Crime
Since 1997, I first began observing chemtrails. Yes,
I know, people insist they are ‘contrails’ but there is a difference, and now
even certain government officials, military folks, meteorologists, and scientists
have exposed it, but of course, their character is slandered or they are the ‘fringe’
(new popular word – since the Freedom Convoy 2022).
The proper name is called geoengineering.
geoengineering: a set of emerging technologies that could manipulate the environment and partially offset some of the impacts of climate change
SOURCE: Harvard’s Solar Geoengineering Research Program
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| did not have camera that day about Oct 27.2022 this is close as I could find to pattern random pic off net NOT actual one |
Last week there were some strange chemtrails in the sky. I said to my son that I had not seen that pattern for awhile, but that pattern usually proved to contain contaminants that affected the immune system.
I am not a meteorologist, but over the course of 25
years of observation and studying, I have come to connect certain patterns,
along with chemical combinations, that are intended to affect certain areas of the body, or are intended to manipulate weather.
[1 weather manipulation
[2 health issues (affecting the immune system)
[3 soil and water (mineral and nutrient depletion [macronutrients/micronutrients]),
pH balance
I remember one time in Georgia after I had seen strange
chemtrails, I noticed black dots all over the sidewalk, on electric utility
boxes, on bushes, flowers, cars, mailboxes, everywhere – very odd. I had taken a walk downtown (about a 35-40 minute walk) and witnessed such. Other people had noticed, but no one knew the cause. Everyone was baffled at the strange black substance that 'seemed' to 'drop' from the sky. I had no cellphone back then.
No pictures were taken that day last week (little
longer now) with my son because I forgot my cell at home, but I found a
pattern that was similar. My grandson (five years old) got sick that
week. Other children were reported sick to the degree that walk-in clinics and hospitals in Ontario were "overwhelmed".
Source: Toronto
City News
A few days later, I saw more of a pattern typically
connected to immune breakdown, but this time, I managed to take some pictures.
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| this group are actual pics I took about Nov 4.2022 - i went to a couple of malls and took shots but within an hour we went from bright to overcast and a sea of sick people hit the walk-in clinics |
My grandson was up crying for three nights in a row, sore throat, headache and tummy ache. Then I got sick. Four days ago, on my fourth day of being sick, I went to a walk-in clinic.
A Nasty Virus
The headache has been constant for four days, and
the phlegm was brown, green, yellow – not good – pretty sure that I had
pneumonia. I did. Fauci himself said that a worse pandemic was expected in the
fall (November). Gates mentioned another.
The doctor told me he was overwhelmed with the
number of sick people, beginning with children. All presented with similar symptoms: feverish, constant headache; sore throat; heavy bronchial phlegm (colours varied from yellow to grayish-greenish-brown); cough; congested nose; sinus problems. Some also had earaches, others bellyaches.
A course of antibiotics and prednisone for me, and a
puffer. I was so blessed for three months with no breathing problems because I
no longer lived in places with black mold problems.
And now, it is back, and panic has to be fought…again.
It is a frightening thing when we cannot breathe. We have to tell ourselves not
to panic. This is now the eighth day (fourth on
medication) and I am still unwell.
This is where the LORD comes in. I cannot express strongly enough or often enough how faithful He is to give strength, no - to BE our strength when we are weak. There is the JOY - and HE is our joy. It is a win-win situation. He is our strength, and the joy of Him (abiding in us) just being GOD -- is our strength.
I have heard people say that our suffering does not save anyone. Of course not, what a thing to say. Splicing hairs sometimes over things not understood, instead of inquiring, just make snap judgments?
Should transparency only be the good things, never the suffering? What of the prophets? These were ordinary men who would speak by the power of the Holy Spirit. Are we believers not ordinary people who are born-again and Holy Spirit-filled because of Jesus/Yeshua?
What would be said of Jeremiah, not only known as the 'weeping' prophet, but the 'suffering' prophet? He was beaten and thrown in a muddy cistern by Pashur the priest because of a word from God that he prophesied.
He was shackled, called a liar, and ignored by people (God had forewarned Jeremiah that no one would listen to him). The lives of our forerunners was made transparent in the Word of God. We are enriched by it all, helped in various ways.
God still speaks through people and their lives today. The story of the old man, the young boy and the donkey are applicable here. No matter what town they travelled through, and there were many, there were critics who would try to shame them for how they made use of their donkey, when they were not doing anything wrong.
The old man and the young boy tried to appease the people each time, in each town. In the end they realized that no matter what they would have done, somebody somewhere would not like it, and find something to complain about. I think we all can be exposed to that in this life.
Caution: Blog at own risk - sharp-eyed judges are known to pass through. Be sure to hold pen at right angle, or at least, sit up straight when typing lol
Jesting aside (how dare I interrupt a serious topic with a humour break - tsk)
After talking about geoengineering (chemtrails) to my son, and sickness hit the city, it was my turn. I saw the doctor at a walk-in clinic for a second time on November 4th (2022), last week. This time he was wearing a mask. He was exhausted and it was only 11:00 am. He said there are so many sick people with a cold or flu, mostly the same symptoms.
Symptoms were previously shared, but the doctor said many patients reported feeling like they were on ‘death’s doorstep’. This young doctor (early 30s) was completely overwhelmed by the suddenness – just within the past “week” he said, suddenly and unexpectedly.
Some would call it coincidence, but I say, after 25 years of study, that it was something in the chemtrails, something that produced a virus - and it is 'guessed' by the pattern. It is a very in-depth topic, with those who still call it 'conspiracy' shouting loudly in the MSM, particularly governmental officials, [paid] news outlets, etc.
If you would like to know more of geoengineering, which many tend to call 'chemtrails', you can visit the website of Dana Wiginton is someone who has been fighting to stop geoengineering for decades.
He has a background in solar energy, and the knowledge gained helped him when he began losing a significant amount of solar power, noticed in the uptake that coincided with the spraying of aircraft; which, up to that point, been considered contrails (from condensation).
The testing of water and soils, the decline in the health of the land, and other obvious issues led Dane to research deeper. His investigations led him into the areas of geoengineering, researching global ionosphere heaters (HAARP), and solar radiation management.
To learn more: Geoengineering Watch – site of Dane Wiginton
As one last item in the defense against chemtrails or geoengineering being a conspiracy theory, I present a document by a well-established institute (over 100 years old) called Brookings, for your discernment:
Brookings, which is Brookings Institute is an influential
body of experts (think tank) in a 501(c)(3) not-for-profit organization
based in Washington, D.C. that supervises and carries out non-partisan and
independent research, analysis, education, and publication in the social sciences
– in-depth. It is focused mainly on economics, government, and foreign policy.
A document on the United States and preparation for security
and governance of geoengineering is available online. The panel of experts do
not deny geoengineering, and in fact, cover many topics on the subject, such as
stressing the use of satellites for tracking geoengineering practices.
Although the term ‘weather wars’, or any other kind of solar
geoengineering carried out for the purpose of intentional damage done by a
foreign country, is not mentioned, the writers do consider it critical enough to
address in their carefully worded document.
Example:
“However, it is possible that the anticipated effect of
foreign geoengineering activity might require immediate intervention than
counting on sanctions to eventually force the offending party to change its
behavior.”
OR
“Certainly the U.S. should be prepared to monitor and
respond to potentially harmful geoengineering activity.” [end of excerpts]
Understanding the importance of context, and to avoid the possibility of misinformation being invented, the link to the above-mentioned document is provided so that it can be read in its entirety: Brookings Institution
Get Your OWN Words – Stop Stealing
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| I'm stealing words shh-hh lol |
And prosperity prophets say: "just have faith, speak life" Yes, there is truth in those words. It is written that without faith it is impossible to please God. [Heb11:6] It is also written that: "Life and death are in the power of the tongue, and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof." [Prov 18:21]
Truth is twisted out of context, changing the original meaning, seducing the masses to introduce false doctrine that was cleverly tucked away to such a degree that it is almost obscured or concealed by the truth. It does anger me.
I was tricked by the false doctrine at a young age [26], but praise God. One failed experience taught me for life, and I have Jesus to thank, even though I was not yet saved. After that church, I never darkened a doorstep again with so much as my shadow for 13 years. Thirteen (13) the biblical number linked to rebellion.
False doctrines are teachings laced with poison.
Poison: 98% good food - 2% poison and it is the 2% (that tiny portion) that kills.
Smiling faces, charismatic or likable personalities, saying all the right sayings: I like to think that I understand about speaking life; and have mentioned it several times over the course of 17 years. For one, we do not order God, nor can we manipulate Him into backing up what we say just because we use scripture, especially scripture that is used out of context, and to support a false teaching.
We speak life when we encourage others, not with flatteries, but with facts. We speak life when we audibly bless people. We speak life in prayers humbly for others, esteeming them better than ourselves.
We speak life in asking the Lord to show them favour, grace, good things, protection, wisdom, whatever is according to His will. When we repeat scripture [God's Word] audibly, we speak life - these kind of things speak life.
Death is spoken when we curse people ["I hope you [...] (fill in the blank with harmful, negative words), or cuss at them and name-calling. Death is spoken through gossip, slander, flatteries with hidden motives and/or agendas, lies, or fabrications. These kind of things speak death. Refer again to: [Prov 18:21]
Whether a follower/disciple of Jesus or not, we cannot overrule the will of God. Our will must align with His, not the other way around. We must be so careful.
If there are lessons He is teaching me, I want to
learn them. If this is part of what it means to learn endurance, then I want to
learn endurance.
We do not have to like the lessons because some are difficult and uncomfortable, yet to endure
them is to learn them. If this is what teaches me to be thankful, and not to fall
into murmuring (whining) and complaining. What parent delights in a
spoiled, ungrateful child? Being corrected by God proves we are His children and not bastards. And just so I do not get in trouble here, I provide scripture.
But if you are without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are you bastards, and not son. [Heb 12:8]
That is the King James version, but in all fairness, the updated versions have taken that word out and replaced it with "illegitimate" or similar meaning. I slip sometimes, but in Christ, by taking His hand, I always rise back up… yet I bow my heart toward my King, confess my faults, and ask for help to turn away from anything not of Him.
This is what we do. I hear my brothers and sisters;
they encourage me. We build each other up. We have need of each other, with Jesus
Christ as our Head. Without Him, none of what we do is of any real or lasting value. Christ/Messiah Jesus is the key to everything!
He is the Vine that supports and feeds us. Our very
life is in Him, and Him alone. Hallelujah! He IS our hope; our refuge; our strong tower. He IS our joy.
These words consistently have flowed from my lips over the years. It is all Jesus’ fault … He did it; He created me; I believe we give credit where credit is do, and no one touches the glory of God - much to thank Him for...
How many times have I written that God’s timing is not our timing. Why? Because the Lord taught me that. He teaches us, all of us, if we let Him. We can hurry the process. We can go steal someone else’s words and make ourselves look like we learned the hard way.
We can feign humility, but neglect to reveal that it is all God's wisdom that teaches us through the Holy Spirit. We are like vessels to be purified to be forged and purged in the intense fires, if He sees fit to place us in a furnace of affliction, of suffering, then further purify us in the water of separation. [Num 31:23]
This happens over the course of time, experience, battles,
trials, hard lessons, making wrong choices and facing
consequences. We can fool others, but God knows. He cannot be deceived.
Yes, I have a reason I keep mentioning theft of words. It began with precious sister in Christ who wanted to encourage me with a confirmation to something I wrote about, and a link was provided.
Then, there was a lead, out of a certain person’s own mouth, followed by a
hunch (likely a nudge from the Holy Spirit). At first, I was angry, admittedly. Then, I analyzed my anger (or tried to), and wondered if it was pride.
Possibly, but if so, it is because of all the hard work. To me, it is my ‘little drummer boy’ gift to the Lord. He gifted me the drum, and I desire to honour Him with thanksgiving by using the gift to point others to Him.
I also hope it ministers to people, to the brethren, to the lost, the hopeless, the forlorn, the discouraged – we all do our part within the Body of Christ.
The heart of all of us who are saved is to point others to Christ, is it not? - to offer hope and encouragement? How many times have I written to rise up? See the archives with the words in the very titles. These are common threads in the fabric of my work. Earnest prayers, hard research, much bible study, frustrations as I learn about keeping flesh out of things, and the Spirit of God in. But alas! I am far from being as spiritual as I would like to be -- but I will press on, along with all the other brethren who are running the race, and fighting the good fight.
I just recently found out about plagiarism, and whew! it goes right through the archives. It seems I am venting, forgive me. I have to let it go; to work it out with the Lord. I need to let the person be God’s project. I am not a vengeful person, but I cannot stand deception...or pretense. This person is majorly popular.
Life is too short, and mine is getting shorter by the day, by the moment. I have much to be grateful for. I have done my own share of wrongs, of sins...I am not "all that", but still grrr
Sigh, but my sins are not her sins, and hers are not mine. I have been a hard work for the Lord, a late bloomer, a tough case (not intentionally), but He never gave up on me.
Maybe I was testing Him, to see if He would give up on me as my own mother had. It seems most people did, but not our
Creator. In fairness to others, I moved around constantly my entire life, not giving many a chance to know me well.
My emotions have been heavy lately, yet do not doubt
that I cannot find ‘ample’ reason to offer up thanksgiving, and to give praise
to a good and very patient, understanding Abba. All because Jesus –
sweet Yeshua… ALL because of You. That is where I must put my focus - not on 'poor me'.
Do I allow bitterness to take root, or do should I silently pray for any soul who cheats me, or others, or even themselves, but mostly God. Time, prayer, and quality time alone with Jesus...that is what I must do. The Holy Spirit will help me to work through this.
But suffice it to say, between witchcraft, and chemtrails, and being very unwell, I am not myself. Kind of cranky (okay, miserable), in need of rest and big old hug!
I do believe the Lord allowed all this - the innocent link to a video given by a close and precious friend, as sister in Christ, whose heart was to uplift me with confirmation as having heard from the Lord.
And I believe He led to the articles in the archives that were plagiarized because there are just far too many to remember what is written in which article. Is this a trying of the heart? If so, does my anger mean failure, or is that a natural reaction, given the amount that has been plagiarized?
I do not dare make excuses for myself, or throw myself a 'pity party' (those kind of parties where no guests show up, and if they do, they 'suddenly' have something to attend to lol)
Yes, it
has been a time of weeping, purging, soul-searching – it would be so easy to
anchor a bitter root. The cries for relief are sincere, yet I backpaddle at
times, asking the Lord to give me more strength, and forgive my weakness. How I
need Him. Sometimes maybe the attempt to please the Father; to make Jesus smile, perhaps at times I go overboard, but the Holy Spirit brings me back to balance.
God help me NOT to satisfy the flesh, the world, but
especially – the adversary.
Prosperity Preaching is a False Doctrine
Is not My Word like as a fire? Says the Lord; and
like a hammer that breaks the rock in pieces? Therefore, behold, I AM against the prophets,
says the Lord, that steal My words every one from his neighbour. Behold, I AM
against the prophets, says the Lord that use their tongues and say, He saith.
[Jer 23:29-31]
And shall you say to the prophet, What has the Lord
answered you? and, What has the Lord spoken? [vs 37]
Dear saints, can you not see that the Lord wants you
to enquire of Him, seek FIRST the kingdom of God and all these things shall be
added unto you? It is not as in the days of old when the prophets were the link
to God.
We have access to God through Jesus, and through the
Holy Spirit, and through His written Word. We do not despise prophesying, not at all, but the Lord says His sheep know
HIS voice.
The Good Shepherd speaks to His sheep. God wants us to come to Him first, come to Him for wisdom, and not run to man to find out what God is saying. He speaks to His people. Jesus accomplished so much with His death, burial and resurrection. Why else upon the cross did He muster the strength to say, "It is finished!" [Jn 19:30]
Brethren, have you left your first love? I have heard those who ‘preach’ to seek Jesus, but then five minutes later say, the Lord wants you to start your day off with me (meaning themselves). Confusion is not of God.
If only I could remember where I heard the following story. It was a very long time ago, but it struck such a cord in my heart. I hope I get the details right. I may not get the story 100%, but it will be very close; it always gets to me.
Walk By Faith, Not by Sight (Please Keep Things in Context, Saints – Please!)
A family had celebrated a wonderful dinner together
and a time of reminiscing. They piled into their vehicles after warm embraces,
laughter, and happiness. As they were driving home, they got caught in a
white-out, a blizzard had hit suddenly, unexpectedly, and it was extremely difficult to see ahead.
She was unable to see much of the disabled vehicle due to the blinding snow. the car was severely damaged, but it was not until she arrived to the side of it that she realized it was her family’s vehicle. She managed to open the door; her heart racing as she quickly assessed the situation.
She was calculating who needed the most immediate care, and planned to remove each according to their need. Her father (driver) was dead. Her little brother was slumped over the seat. He was alive, but as she struggled to get his pulse, he gasped his last breath.
Devastated and in shock, she saw the family dog hanging half off the seat, with a piece of metal sticking out its side. She pulled the dog out of the vehicle, but it too passed away as the cold, blizzardy weather hit her. Her mother was alive but incoherent, and could not be easily understood.
Her sister was alive, but unconscious and seriously bleeding. She pulled her out of the vehicle, applying pressure to stop the bleeding. She looked around for something to keep pressure on the bleeding, so she could get her mother, but she could find nothing.
She then realized her sister was dying as she held her, gently rocking her. She delicately combed her hair back with her fingers, soothing her with words of love. The blizzard continued as she sat there. Finally, with tears rolling down her cheeks, she closed her sister’s eyes, as she too passed away in her arms.
The young woman did not know where her strength was coming from. As difficult as it was to let her beloved sister go, she had to in order to help her mother. Laying her sister's lifeless body gently upon the cold, hard ground, she rushed back to the car. Just like a dramatic movie, flames were licking up the sides...only this was not a movie, and no one was acting.
She finally managed to get her mother out. A man appeared out of the snow and ran to assist her as she was struggling with dragging her mother along the ground. Other people were attending to victims in a couple of other vehicles.
The man and the nurse got far enough away with her mother for safety before the car dramatically exploded into flames, with her brother and father still in the vehicle.
The young woman looked back in horror, knowing two family members were now burning inside the car. Police, firetruck, paramedics, and ambulances arrived. I cannot recall the details of the story about who else survived or died at that accident.
Many condolences were received, as a meal was shared after the funeral. But the one thing that angered the person the most as he told the story was when he overheard one of the Christian friends comfort the young woman, as she sat alongside her mother, who happened to have advanced Alzheimer’s and did not even know that she had lost her husband, son and one daughter.
She did not even realize that she had been to their funeral, and that the meal they were eating was in honour of them. The Christian friend stated how she understood how very difficult it must have been to have attended the scene of the accident. She sincerely felt empathy for the young nurse.
She reassured the girl that she was sure she had done her very best for all of them. But then something the 'comforter' had been taught from a false doctrine spewed forth (unintentionally) like the poison it is.
She advised the young woman not to be too hard on herself, understanding how difficult it is to have enough faith when tragic things happen to a person's loved ones. The woman honestly believed that the three family members perished because the remaining sister lacked the faith to ‘lay hands on the sick and they would recover’, or to 'raise the dead' due to unbelief. [Mat 10:8]
The very idea shocked the sister so much that she
could not even respond. The pastor counseled the woman for several months after
that accident, explaining some of the false doctrines that people are taught. And that beautiful child of God actually found the strength and
the compassion within her grieving heart to truly and fully forgive the woman.
She knew full well the errors found in the prosperity doctrine. There seem to be varying degrees or levels in the teaching, but basically, prosperity preachers believe that 'wealth' and 'health' belong to the children of God, if we will have enough faith to 'decree' it. Then, they will use scripture that speaks of health, and mentions prosperity.
Prosperity is not a bad word, nor is it a sin to be wealthy. It is the 'love' of money that is condemned. Also, God provides our needs. He can do it day by day, or He could lead us to prosper financially, but when God speaks of prospering us, it can be to help us succeed in the things we lay our hands to that honour Him, such as a successful ministry, or radio program, or magazine, or charity.
Our walk is all about Jesus and the kingdom of God. Our inheritance is in Christ; that is the 'plan' (plan of salvation) that God has for every lost person, which was all of us at one time, due to the fallen, carnal nature we are born with. The plan was mentioned in the Garden of Eden, to Adam and Eve after they sinned, and to the serpent who deceived and tempted them. [Genesis 3]
That story struck hard with me. The closest I came
to knowing it was in 2021, when the RV I was renting was so full of mold that I
could barely breathe and the pain in my legs made going up the steps very
laborious.
A woman in the group I attended on most Friday nights, obviously believed the prosperity gospel, or some new age teaching. She said to me to “just pray and God would heal you. Pray until you believe what you are saying…you walk by faith and not by sight.”
The unnecessary guilt that some put upon a person who is ill is beyond understandable. Firstly, what good is prayer if it is not spoken in faith? So, that did not make sense to me.
It surprised me that the woman actually believes that none should ever be sick, that everyone should be healed, that abundance in every area is a reality. It is too much to get into here, but I trust the Lord. We live in a fallen, polluted, corrupted world. The Lord does wonders helping us navigate through all of life's challenges, and the devil's battles.
She proceeded to tell me how there was a group of about 10 of them who were all unwell. They all prayed for each other, and every single one of them were healed. I wanted to snap and angrily ask her why the whole group didn’t head over to the hospital or the hospice and start emptying the beds, but that would have been bitterness looking for a place to anchor its root. I can be a real grouch if riled when I am unwell. I am praying about my flaws and shortcomings.
Every time I truly forgave her, she would come back
out with some other ‘I am healed, now just have faith to receive’ kind of
statement. It was a hard trial. As stated before, 2020 was the beginning of
some very serious trials that were not directly linked to Covid-19.
Do I believe in healing? You bet I do. I have been
healed of other things before. Even one of my dogs was healed of a stomach
issue one time when I did not have enough money to cover vet costs.
I have seen other miracles. Not only do I have good reports that have been shared, but I have had the privilege of hearing good reports from others also. Yet, all is in God’s hands. Job did not speak ‘faith’ and be healed, neither did he do wrong by not doing so.
He was in a trial that was between Satan and God. He came out victorious, just as we will come through victoriously. God has never lost a battle or a war. He is the victor! In the end, that is where it all lies – in the hands of a Sovereign God, an all-wise (omnipotent) God.
A Much-Needed Smile
I am not a ‘politically correct’ person. However, I will say that as I look at 70 years of life on this planet being just up ahead at the crest of the hill I am ascending, I can assure you that there is nothing disrespectful or derogatory in the terminology.
Whenever I heard the expression growing up, I thought it was to honour the natives who originally lived here, before the Europeans arrived. Indian summer is not a yearly event, but when it does occur it is in the autumn [fall] in the northern hemisphere, between late September and mid-November. See: Wikipedia
It is always after the first ‘killing’ frost and a
period of chilly days and cold nights, yet always before the first snowfall. Warm
days, clear skies, warm balmy days, and a breathtaking display of colour in the autumn foliage.
Yesterday, my son, his five-year-old boy and I were
out for a drive. It was a delightfully sunny and balmy day, gladly embraced
after a week of frosty mornings and nippy night temperatures.
“Really nice today,” my son
commented casually. Nodding in agreement, I answered back, “Yes, it’s a
beautiful day!”
And there is your much needed smile! (It is okay if
it is slightly lopsided…)
A Hard Hill to Climb
Friends, I have poured out my writings in public for 17
years, giving forth what I believe the Lord wanted to minister to others. It
has ever been to the glory of Jesus, as I still remain an unknown. I am okay
with that, if in any way, I helped someone.
The exact timing is unknown at this moment because so
much transpired in three short years. However, at one point earlier this year,
the Lord had me write a man that I would have preferred avoiding for the rest
of my natural days.
Anytime he spoke with me, it was like being spewed on
by poison. It was a season where I had been sharing off and on for a couple (possibly
three years – I could check archives) where the Lord was trying our hearts.
Some say that does not happen, but the Word of God
does indeed try our hearts. God knows where we truly stand with Him, but do we,
or do we deceive ourselves?
In fact, when the Lord made a request of me, He led me
to the scripture that I am about to post here. It is the psalm that pertained
to dear Joseph, who was sold into slavery and went into captivity in Egypt.
Interestingly, it is the same psalm (and the second and only other time it is written in the Bible: Touch not My anointed, and do My prophets no harm. [vs 15]
It is so often taken out of context, and used when and
if anyone challenges what today’s teachers or ‘prophets’ speak forth. If you
are born-again, and filled with the Holy Spirit, and are abiding in Christ, and
He in you, then you are anointed.
People can lose their anointing – sin separates us
from God.
Both times those words in verse 15 are penned in the
Holy Scriptures, it pertains to the Israelites and the ancient prophets, from
Abraham onward.
The Israelites were called God’s chosen people, when
they were still few in number.
Out of the line of heritage, the promised Messiah
Jesus (Yeshua) would be born. Jacob, whom the Lord renamed Israel, had
12 sons, and from them the 12 tribes would spring forth, thus beginning the fulfillment
of the promise to Abraham.
Jesus would come forth from the tribe of Judah.
Two verses down:
He sent a man before them, even Joseph, who was sold
for a servant: Whose feet they hurt with fetters: he was laid in iron:
Until the time that his word came
(his promise/dreams): the Word of the Lord TRIED
him. [Ps 105:17-19]
The Trying of the Heart
I do not know who reads the blog anymore who began
with me back in 2008. But around 2012, Passover, when I lived in Georgia, I came across scripture that I knew the Lord was moving on me to do.
Does He always do that? No, and we need to be careful
what we lay at the feet of our Lord. I do fear the Lord and do my best to walk in and to speak
truth because He is a holy God that I will one day stand before, along with everyone else.
He knows what words come from the lips and what words
come from the heart. I had hair down to the middle of my back, and I was being
led to cut it. [see Jeremiah 7]
The following comes from that chapter in Jeremiah. The Lord is angry because His people trust in lying words (things they want to hear, rather than the things that God is really saying through Jeremiah, a prophet). [vs 3] He exhorts them to amend their ways and actions, to execute ‘judgment’ between a man and his neighbour. [vs 5]
He reminds them how He consistently rose up early to
speak with them, but when He called, they would not answer. He tells them not
to pray to Him for the people or intercede because He will not hear the
prayers.
YHWH is angry because the people refuse to hear Jeremiah, who is speaking the true words of God. It is not pleasing to their ears; they have enough to contend with, without being brought down by some doom and gloom prophet.
In April, 2012, on Passover, the Lord had me cut my
hair. I had been living in the States for five years, but the people overall
were waxing worse and worse.
Witchcraft and the occult were more out in the open then, homosexuality was and parades were becoming the rage, and increasing in popularity over the course of 40 years. Modern-day child sacrifice had increased; abortions slaughtered more and more babies, as the courts lowered the bar continuously for the timeslot that abortions could be performed legally.
Today, in 2022, “abortion” can be carried out after
birth. That is NOT a typo - carried out AFTER natural birth. Can the hand and work of Satan and his minions not be clearly seen, as they mock God and
boldly display their hatred for His beloved creation, which is all of humankind?
Cut off your hair, O Jerusalem, and cast it away, and
take up a lamentation on high places; for the Lord has rejected and forsaken
the generation of His wrath.
For the children of Judah have done evil in My sight,
says the Lord: they have set their abominations in the house which is called by
My name, to pollute it. [Jer7:29-30]
I wondered how much I was to cut off, and I was told
to the shoulders (I still get choked up 10 years later) because He said
that He still has His remnant within the land.
He said that He was lifting His glory from the land,
but to pray for the people. Even in judgment, His love is evident – a solid
Abba, a good Creator.
He sent forth the warning, desiring His people turn
their hearts back to Him, acknowledging how we failed Him, compromising with
the entertainment industry, hobnobbing with certain politicians, professing ‘love,
love, love’, when it is the fame and lucre that is loved.
I wrote about it. O
Jerusalem, Jerusalem – O America, America (this was a repost from 2012
post)
My heart aches…
Will You Reach Out?
Someone sent me links to a couple of a man's articles in a list carefully put together of news items, articles and prophecies, which were then sent out to several people in a mailing list. And apparently, some of my articles were sent to this same man. He did post a couple of my articles, for which I am grateful.
They would have been lost, along with several others that were destroyed by a trojan or virus (ransomware) from 2012 back down to and including 2008 - a few (three or so) were from 2005 (some written before I had internet, but were posted later on).
He lived in the States, as did I at that time. We communicated a few times by email; I do not know how many times, but a few flowed, not volumes, not a lot, but in truth I do not recall how many.
It was only over the course of a few months? I truly do not recall; it was not long is
all I do know. Those were busy days, not just my blog. I had much work editing and ghostwriting, which is how I survived when I lived the seven years in the U.S.
We also spoke perhaps two, possibly three, times on
the phone. This man had done some good things for others, that is a given. However, there were a few women that
reached out to me, having been upset by him. One said she had been accused of something, and a couple of others experienced rather strong criticism from him. I cannot recall the details but some were upset at the time, anyway.
Not really knowing the man well enough, I did try to stick to Christian principles and values. Did they try to speak with him about the offense? Only one had, but the others were too hurt. Perhaps they wrote me too soon after the offense.
They had only become familiar with me or my website through the couple of articles he had posted, giving out my name and website. All my articles contain my email address for anyone who wants to reach out for prayer.
I knew the one who did go back later on, after some time in prayer, and reach out to him, a tender soul, a sister in Christ that became a friend over the years.
Forgiveness came up; did they forgive? My friend did, before she reached out to him, and another was not sure - it was too soon. She was not strong in the Lord, and was overly-sensitive. Something she said in an email had been misunderstood apparently, and a rebuke came forth, and she was hurt by it.
He and I had a falling out, and I truly do not remember why the final blow was, but I do know that for me to slam shut a door, there had to be good reason. There has been much trauma to my head from childhood up until my late 30s. As a result, there are areas and things that I simply cannot recall.
It seems to be 'selective' memory, which is frustrating because then people do not believe it, except for a specialists who is educated about trauma to the brain. When we cannot see a disability (if it is not physical or understood by the senses), we tend to have a hard time understanding, and especially matters that pertain to the brain. This began in my youth, perhaps early or mid-20s.
I do know that on one phone call when I said the name “Jesus”, he angrily retorted, “His name is not Jesus. That is a pagan name. His name is Yahoshua.” I explained that I love all the names of the Lord, but I was saved under the name of Jesus. That did not go over well.
However, the odd thing is that on another call after that, when I mentioned that incident to him, he denied it strongly, stating that his daughter calls the Saviour ‘Jesus’, so why would he say those words to me? I know that I did not imagine it, but when a person denies saying what they said to you, right to you, how do you respond? You know they said it, you tell them they said it, yet they deny it.
Well, I had no answer, nor did I have proof. But I do know that that difference was not what divided our ways. Something happened that severed ties. I remember never wanting to speak to him again, and being shocked at the same time because I never saw it coming, nor would I have believed it if I were told.
It is hard to explain, but that is what happens when (for whatever reason) people deny the truth. That is why one has got no other way to handle the matter, except to give it to God.
At any rate, at the time, I truly could not recall what happened. Although we never communicated after that, Jesus led me by His Spirit to forgive him, or I would not be forgiven.
Sometime around the time I left B.C. and was staying
with my daughter, preparing to move east to my son, and during a time of
prayer, the Lord was trying my heart. “Will you reach out to him?”
(NOTE: The above has been edited, to make it clearer and more concise, yet staying in truth - with God's help, and to the best of my ability. I want no bitterness or even a hint of such.
Moslty, I do not want to grieve the Holy Spirit, or intentionally hurt anyone. So I did edit, taking out some things that perhaps were best left unsaid. In another area, it was making things clearer in case they got misconstrued. BP 2023)
Tough Calls
I really did not understand why I had to contact the man, if I had forgiven him. We both had moved on in life; it was 10 years ago. However, a friend of
mine who followed him for a time, and read his articles, had told me that he had suffered a stroke. At
the time that she informed me, he still required healing.
I thanked her for the update, but I was torn. I racked
my brain but for the life of me, I could not remember what he had said or done
that had severed all communication between us. I only know that I was done, and
shaking the dust.
He was a cold-hearted pastor to my way of thinking, but my thinking back then was wrong. He was cold to me, and at times (seemingly) to certain women, but that did not make him cold overall.
Shake my head; it baffled me. But the Lord was asking if I would let my heart and love wax cold too?
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God. [Mat 5:9]
Do we offer only lip service, or allow action to reveal heart service? It was at that point that I could actually thank God for the selective memories I get, and for the blackouts that remain covered in mystery and forgetfulness.
It has been a silent suffering since youth, but
became worse after the time I was in the hospital for a month when I was 38,
after a night of abuse.
So, when my friend told me about the stroke, and with the help of the Holy Spirit, I prayed -- for the complete healing of
his body, mind (soul), and spirit. I prayed his strength would be
restored, and that God would take away any fear from his family or friends.
All I know is that it was sincere. One cannot pray for someone and hang onto bitterness. It has to be destroyed at the root. I felt great release to the glory of God through Jesus/Yeshua. What happened was a
long time ago.
One day during a time with the Lord earlier this year, the man came across my heart again. I had felt the situation was dealt with, and the case was closed. The gentle question placed upon my heart was: “Have you truly forgiven him?” Pretty sure, yes.
It helps when you cannot even remember what the offense was – couldn’t have been that bad (chuckles – well, point is, to God, our pride can often stand in the way). (NOTE: I am disappointed in some of what was written, like the comment up above - poor humour. I wonder if I should have written anything about his incident.
Why did I not leave it in God's hands. The story is true to the best of my recollection, yes, but it did not have to be published. Forgive me, Lord. It should have been kept between us.
I have to leave the rest here now, sadly. Perhaps it will help someone else, some other writer. I have learned not to be hasty in writing and posting about anything that may not be fully dealt with in the spiritual realm, between must be dealt with between the Holy Spirit and me. And especially do not post anything that is written - in the flesh (carnal nature) -- BP2023)
If I had truly forgiven him, would I be willing to
reach out, to let him know that there was no animosity on my part, and that I
had prayed for him? I had been genuinely glad when a friend told me (several
years back) that he was doing well again.
The scripture that shone on my heart’s path was: Blessed
are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God. [Mat
5:9]
The Result
Desiring to obey the Lord because of my love for Him,
but more because of the love, grace and mercy He has extended to me over the
years, I set out to send an email. It did not come easy – I was not sure what
to say.
I started it with something along the lines like, “I
do not know if you remember me”. So, I re-introduced myself, also
explaining that I was not sure what our ‘falling out’ had been – I could
not recall.
It was explained that a friend had told me of his
stroke several years ago, and that I had been moved at that time to pray for
him (which is truth, as the Lord sees my words here this moment).
Not too much else was said I don’t think; just that I
had left Georgia (the States) in September 2014 and was in BC. Now, I
cannot remember if I was at my eldest daughter’s when I wrote the email? – but nevertheless,
I mentioned Alberta and heading to Ontario. It was earlier this year that the
Lord tried my heart. Anyway, not much else was said except to wish him the
best. I really do not recall, but I am pretty sure that was about it.
The first thing he wrote back is that he did not
believe me. All I can figure is he meant about not remembering what severed the
ties. All I know is that I was angry at him, and found him to be bitter against
certain women…it’s the best I can remember; I cannot recall what happened or
what was said, but I do know four other women that came to me years ago, over
some upset.
He told me that if I had been “hearing from God”, I would know that his stroke was a disciplinary action on the Father’s part, but he is convinced I do not hear from God. He also called me an adulteress and scolded me for not speaking of repentance anywhere in the letter.
Wow, it certainly was not what I expected. I think I expected something like ‘water under the bridge’, ‘bygones be bygones’. It had been 10 (TEN) years since we communicated. What was I to repent to him about? We never met in person. We did not know each other well.
Adulteress? My ex-husband divorced me; he continued living with a woman he met until she passed from cancer. Even if he had not been with her, he trashed the wedding vows when he took advantage of an innocent child. He went to prison for the things he did with the children when they were in his care. If he repents, God forgives...as have I.
Edited
Yes, I have been an adulteress, a fornicator, a liar, a thief, a druggie, a drinker, a cusser, an idolater, a rebel, and more -- I have likely broken every commandment. I am not proud of the fact that I was all those things, but I am not those things anymore, and I refuse to allow Satan or anyone else to put me under the bondage of shame, when Jesus set me free.
Jesus/Yeshua forgave me when I repented with godly sorrow, and it is under the blood. Ten years passed since the man heard from me, but his words were hostile and cold.
The Lord did not tell me that He was chastening the man for his poor diet, hence the stroke. I do not believe the Lord corrects or chastens us with sickness. Rather, it would be the consequences of our choices, yes.
I have a hard time believing that God puts sickness on us, or chastens us with sickness, unless what is meant is that He allows the consequences of poor choices to teach us.
But another thing is, why would the Lord tell me who He is disciplining and why? Those kind of things are between the person and the Lord. God cares for His people, and is no gossip. If He tells us something, He has a good reason and a pure motive. He has to be able to trust us.
What the Lord was trying my heart about was:
[1] - had I genuinely forgiven him
[2] - would I reach out to show him there is no bitter
root
[3] - would I be a peacemaker and glorify Jesus
That man is a Christian. The rejection from brethren can sometimes take its toll on us, worse than the rejection of an unbeliever (unless it is someone very close to the heart), but when Peter asked Jesus (Yeshua) how often we are to keep forgiving, the answer was seventy times seven times. [Mat 18:21, 22]
It is not easy. Sometimes it takes me awhile to work through something. Yet, I can assure you that the Lord faithfully helps us when we sincerely desire to forgive and let it go.
We must, beloved brethren...it is true peace and freedom. Then pray God will help them...He will, if they really want to forgive too.
I cry a lot these days…hearts have waxed so cold. Still not over that long trip across Canada. It seems that today condemnation rides high; pride crushes, but then I recall one of my favourite
expressions.
It sounds like something Jesus/Yeshua would say. Some have credited Mark Twain, but it is not one of his quotes. Others credited C.S. Lewis, but it is not his either. It is an anonymous quote, but I strongly like it:
Forgiveness is the fragrance of the lily upon the heel of the one who crushed it.”
But Jesus' words are full of love, wisdom and instruction:
Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. Forgive and you will be forgiven, for with the measure you use, the same shall be measured back to you… [Mat 6:14; Lk 6:37, 38]
We do not have to understand everything. We just have
to learn our own lessons, and pass our own tests. We all make mistakes. Hopefully,
they become less and less. We will not reach perfection (without error or flaw)
on this side of glory.
So, as I always say, as did those who went before me,
Keep strong; hold fast to the shield of faith, and trust in Jesus. He will
never let us down, and our tears are precious to Him.
Dear saints, I have heard that some of you are
going through such an onslaught that you are crying out for relief, crying out
for it to end. You have been fighting a good fight, but the battle has been too
long, the onslaught relentless.
He knows our frailties, He can handle our emotional
outbursts that come from continuous pain and non-stop turmoil. He has seen your
sacrifices of praise and thanksgiving, and the ‘little drummer boy’ efforts at
worship from the heart.
Even others who have suffered silently, and for a long
time, cannot understand what you are going through the way that your Creator
does.
Father, thank You that all can come boldly, yet humbly before Your throne. Thank You for hearing my prayer. Thank Yu Jesus for all You accomplished so that can be confident in You. Thank You for Your love, and for Your discipline.
Thank You for being our strength and comfort when others come against us, and misunderstand us. I pray for spines of steel, and a heart of compassion; yet a holy boldness to stand for what is right.
I pray for brothers and sisters who are
suffering to the point of being completely undone. Bless those who fight bravely out of
love for You, from a desire to please You for the goodness that You have shown them…
Sometimes we can be like little children, seeking Your approval. We know Jesus that salvation is free, and o how glad we are for that. Grant Your people even more strength Lord.
Thank You for all You do. I pray in Jesus' name that You bring forth the healing that many have waited and hoped long for, without giving up, even if they have, at times hung on by just a mustard seed of faith.
Abba, even those who are not struggling with physical ailments or limitations are weary Father. Daniel forewarned about the wearing down of the saints. Answer the secret petitions of the heart, Lord, as only you can do.
Bring in the prodigals, restore them back to their families. Lord, reveal Yourself to the Muslims, the Hindus, the Buddhists, the New Age – Lord, do a quick work before the great falling away that You spoke of occurs. It is already happening...
Break the chains of those caught in the steely snares
of addictions, internally suffering at the hands of demonic tormentors for
they know not your love, and fear grips them like a python.
Yeshua, our Jesus…You said that it only takes faith the size of a mustard seed to move mountains (childlike faith). Lord God, we cast down all thoughts of unbelief and fear that would seek to rob us of our faith. We hold up the shield of faith, hardened by the elements, softened by the oil of the Holy Spirit. May the fiery darts slide off the shields, Abba, with the fires quenched. Thank You Jesus (it's all because of You and what You did, are doing and will do. Bless Your holy name.)
We KNOW You exist. Show us what Your will is for our lives, for Your wisdom and care is beyond our understanding. You are a rewarder of those who earnestly seek You – Your presence, Your
strength, Your direction, Your holiness, all that You are -- more than suffices.
Thank You for teaching us to endure. Thank You for helping us to hold on until the time appointed. We have asked that we may be considered
worthy to escape that which is coming, that which is written in Your Word.
Revival begins in us, but may true revival come forth before the great and terrible day of the Lord. We have heard that revival has begun in many countries, but the reports only trickle in from missionaries.
India, Pakistan, Iraq, Iran, Korea (North), China, Sudan, parts of Africa, throughout Europe...certain parts of certain countries where it is a danger to even name, o Lord, protect our brothers and sisters who suffer great persecution.
Grant them favour in the eyes of their captors, and mercy at the hand of their jailers. Keep them strong in spirit. May they know freedom and an end to torment
Purge us from bitterness, unforgiveness and
all that is not of you. Help us rise back up if we fall in our weak moments… many are tired, Lord. Refresh; revive us.
We bless you, Jesus. We exalt You and lift You on high for all to see, Holy King. You said if I AM lifted up, I will draw all men unto Me. We glorify You; be pleased o King. Be pleased. Your blood covers our armour. The light and the glory of the Father is upon the precious blood of His only begotten Son.All is spoken in the name above all names, and to His glory alone, Jesus the Messiah/Yeshua, the Anointed One. Amen
Your Tears are Precious to God
You tell my wanderings: You put my tears into your bottle: are they not in Your book? When I cry unto You, then shall my enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me. [Ps 56:8, 9]
If I remember correctly, this song was written after the loss of a child.
He Understands My Tears – the Isaacs (click to play)
He understands my tears...
It's hard to believe He still loves me
Knowing how wrong I have been
When all I can say is I'm sorry
When all I can feel is my sin
He understands when all I can do is cry
He feels the hurt that no one can see down inside
And when the words get in the way I know He still
hears
For He understands my tears.
Hallelujah
You may not believe that I’m broken
For all you can see is me smile
Oh but He hears the heart that's unspoken
And He gives me strength through each trial
He understands when all I do is cry
He feels the hurt that no one can see down inside
And when the words get in the way I know He still
hears
For He understands my tears.
Oh when the words get in the way I know He still
hears
For He understands when no one else can
He understands my tears.
Be at Peace
If you would like prayer, please write to me and I will gladly lift you up before our Lord, and stand in the gap. I believe in the power of prayer. The prayers of faithful brethren have helped me through some very difficult times, I can assure you.
The effectual, fervent prayer of the righteous avails
much. [Jam 5:16]
In a little less than three weeks, I will celebrate 68
years of life, living longer than I deserved. These past several years have
taken a toll, and this last hit of pneumonia has me almost flattened.
My breathing that had caused me such distress, and
even panic attacks at times, because I was living in homes laden with black
mold (unbeknownst to me in those times), corrected itself about six
weeks after being in this mold-free home.
However, the guck that was in my lungs from this virus,
which I believe hit the population from the chemtrails, has come back a second
round. Keep in mind the clinic I went to is two towns away, so we are speaking
about a very large area of people that were affected.
The number of little children under 10 at the clinic
was surreal, but there were also elderly folks such as myself, and younger
adults (20s – 50s). Keeping my hope in the Lord, I still must be realistic. I
am very shaky today, light-headed (this is day NINE – but only the FIFTH (5)
day of taking medicine).
My breathing does frighten me, and yes, I have to talk
myself out of panic attacks. Breath is life, and without it, well…need I say? (smiles)
If anyone is so led, please keep me in prayer. God has given me longer than I
deserve, and I do thank Him.
I do believe in healing, but realistically, not
everyone is healed. Ack, you know how it is when you are unwell, things seem
harder, especially if it has been going on for awhile, and yes, folks are
saying, ‘have faith, you will be healed’.
Precious saints, I have faith, but God is Sovereign in
all things. He told me a couple of decades ago, yes, before I committed, that
His timing is not my timing. It took me quite awhile to get my head wrapped
around that.
The Lord would say, “Soon (about
something)” … and I would get all gung-ho (unthinkably enthusiastic and eager,
according to OXFORD dictionary).
I would get all excited, expecting something in a
couple of days, or a week, perhaps a month. I have said for years and years,
that the Lord NEVER gives me dates. If ever I got a date, it would likely be
from my flesh…or the enemy.
I’m very tired…God’s will be done. And Lord willing, I
will be picking the topic of mental health back up. I have found some exciting
facts that may help readers, as some of it is information I paid for.
Some of the info comes from meetings that feature many
qualified, caring experts in the medical field (all displeased with Big
Pharma and their lies, including the lies they were taught in their training,
and the things they were prevented from knowing).
It is incredible how our emotions are linked to some
of our vital organs, and how stress especially, plus trauma, are major players that can cause very serious
illnesses. I had no idea how doctors really do just cover the symptoms with a
band-aid and ignore the cause.
In 2012, when the Lord gave me the title of my new
website (unfortunately, I could not keep up the cost), I had no idea how He would
indeed begin to expose things.
It was called the Time of Revealing website- with the white-gloved hand pulling back the proverbial curtain to reveal what was hidden behind, more often than not, a grand illusion.
Today, I do not feel well at all. Earlier (end of
October, beginning of November), I was under demonic attack. I checked my
spiritual armour; I had fasted and prayed (through the night and through the
day, only until 3 PM, then, stop again for the night).
So, no, I am not under spiritual attack. We are told
to “Submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee.” Many quote the latter,
but leave off the part about being submitted to God (under His authority).
I am just very unwell. Am I repeating myself? Yikes. No matter what, I must say that it has been an honour and a privilege to serve you through the Lord these 17 years (15 on the blog). There are some who feel that I have let them down, and some who do not see me in a favourable way at all, but I refuse to let bitterness take a root. It has to be nipped in the bud, and with fleshly emotions and feeling, the Holy Spirit will help us. We are told to be anxious for nothing but to bring our prayers and requests to God.
I am grateful to the ones who have encouraged me by writing and sharing how the Lord helped them through something written. That is a good report, and I am grateful to those who take a moment to write.
for His glory
Bonita dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com
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