Never Give Up HOPE

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The Love that Strengthens and Never Fails

With the help of the precious and Holy Spirit, I put together a little heartfelt package to inspire, encourage and help others, God willing. It reflects where I’ve been spiritually, fighting hard – alone with Jesus. It is good to have a friend or two who understand, but Jesus is the friend we ALL need. He never wearies or tires of us…unless we are ungrateful complainers or worse.

Even then, He will draw us to steer us toward repentance so that He can forgive us. However, He never forces anyone, and He will not contend forever.

When darkness surrounds the soul, there is a silent knowing that other brethren are going through the same thing. It doesn’t need to be spoken, but it does help to talk things out. Sometimes everyone needs comfort, needs to be heard, needs to be understood.

We are in a real war, and the enemy is relentless. His fury is immeasurable; his hatred is bloodthirsty and insatiable. Yet, we have an Advocate who has overcome the enemy and has overcome the world [Jn 16:33] We all long for the days that this spiritual warfare with Satan/Lucifer and his legions is finally over. Christ is the Victor.

We are one ‘Body’ in Christ Jesus/Yeshua, who is the Head. The Body cannot exist or live without the Head – how beautiful and wise are the ways of the Lord.

A Raging Battle

I was looking for a song, one of the old-fashioned hymns, like the Old Rugged Cross, or It Is Well (With My Soul). There was a need to worship the Lord through music, and to focus upon Him. I wanted my heart to be grateful, not wallowing in self-pity. Amazing Grace popped up, a classic. However, just before I clicked on the familiar original version, an extended title caught my eye. “Amazing Grace Fell Like Rain” – intriguing.

I searched out the title and lyrics on Google, and in truth, I could easily have echoed the words for what I have been struggling with these past several months. How many times does one go through a dark night of the soul. I reckon it depends on the soul, depends on the number of times a tragedy in life has struck, or a spiritual crisis has taken place. It depends on several factors.

Now for a true confession. Depression is something I have fought for a long time, off and on throughout my life, but now there is Jesus. My Saviour makes all things bearable. I can run to Him with all my cares, concerns, hurts, frustrations, anger – everything.

The garment of praise is worn for the spirit of heaviness, yet like a trustworthy boomerang, and for reasons unknown, depression returns. Praise Jesus for His patience, understanding, and for being a solid Rock.

Despite the heaviness, there truly is a deep peace and an untouchable inner joy knowing Jesus and abiding in Him, clinging to Him like healthy grapes cling to a strong vine. He truly is an unexplainable strength, wholly reliable. He is our hope, our strong tower, our shield. He is everything good, pure and holy.

The name of the Lord [Adonai] is a strong tower; the righteous run into it and is safe. [Prov 18:10]

The lyrics that will be posted further below summed up a fair chunk of what has been going on within me, deep below the surface (or perhaps, not so deep), behind the sometimes-pasted smile and sometimes forced lighthearted-sounding words. I must say that I am extremely grateful to have a good friend in the flesh…two good friends, sisters in Christ.

Yet in the Spirit, Jesus is the best friend of anyone who will draw close and abide in Him (be one in Him, and He will be one in you), just as Jesus/Yeshua was in the Father, and Abba (the Father) was in Christ Jesus.

We Must Learn to Trust

Jesus is LORD Of the battle

When we pass through turbulent waters that churn up waves of hopelessness, or stand in the fiery furnace of the world's most heated troubles presented by vicious tyrants, we can be confident that the same Lord God [Adonai] who assured us that He is the same yesterday, today, and forever [Heb 13:8] promises never to leave us. He stays very close to us, even when He is silent.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they shall not overflow you: when you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon you. [Is 43:2] KJV

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will direct your path. [Prov 3:5, 6]

The flesh will remain imperfect until the day we are changed (all born-again, Spirit-filled believers), in the twinkling of the eye, on the day of resurrection or the rapture, whichever the Lord chooses.

The best thing I ever did was to finally surrender, wholly and gladly! Commitment was not surrender, but I did not differentiate for some time. I had to learn. Surrender would be the best move anyone, including you, can make.

If you already have, bravo! Whether I want to or not, I will let you down. Others will let you down (disappoint/fail), and you will let others down too. It is all part of the fallen, carnal nature. Even when we do not intend to ever let anyone down, it does happen in this life. It is the human factor. Yet, with great confidence I can assure you that Jesus (Yeshua) will never let you down.

Guaranteed there will be times in this life that stuff happens and we do not get why God has allowed it, why He did not stop it… especially when we know He surely could have. He is God after all. We read the Word and we think we understand and know God. Yet when something happens in our life that tears us apart, or that we do not want to happen, more often than not, we cry out, “Why?! Why didn’t You do something? Why did You allow this? What kind of loving God allows this?”

We might wonder what we did to deserve this punishment. Surely it must be punishment for something, or else it just seems cruel. It might ‘feel’ like Yahweh is displeased with us and that is why the tragedy happened. We try to rationalize, try to make sense out of tragedy or calamity.

We will search the heart for sin, any sin, all sin. He must be punishing us. Why else must we suffer this pain (whether external (physical), internal (mental, emotional, spiritual), or both).

Why else are some of us unable to walk, or some unable to move, or others still unable to see, or hear. Why else did this marriage fall apart? Why else did this person get sick, or that person die, or, or, or…? We may accuse Jesus/God of being unfair, unjust, or worse – unloving.

We may ask Him to bring a certain person back and to take us, but God does not roll that way. El Shaddai, God Almighty – Yahweh – He is good and His mercy endures forever. The day will come when we will understand, but perhaps not now.

Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return to the Lord [Adonai], and He will have mercy upon him; and to our God [Yahweh], for He will abundantly pardon.

For My thoughts are not our thoughts; neither are your ways My ways, declares the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. [Is 55:8]

Perhaps you have not had anything happen to you in life that would bring you to that desperate, frustrated, and perhaps even momentarily angry point in time with your Creator, the true living God that you have loved and served.

Guard your healthy fear of the Lord. Respect that He is GOD, and there is no other. He is the true, living God and He always has a remnant, always. Ask forgiveness if your emotions caused you to be rude, disrespectful, or a complainer and grumbler. Turn away from bitterness; destroy any bitter root.

Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ [2Cor 10:5]

Sweet Surrender

Jesus IS merciful. When we repent with godly sorrow, He will forgive and not bring it back up to remembrance. [Micah 7:19] As people, we tend to ‘forgive’, but we do not forget. It is true that some things are hard to forget. We were given a memory for a reason.

I have heard people say they ‘forgive’ someone who did a great trespass against them, but if their name comes up, their countenance appears angry. Neither do their words align with how they look.

If one still has any animosity at all toward the person, the forgiveness is in their head but not their heart. Jesus told us to forgive seventy times seven, which means we will tire of counting long before we arrive 490 times. Either that, or we will lose track.

Animosity: it come from the Latin word ‘animus’, meaning spirit, mind, or high passion; a strong feeling of dislike or hatred: ill will or resentment tending toward active hostility: an antagonistic attitude – synonyms: bitterness, enmity, bad blood, hostility SOURCE: Merriam-Webster

Hatred in the heart is as a murderer in the heart. [1Jn 3:15] Let it go, and truly trust God to take care of things, in His way, and in His timing. That can be most difficult, especially when it comes to serious violations, I know. But our faith and our heart will be tried. This life is temporal. All will have to stand before a holy and just God.

We may learn ‘why’ further up the road, or we may not learn why until we meet Jesus in heaven. Will anything on earth seem important once we leave these earthen vessels, and leave the only ‘home’ (earth) that we have ever known?

Jesus can be trusted to do what is best for us in the long-run. That is where trust must stand. And remember, it only takes faith the size of a mustard seed to move mountains (of trouble). God is the God of the impossible.

These are not just ear-tickling, fluffy expressions to give false hope. They are the core, the foundation that establishes REAL hope faith through Jesus the Christ.

Now for the lyrics to the song.

Amazing Grace Fell Like Rain

by Mikhail Bennett, Rose Bennett, Christian Grace

I was carrying a thousand worries like stones inside my chest

Smiling through the pain of living, but my soul could find no rest

I had wandered through the silence, far from who I used to be

Then a quiet voice in darkness said, “My child, come back to Me.”

And when the night felt endless, I felt mercy hold my hand.

 

Amazing grace fell like rain on the driest parts of me

When my heart forgot its purpose, You still saw what I could be

Amazing grace gave me peace, when my world was torn apart

And the love I could not find here, You planted in my heart

 

There were battles no one noticed hidden deep behind my smile

I was losing faith in tomorrow, walking empty mile by mile

But You never stopped pursuing even when I turned away

Through the sorrow and confusion, You were lighting up my way

When I thought the road was over, heaven whispered through my pain

 

Amazing grace fell like rain on the driest parts of me

When my heart forgot its purpose, You still saw what I could be

Amazing grace gave me peace when my world was torn apart

And the love I could not find her, You planted in my heart

 

You were there inside the silence; You were there inside the storm

When I thought that I was broken, You were making something more

Not perfection, not religion, just a love that set me free

And the mercy I was chasing was already chasing me

 

Amazing grace lead me home when these tired eyes finally see

That the peace I searched forever was You walking next to me

Was You walking next to me

Amazing grace, You never stopped loving me

Never stopped loving me…

Never stopped loving me…

(Released July 2026) – AI-generated

True Confession – And That’s Okay

I shared some things I do not typically share (depression), but there are others who suffer silently too. Thanks in part to the prosperity gospel, there are those who believe that a Christian is not meant to be depressed (tell that to Job, Moses, Jacob’s son, Joseph, and David).

A Christian is not meant to have any sickness (Hezekiah, David, Timothy – three examples of sickness); not meant to be depressed (Job and David both suffered depression), not meant to live at poverty level (being poor is not a sin), not ever to question their faith or any do any critical thinking or ask any critical questions. (lies from Satan)

It is not realistic to think a true Christian will not suffer any of these things. Prosperity teachers (false doctrine) and wolves in sheep’s clothing teach that. The enemies of the cross plant their seeds of deception as well. But we serve the most incredible God. There are no adequate words to describe either Jesus or the Sovereign, Providential Yahweh (God).

For a couple of decades, I have tried to describe God and Jesus, but this writer has not been successful in it (smiles – I am in good company, I hear). The living God is holy, dependable, and always has a listening ear, unless one is stiff-necked and refuses to turn from their sin.

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Dark Night of the Soul

That being said, I recently went through what has been named for centuries as a “dark night of the soul”. It is surely is not the first time, but I pray it is the last. This dark night is a time when a war0weary soul hits a dark period, completely exhausted – physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually – from life’s battles, which are at time daily.

The struggles deep within are confusing and painful, a time that one goes through very much alone (more often than not), feeling abandoned by a world void of understanding or compassion. It is a time that a mask might go on, one that convinces observers that everything is okay. We may share events or things that are happening with a trusted friend, but keep the heavy turmoil churning inside, strictly to ourselves so that we do not trip anyone else up, or shake up their faith. God forbid!

Pass the Test

It is important that people know God is good, and He definitely loves us, but we may still struggle with hopelessness and misunderstanding of the Lord’s ways, which is devastating to our spirit. We want to appear strong, but feel the weakest we have ever felt.

We do not want to be a hypocrite, but at the same time, we do not want to complain, or worse yet, we do not want to trip others up, and discourage them. So, we carry the burden alone, not knowing what to ay to our precious Lord.

People believe you are strong, when inside, you feel so weak. As a Christian, we do not want people to see us stressed, upset, angry, or even depressed. Few see it as the crisis it is, where the soul is experiencing a type of dismantling, a deep emotional pain, a disconnect from the world, from others, and – even from God.

We might feel crazy with the mixture of emotions and pretending to be stronger than we are, but we are not crazy… at least, we hope we are not. What it does mean is that we are going through a purging. Things that are not of God are being exposed and the dross is surfacing.

Growing pains are a reality. It is not a physical pain, but it is a very deep, harsh pain. Our faith is being tested. It is being tried more than it ever has been before. I have spoken in the past about Job, and Abraham, and Moses, and Joseph.

Faith Will Be Tested

I posted a scripture some time back that helps us to remember the testing of our faith. Just like a Samurai sword must be proven (tested) to see if it is worthy to be in the hands of a skilled warrior in a battle, so must our faith be proven (tested) to see if we love God first above all things, and having gone through many tests, and having done all – to stand.

He sent a man before them, even Joseph, who was sold for a servant: Whose feet they hurt with fetters: he was laid in iron: Until the time that his word (promise) came: the Word of the Lord (Adonai/Yahweh) tried (tested) him [Ps 105:17-19]

Many give up at this point, right before the victory comes to fruition. I know I almost did. I did not almost give up on Jesus, nor on God, but on any hope of glorifying Him, or doing something that will please Him, or the promises I believe to come to fruition, or even staying strong to the end.

Help me, Lord, in the times where I feel that I cannot take any more. I do ask why, why must I go through this? Is there no other way for me to learn what it is you want me to learn? Why won’t it end?? It seems never-ending. I know I am not being punished for something, but it sure feels like it.

I know I have an attitude sometimes (frustration, disappointed, betrayal); or a curse word slips out. I hate when my mouth shames me.

I am surrounded by those who cuss, but it’s not an excuse. I need to exercise self-control. I grew up with it, spoke it sometimes. Ahh Lord, help me to be what You want me to be. Help me to make it to the end, to put others first. Do Ido it even when they trespass against me?   

I love you, Lord. You are good. You have done much for me (and the tears appear endless. Perhaps save me from myself, Lord.

The pain is daily, unable to walk far without assistance. I grew up around violence, but I chose not to be violent...                                                                           Lord, I know others suffer more, but I cannot possibly compare myself to others, it’s too much. But like Paul, I do things I do not want to do, and do not do the things I should.

I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.

For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. [Rom 7:15-18] ESV

Fight the Good Fight

It is a dark night where it is hard to see anything clearly. A wondering of purpose, an aloneness, a sense that no one understands, a horribly lonely feeling. It is a type of inner breakdown, a deep searching of the soul – a painful purging.

When a person is in that dark night, they deal with thoughts and feelings of guilt, shame, fear, and yes, anger. It is not meant to be a time of destruction, but a time of new beginnings, new strength, new wisdom, new growth…no matter the age.      

A loving parent longs to help their child, if they even suspect their child is going through a dark night of the soul. But it is like the butterfly struggling to come out of the cocoon. If the butterfly is helped out, or if someone peels open the chrysalis early, the limbs can be torn or become deformed on the new butterfly.

When the butterfly breaks free, it has to hang upside down immediately. It is so their little heart can pump fluid into the wings so they will expand. If someone handles the butterfly as soon as it comes out, the could cause it to die because without hanging upside down, the wings will dry and harden, causing them to shrivel up. That would mean the butterfly will never fly. Instead, it will die.

When a person comes out of a dark night of the soul, they may feel slightly disoriented (like things are upside down), but it is for our own good. That is usually when God is quiet…and some may think He does not care. Others may think He is not real. Listen, please. God does care. He is real!    

I sent this to each of my children (now  grown adults, two in their 30s and one early 40s), and said to them:

I believe you can relate to this song. As your mother, I want you to know that I love you deeply, ever since the moment you came out of my womb and I first laid eyes upon you, and held you gently in my arms. You have become a fine person – each one of you are different, yet each of you are such a gift to me (an undeserved gift, but I am grateful)!

I made so many mistakes, but I did my best with no backup. It is too bad because I believed in God/Jesus all my life, but I did not have any solid relationship with Him. It is written that even the demons believe and tremble.

Yet know this. I am here to be your backup, if and when you ever need any. When I lost all of you in 1994 when I ended up in the hospital for a month after one night of abuse with your father, I did turn to Jesus, but I had the wrong motive. I did not turn to Him to repent of my sins. I still had no fear of the Lord, nor was I filled with godly sorrow for my sins. I turned to Jesus because I wanted to get my children back from an alcoholic who would neglect and abuse all of you.

Jesus is so patient, so good. He had to work on the inside of each of us, so He could cleanse us, and dress us in robes of righteousness. He put people in our path who helped us at that time. Jesus never forces Himself on us. He desires people come willingly and gladly. Incredibly good, kind Jesus!

May this song minister to each of you as it did for me. May it move you to thank Jesus for His great love, care, salvation, forgiveness, deliverance, everything. Even though I was not saved at the time, each one of you were dedicated to the Lord when you were just weeks old. It was not done in a church, but I did get on my knees, lift each of you in the air, thank God for you, and acknowledged that you were His. I must have seen it or heard of it, I know not but now that I know Jesus, I believe that He led that action. I give Him the glory alone.

The ‘names’ of the artists/musicians of this song are all fictitious characters, AI-generated characters. They are not real people. And the video that someone put together is completely AI-generated. Once created, it was posted on YouTube, on a YouTube channel. It likely got posted on TikTok, Facebook, Rumble, or whatever…

AI characters and AI videos annoy me. It is artificial indeed, and I strongly dislike AI films.

However, I do like the song. My prayer is that it ministers to you all, as it did me. Be much blessed, my child. I love you forever, I like you for always. As long as I’m living, my baby you will be. (heart)

The Lord taught me patience, although I still blow it sometimes; He really and truly is an ever-present help in trouble.

You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you because he trusted in you. Trust in the Lord forever: for in the Lord Jehovah [YHVH] is everlasting strength. [Is 26:4] KJV

 for His glory alone

Bonita                     dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

While We Were Distracted_P.3_Fear Not Their Fear

If you missed it, please read this first part. Everything will be sensible, as it all falls into place.

[NOTE: Updated: Nov. 2026 - Added scripture and pictures - BP]

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The Great Hindrance

[Of David] The Lord is my light and my salvation, so why should I be afraid? Adonai [the LORD] is my fortress, protecting me from danger. Why should I tremble? [Ps 27:1] NLT [New Living Translation]

It is still a serious consideration to create a YouTube channel (likely faceless – no camera) to share whatever the Lord places upon my heart. He has countless voices. I do get that, and am well aware that I am but a drop in the bucket…an old dependable cliché.

I had a thought: allow me to express it this way.

If all of God’s messengers were water in a bucket and I were but a tablespoon of that water, my removal would scarcely be noticed. The remaining water would immediately flow in and fill the space I left behind. The reality is humbling, but the Lord is so worth it. People are desperate for truth, even though many refuse [reject] the truth when they hear it.

For two decades, I have strived to share the gospel of Jesus Christ [the Great Commission] [Mk 16:15; Mat 28:19-20] as all born-again believers, as salt and light, are instructed to do. I have done my best to never touch the glory of God or think more highly of myself than I ought, yet I do realize that my absence from the internet would not shake things up.

That is what it is all about because the work is the Lord’s; it is all His doing. As it has always been from the beginning, others will continue sharing the Good News.

Pride can be subtle (not always obvious). I have to guard against pride in myself: this flesh cannot be trusted, and my own heart can deceive me. [Jer 17:9] But Jesus! I can still mess up (hopefully less as we mature in Christ), yet Abba has done an amazing work in me compared to what I once was, just as He promised.

Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ: [Phil 1:6]

It’s imperative to me that people know that Jesus does this for everyone who sincerely hungers and thirsts for Him. He is Living Water; the Bread of Life. [Jn 4:10; 6:35] He is the Potter; we are the clay. [Is 64:8] He is the Good Shepherd; we are the sheep who can easily stray. [Jn 10:11] The same transformation and grace are available to all.

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He is not looking for perfect vessels, but rather, He is looking for vessels to perfect. 

[inspired by the precious Holy Spirit - BP2026]

As much as I have tried to keep up with daily writing, I am slower these days for many reasons. Years back, I began mentioning “distractions” in my writing, and ‘hindrances’ (such as the apostle Paul spoke of being ‘hindered’ by the adversary [Satan] [1Thes2:18].

Recently, I overheard my nine-year-old grandson warning a friend during a game to watch out for the “distraction box”, designed to lay false clues that would send ‘rogue agents’ down the wrong trail. Sounds like Satan and his minions, does it not?

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“Distraction box”. That phrase stuck with me.

Friends, every generation has faced distractions in different ways. Solomon had a point when he wrote that nothing is new under the sun. [Eccl 1:9] We have been contending with that since Eden; it is part of the fallen human nature.

However, Solomon was not exposed to the technologies or AI that we have today. Jesus did say that things that are coming are things that have never been before, and shall never be repeated.

For then shall be great tribulation, such as was not since the beginning of the world to this time, no, nor ever shall be. [Mat 24:21]

The adversary and his minions, alongside the world, continually work to shape our thinking, influence our emotions, and direct our reactions, conditioning us to accept what should never be accepted. Some call it conditioning; I call it programming.

For now, I would appreciate your prayers as I consider starting a YouTube channel. I do not know whether I can continue keeping pace through writing alone. Things are moving quickly in this world, and 2030 is almost upon us. (Another topic, another day).

If you think time is going fast now, wait until the great tribulation begins. Things will move so quickly, hardly anyone will be able to keep up – except in one way. Jesus (Yeshua)! We all need Him, and that need will only increase!

What About Conspiracies?

A conspiracy is a plot or plan by two or more people involving a dangerous act or event that causes evil or harm to befall others.

Jesus is the Way to Stay Balanced

Jesus is our steady ground...
our foundation.
He will keep us balanced
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The Assyrians were treacherous enemies of the Israelites, and the people were terrified when they heard the armies had gathered for an impending attack, thus denying the power of the living God. Even Isaiah was tempted to walk in fear, but the Lord strongly counselled the prophet.

For the LORD spoke thus to me with a strong hand, and warned me not to walk in the way of this people, saying: Do not say, A conspiracy to all this people call a conspiracy, and do not fear their fear, nor be in dread. But the LORD of hosts himself is the one to fear; He is the one you are to dread. [Is 8:11-13] ESV

 

He was not to call conspiracy what the people called conspiracy, and he was not to fear their fear. It was not whether the threats or political realities were real or not. The issue was the fear of the Assyrians’ power overwhelming them instead of placing their trust in the ‘Lord of hosts’ and remembering HIS power. Their fear was the dread of the conspiracy being acted out.

Fast-forward hundreds of years to the words of Jesus.

And fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear Him who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell. [Mat 10:28]

The Lord does not want us to be so fixated on the evil in this world that we are in constant dread. Violence, rebellion, corruption, and deception have been around from the beginning, as in the days of Noah, Sodom and Gomorrah. 

Ever since the flood, the lesson has remained the same. Believers in the living God are not to walk in fear and constant dread of the world’s darkness, but to stay balanced and anchored in God’s providence and sovereignty. Trust is the key.

We are instructed to watch and pray, which we are to do calmly, not as one consumed by the uncertainties and the wickedness all around. There are obvious imbalances, which many simply call division. Extremes on both sides are what are causing the dynamic equilibrium of the scales.

It seems that conspiracies and demons share a commonality. Some see them everywhere and in everything, whilst others deny their very existence, even when it is plainly visible. Whether one walks in paranoia driven by obsessive fear or in dismissal due to naivety, believers are called to neither because both avoid trust in God.

Deception, evil, and conspiracies all exist, and so does the adversary and his invisible armies. Our confidence is not found in uncovering the plots, but in finding our strength in Jesus, gaining more discernment through the Holy Spirit, and remaining steadfast in faith by keeping Jesus as our first love. Deception exists, but it is not the final word.

Time Speeds Up and Slows Down

For there is nothing hid, which shall not be manifested; neither was any thing kept secret, but that it should come abroad. [Mk 4:22; Lk 8:17]

Hopefully, all that has been written is kept in mind because now I continue with part two of the previous article posted a few days ago. In the last article, I spoke about time and CERN experiments regarding time. 

What I shared were conspiracy facts, not theories.  It is no secret that the shutdown of CERN is a reality. The video at that link was posted three months ago. The reason I brought CERN up was that I am constantly hearing people talk about how fast the days are going and time itself.

It is mentioned casually, but these comments are heard from strangers, or people I know (family, friends, neighbours), in articles, on podcasts, from young people to the elderly. People are noticing something wrong with time. 

CERN actually gave a reason scientifically (bringing up Einstein and this theory of relativity). The first part explains the theory of time. Scroll to CERN.

My thoughts go toward Jesus, who stated that unless He shortened the time in the coming days, no flesh would be saved alive. That is how serious the destruction of the world will be. If left up to us, humankind will destroy the world and everything alive in it. [Mat 24:22]

Increased Discernment Only Comes from Jesus

Like many others, I have been praying to Jesus that I would not be deceived, and if my discernment is lacking in some area, that He would reveal it. Most believers are praying for increased discernment, given the words of Jesus in Matthew 24:24, but also given the increase of things that are being exposed these past years.

Deception abounds.

 

Prayers are not always answered instantaneously, but they are answered. That has always been my experience. At times, there are things we must learn before an answer comes. Other times, the Lord must take care of things in the background before He reveals a matter, particularly if exposure involves people.

I do not pretend to have all the answers or all the understanding of God’s ways; none of us do. In fact, I know very little when it comes to the deep well of knowledge, especially when I discovered that the well is consistently being filled up from an ocean of knowledge.

That insight and understanding caused me to adopt the adage: “The more I learn, the less I know.”

And the Word of God causes me to walk more humbly as it confirms the truth.

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts. [Is 55:8-9]

 

Overcoming our old nature is a process as we learn to avoid temptations and the devil when we proclaim the Word of God, and walk in the Spirit and not in the flesh. We lay down our lives daily by picking up the cross and nailing our fleshly lusts [passions], desires, and cravings to it.[Rev 12:11]

This walk is not easy, but I can promise you that the longer we abide in Jesus, the easier it gets.

Jesus helps us, but He will not force us to do His will. Most of us are astounded at the chaos, corruption, and deception that are in the church and in the world today. The infiltration began back in the days of the apostles.

One final point should be emphasized. We must distinguish between discernment and suspicion, as they are not the same thing. There were times I confused the two, but the Holy Spirit was gracious and pointed out my error.

I would rather walk in the humility of correction than in the error of pride. (An expression the Holy Spirit gave me approximately nine years ago – to God alone be the glory.)

Although deception abounds, truth is more powerful. God is truth, and all things are under His control and sovereign authority.

We guard against being cynical, suspicious, and fearful by seeking God. In doing so, we will be seeking the truth. If we fear anything, let us fear God, for the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. [Prov 9:10]

If we submit wholly to Jesus and walk humbly with Him by the power of the Holy Spirit, our discernment grows. The more we are aware of Yahweh’s holiness and perfection, the less we are overtaken by fear. We will then be guided by truth, for Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. [Jn 14:6]

Sounding the Alarm to Warn of Danger

Before I finished the previous article on ticks (first part), it was important to say the above to keep the focus on Jesus. Everything the Lord does is done decently and in order, and I intend to follow in His footsteps.

In this concluding second part, I will separate fact from fiction so that readers can pray effectively and specifically.

Thirty-three is a number that means much to me because it immediately brings to mind Ezekiel chapter 33. The Lord instructs the prophet to be a watchman, warning of impending judgment and any approaching danger he sees coming.

If he sounds the alarm and warns the people, yet they refuse to listen, their blood is upon their own heads. [33:4] However, if he sees a sword coming upon the land [God’s judgment] and fails to warn the people, then the Lord will hold the watchman accountable for his negligence. [33:6] For example, consider the prophet Jonah.

This is not about ticks being God’s judgment. Rather, this is about fulfilling the role of a watchman. When we see danger approaching, we are obligated to warn others. Whether they listen or not is ultimately between them and the Lord.

Some people teach that we are not under the law, but under grace. That is true; however, we are not lawless people. The adversary and his antichrist will be lawless.

Jesus summarized the law in two commandments: We are to love God with all our heart, all our soul, and all our being, and to love others as ourselves. [Mat 22:37-40] All ten commandments are fulfilled if we faithfully keep these two.

 

When we warn others of impending danger, whether they are believers or not, we are obeying the Lord by carrying out the second commandment. Our obedience is motivated first by our love for Christ and then by our love for others.

 

Ticks and Red Meat Allergy

There is a growing concern with ticks that goes beyond Lyme disease. Although that is concerning enough, tick bites have now also been linked to the Alpha-gal syndrome, which is an allergic reaction to red meat, and for some folks, dairy products as well.

 

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I have never liked ticks (who does?), but almost two months ago, when it was still cold here in Ontario, my son removed a crawling tick from the arm of his eight-year-old son, and three more from the dog. Ironically, of all things, our dog is a Bluetick coonhound mix! (He has been mentioned in previous articles – beautiful dog)

The snow had melted, but it was still too cold outside for ticks (at least, that is what I thought). But apparently, some species of ticks become active even in somewhat cooler temperatures. Good to know!

After I personally observed evidence of what I believed to be unusual tick behaviour, I decided to dig a little deeper. There was a reason the number “33” kept showing up, and no, I am not the sort to look for signs and wonders.

 

However, my Creator knows me. He knows that this number signals me to be on the watch [watchman], to pay attention and pray for His leading. He is ever faithful. Just as He instructed Isaiah, Yahweh does not want us walking in fear.

The Lord did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, and love, and a sound mind. [2Tim1:7]

 

Jesus does not want us to walk in ignorance and be caught off-guard either. He wants us to be aware of our surroundings, just as He was during His time upon this earth, but not to allow fear to halt or hinder us.

We understand that there are many conspiracies out there, announced agendas and plans in the world today, but we really need to stay anchored to Jesus, the Bible, prayer, and His will [plan].

That is why Jesus calls us to abide in Him and to hold fast to faith. We are to fear only God, which is to understand and trust in His sovereignty and providence.

 

Official Sites with Helpful Information about Ticks

Now I am coming to a section that most assuredly needs the Lord’s guidance. I have done my best to stick to trustworthy sources, but this is where the Lord’s wisdom and knowledge, along with discernment, must be sought through prayer.

My digging brought a bit more information from some well-known sources, such as government sites, universities, CDC, videos, et al. The majority warn of the blacklegged tick, known as a deer tick, which is notorious for transmitting

 Lyme disease, Powassan virus and other infectious diseases.

•  Canada – Official government site: offers an in-depth explanation of what symptoms, treatment, and links for the 10 provinces and 3 territories

• Ontario – Official government site: Separate link for Canada Health Services

• United States – Official: CDC [Center for Disease Control and Prevention]

• United Kingdom – Official UK site: for ticks and disease, mgmt. and prevention

• South Korea – Korea Disease Control and Prevention Agency

• Southeast Asia, Singapore – Ministry of Health Government site

• European – Official agency of the European Union

 

Hopefully, this helps inform others with information about bites of ticks, diseases, prevention and protective measures. It is a global problem.

In the previous article, I had mentioned two countries that used ticks as a biological weapon: Japan and the United States. There are no official documents, declassified or otherwise, that prove a CIA “black ops” unequivocally that ticks were covertly dropped on the population in Cuba.

Operation Mongoose was a secret code name for a project in January 1962. It had to do with the release of ticks, used as a bioweapon by the US military against Cuba and Fidel Castro. It was around the same time as the failure of the Bay of Pigs invasion.

This was one of several conspiracy items I stumbled across in my research about ticks. It is not the heart or core of this particle, but if you are interested, it can be read about here.

 

I first heard it mentioned on the ‘Redacted’ YouTube channel, with Clayton Morris and his wife, Natalie. Going to @28:45 on the video at the above link, the couple share a page from an article written by John Brhel, Binghamton University, posted Jan 6, 2026, that farmers have reported an increase in tick encounters (70 tick encounters over a period of six months) on their farms. [screenshot is from their video]

Then, the Lone Star tick is brought up @28.50. They report that this tick can lower your tolerance for eating red meat if you are bitten by one. Morris complains about how crazy it sounds that if one of the Lone Star ticks bite you, you develop a red meat allergy.

It is @29:20 where Clayton mentions that the US government, in declassified CIA documents, used ticks as a bioweapon to drop on Cuba [in 2016] and other places to spread Lyme disease.

He follows up the statement by asking if an investigation will ever be done to look into it. He states that members of Congress have tried, but it has been stonewalled.

However, according to the Spectator (an online news magazine), Donald Trump has signed an order into law to: “review and report on biological weapon(s) experiments on an in relation to ticks [and] tick-borne diseases.”

The Spectator writes: A growing body of evidence shows that during the Cold War, ticks were tinkered with and used as delivery mechanisms for biological warfare agents. And these weaponized ticks may have been released both intentionally and unintentionally on an unsuspecting public by the US military.

The article goes on to mention record numbers of tick bites have been reported in New York (in 2024), Maine (in 2024), and Wisconsin (in 2023). The full article is not available for public viewing unless you pay to join them. There is a paywall. I provide a link so you can see that what I have posted is indeed what was reported, but a heads up about the Paywall. All kinds of websites are forcing people to become members (including the Spectator, where this article originates) to finish reading it.

You spoke by the [precious] and Holy Spirit through the mouth of Your servant, our father David: Why do the nations rage and the peoples plot in vain [imagine vain things]? [Acts 4:25] BSV - ESV [Berean (and) English Standard Versions] 

S. Matthew Liao

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Redacted points to a bioethicist named Matthew Liao, who is a professor in the Dept. of Philosophy and the director of NYU’s Center for Bioethics. Back in 2014, Liao stated that we could solve climate change by shrinking people down and making them averse to eating meat. He says, “People eat too much meat.”

 

Excerpt:

Once he has shrunken us, Dr. Liao suggests: "...giving the tiny people medications to  make averse [sic] to eating meat. ”We can artificially induce intolerance to red meat by stimulating the immune system against common bovine proteins,” he told the BBC.

SOURCE: Grist

In 2016, at the World Economic Forum, Matthew Liao says that:

 “Possibly, we can use human engineering to make it the case that we’re intolerant to certain kinds of meat, to certain kinds of bovine – bovine proteins. And there are actually analogs of this in life.

There’s this thing called the Lone Star tick, where if it bites you, you’ll become allergic to meat. I can sort of describe the mechanism. So that’s something that we can do through human engineering. We can possibly address really big world problems through human engineering.” – Matthew Liao

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Bill Gates is involved with his fake meat. @31:00 Dr. Robert Malone: Declassified Documents Link U.S. Bioweapons Program to Lyme Disease Outbreak – Exclusive: In March 4, 2026 posted that declassified documents link U.S. bioweapons program linked to radioactive ticks; information that has been suppressed for 40 years. 

@31:05 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qmgAUdkY3yA  Redacted:

Bill Gates funded research into genetically-engineered cattle ticks. A lengthy write-u at American Faith News. He is into plant or lab-grown meat. Then we have a tick that brings Lyme diThis tick is known to cause AGS, as verified by a publication in the ImmunoTargets and Therapy journal found in the U.S. National Library of Medicine (NLM).sease, and now they are pushing a Lyme disease vaccine.

Conclusion

I have provided enough links and information for the reader to search out and draw their own conclusions. I am grateful to the Lord for making me aware of the tick situation, starting with the four found in our home, on the dog and a young child, three months ago.

Although I was aware of the need to be on guard against ticks, as well as the reality of Lyme disease, I was unaware of other diseases that can also be carried by a tick.

The reality of a meat allergy and the fact that people are working on human engineering, genetic engineering, tissue engineering, bioprocess design, cell culture media, and 3D cell culture platforms (the latter four used to create lab-grown meat) reveal that man is playing God, creating and manipulating that which is already created.

At the above link, the original article, which was posted July 28, 2023 (almost three years ago), reports that 450,000 Americans have ‘red meat allergies’ from Alpha-Gal Syndrome, caused by tick bites.

AGS (Alpha-Gal Syndrome), which is a tick-borne disease, was first reported back in 2008. A grant of $1,469,352 was awarded for research into the “Asian blue” tick. American Faith News: “ This tick is known to cause AGS, as verified by a publication in the ImmunoTargets and Therapy journal found in the U.S. National Library of Medicine (NLM).”

 

Whether what I presented is connected or merely a series of parallel trends is for readers to examine for themselves. I am not suggesting that everyone mentioned is working jointly to achieve a shared goal. Rather, my heart desires to give you enough information for you to investigate (research) further, draw your own conclusions, and seek the Lord for discernment and wisdom.

 

Jesus said that things would be as never before and never shall be again, and this is not even the great tribulation yet. We are in the birth pangs; the whole earth is travailing. More can be read at: American Faith News

I hope I have provided evidence that ticks pose a real danger and that we need to be alert (aware), learn prevention, and discern as needed. This is where we must pray, and seek wisdom, and trust Yahweh’s guidance.

for His glory alone

Bonita                               dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com