God is Our Hope

Failed Report 

January 6, 2015  4:30 PM

I just got out of the hospital on this sixth day of a stay, having had (yet again) pneumonia. As I am on a borrowed computer at this time, I will spare the details, but suffice it to say that although I was given a most negative report of a health matter completely unrelated to what I went in for (and a most serious diagnosis), the LORD is Sovereign and He took care of it.  

Suffice it to say, a judgmental doctor ended up with a failed report.

When I was first given the diagnosis (and the severity of it), I truly thought my time on earth was over and suddenly everything seemed so different. Priorities change and my heart filled with gratitude for what the LORD has done for me all my life, even when I was not walking with Him.  

If there was fear, it was not so much about death as it was about deep reflection and searching my heart before GOD. I know that we all fall short…and believe me, I am well aware of all of my shortcomings and faults. I prayed about secret faults and presumptuous sins - I want none of it. That is where the Holy Spirit shines forth and does His work.

We can either be very tough on ourselves, showing no mercy, or we can justify all we think, say and do. I tend to be hard on myself, setting high standards. It is likely some hidden effort to compensate for all the wrong (sins, evil) that I did in life, but then, that takes away what Jesus did for me (for all who believe).

I digress...help me, Lord. It takes the most Holy Spirit to lead us and help us. So, I prayed many, many Psalms, such as:

Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from my secret faults. Keep back Thy servant from presumptuous sins; let them not have dominion over me: Then shall I be upright and I shall be innocent from the great transgression.  [Ps19:12]

I spoke to the Lord about many, many things as I sat hour after hour in the hospital. Then, slept on a two inch mat used on stretchers; in Emergency Overflow - Ambulatory Care. Thanksgiving to the LORD for the medical help finally, as I have been fighting illness since my arrival back in Canada in late September (now into the fourth month; it just keeps recycling).

I spoke to the Lord of the stigmatism attached to homelessness (also fourth month), and how I noticed different attitudes, comments and behaviours. I poured out my heart about many things, having pondered much. Having been seen by a doctor from Guatemala, and cared for by Filipino and Japanese nurses (among many others, of course), my heart considered the many nations of the world and the days ahead. 

Those three people (male doctor-Guatemala; male nurse-Filipino; female nurse-Japanese) all treated me as if I were royalty, so kind. Perhaps because they come from countries that know poverty, and know discrimination. Perhaps...

Or perhaps they were angels assigned by the Lord; or regular, yet real people handpicked by God to look after me in my weakened, very ill condition. The constant pneumonia had weakened me in every way. I know only Jesus has been my strength. But Jesus...

My heart ached for family, friends, brethren, the lost, the prodigals, those blinded from truth…amazing how we think when we believe we are on death's doorstep. I suppose that is when the real intent and condition of the heart is exposed. Perhaps - perhaps not... 

I am going to share what the LORD gave me in that dark hour, as I waited for the test results of the MRI and endoscopy. Even as the Holy Spirit gave me the words, I knew they were not just for me. I humbly share the words of the holy King -- it is for His glory alone. 

Just a note -- when He spoke of reports, I knew He was speaking to me about 'medical' reports. A middle-aged, white doctor had mentioned a pancreas problem, and asked if I drank, likely because I was in a shelter for the homeless.

When I told him that drinking was very rare, and that I may have a glass of wine or something, he indirectly suggested that I was lying. There was a dark spot on the pancreas, which was likely indicative of alcohol or drug use.

I explained again that drinking was rare, and drugs were a negative. "You never drank in excess or did drugs?" he asked in a rather snarky, condescending way. I quipped back, "Well, when I was younger, but I did a lot of foolish things when I was younger."

He put away his equipment, stating [roughly] that in the morning I would be taken down for an endoscopy. So yes, I knew the Lord was speaking of the medical 'reports' (which I would get the next day).

Yet I also was aware that it encompassed [personal] reports that others were going to receive, as well as reports that are coming (world events). Please take all things to the Lord; including this word.

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Outward Appearances

Do not fear the reports. You have wondered at My silence, yet I say to you I speak not when I am listening and observing. You have gone through the emotions, as Job, as Jonah, as David and Jeremiah, as even Simon Peter -- as all the forerunners. Yet again, I say to you, through it all you have held fast to your faith, trusting Me and obeying. Which of My people did not go through emotions; tell Me if you can.

Today, even some of My own people long to sugarcoat My Word and serve it on a politically correct tray, dripping with the stench of pride and religion. Any emotion beyond calm and soft (gentle) is considered drama or aggressive.

Why were the prophets hated? Why was My own Son Y'shua the Messiah (Jesus the Christ) of Nazareth scorned and crucified? Was Elijah gentle in his approach to Jezebel and her false prophets? Was Jeremiah gentle in his approach when speaking to his own people and authorities?  

Ah, yet there would be those who say that was before Christ. Yet, did the prophets I chose not speak through the power of My Spirit and did not those who did marvellous works not do so by My power, by My Spirit - or did they do such and speak such by their own power and righteousness?

What of John the Baptist, was he gentle in his approach to Herod? Was My Son gentle in His anger with the Pharisees and Sadducees? When Y'shua spoke with the multitudes regarding John, He asked them who they went out to see - a reed shaken in the wind? Or did they go to see a man clothed in soft raiment (fine clothes)?  

Yet, He went on to say that John was a messenger sent to prepare the way before Him. He further stated that among those born among women, there was none greater than John the Baptist, except he who was least in the kingdom is greater than him. [Mat 11:7-11]

Fear not what others think of you, for it is written that man looks upon the outward appearance, but God looks upon the heart. [1Sam 16:7]  Even My own people oft judge each other on their countenance (looks, beauty) and height (build). They judge one's position, gender, race, possessions, clothing, yet they will not believe a messenger of God would come to them disheveled, poorly dressed or even homeless, nor would they believe if I sent a mere child.

Rebuke when I move you to rebuke; show mercy when I move you to show mercy, but be not surprised at those who will not hear. Do your part and I will do Mine. I am the potter, you are the clay - so are they.  

Remember the words written about the last generation and observe wisely.  Many have warned for decades and the people sigh and say; "We've heard it all before - where is the promise of His coming?"

Keep strong in your faith, yet remember, you cannot do all in your own strength, for when you are weak, I am strong. Though many of My people are worn out and discouraged, beaten down by life, they hold fast to their faith.  

Forgive those who wallow in pride and lack understanding. Remember that it is written: Being confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ [Phil 1:6]  Only believe!

Finally my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might [Eph 6:10]

Prepare, Watch and Pray

Reports will come, as they always do, but be not soon shaken (not by word, or by letter).  All of this is preparation, to bring you to the place I would have you to be. Revival will come upon North America and many dry places globally, but not the way people think. 

 

(Note: I understood that revival will come in waves (not tidal waves, not tsunamis). The Lord made it clear to me that it begins within each of us - we must be revived first. Repentance where necessary, forgiveness...the cross; for this reason Christ shed His precious blood for mankind, and on the third day He rose in victory! BP)

 

Healing miracles; restoration miracles (healing and restoration), salvation and deliverances coming in such volume upon multitudes that none shall be able to stop the reports (though they will try to). 

Leave all up to Me. I guide My people (direction), as they trust in Me. Keep your focus on Me and watch and see what I will do. I shall make a way. Stand back and watch; hold fast and pray. Much is coming, but My people have been being prepared. The preparation has not been easy; it has been challenging, frustrating, difficult, yet My people will stand when others will fall away, and others still will have failing hearts for fear.

Yea, I am the Sovereign God. Fear not. I am with you. I have chosen you as a vessel unto honour.

Has not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour and another unto dishonour?  [Rom 9:21]

Let the beauty of the LORD our GOD be upon us: and establish You the work of our hands upon us: Yea, the work of our hands, establish it.  [Ps 90:17] - Moses]

(Update: The smug, unbelieving doctor returned the next day with the test results. He was almost apologetic. His entire attitude toward me was different. Why? Because the test result on the pancreas came back – all was healthy and well. He had looked down on what he believed was an alcoholic homeless, middle-aged woman. He judged by outward appearances. BP)

Before destruction, a man is haughty, And before honour is humility. [Prov 18:12]

for His glory alone

Bonita                           dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com

Let Us Hold Fast

April 20, 2013 - [o4.2o.2o13]

Revised: October 10, 2013

Let Us Hold Fast - Part 16 con't - Battle Above the Clouds)

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea; Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.[Ps 46:1-3]

When I last posted four days ago (Tuesday), I presented the Boston Marathon bombings, as well as alluded to Satan's hand in it when I mentioned his counterfeiting, his use of numbers and passion for sacrifice.  His greatest weapon in the arsenals he uses against the world (mankind) is deception.

Everyone is now all over the Boston Marathon bombings, just as Sandy Hook and all the other sinister events that have taken place.  Yes, sinister... deceptive and sinister beyond mere words.

I will be discussing the Boston Marathon, as well as other events that occurred in the recent past, but not now. Others have picked the story up and are running with it. We all must be very aware right now of the domino effect that is picking up in momentum.  Those of us who follow Christ Jesus must continue to look to Him.

Same War - Different Battles
 

We are all in the same war, although we may go through different battles. It is the war that is being fought against mankind, but God's people will not have the strength to endure without the King Himself, who is the Lord of each and every battle. 

On Tuesday, I was positive that I would be posting again within hours, as I intend to address the emails about a 'word from the Lord', but instead prayer was more important. Some things I say will not be well received...I seek the Lord's leading and direction before I write.

I have written so much and unposted much...but His lead overrides every thing and every one. Prayer takes precedence over everything else, no matter what else I may do in His name.  

None of my work or what I do means anything at all if He's not in it, no matter how much scripture I post or how eloquently I may write. It must be covered in prayer and it must be written for the glory of the Lord alone, not mine. O Lord, let YOUR SPIRIT be in the words...for the letter kills, but the Spirit makes alive (just like the law versus grace - because of Y'shua/Jesus).

There is not one person right now that is not overwhelmed at the intensity and frequency of events. I am sure it was the Lord who led me to use the picture that said, "Expect the Unexpected" followed by the subtitle, 'The Unexpected' on my last post. 

With a heavy heart, I say that Boston is mild compared to what is coming! (so it is written, so it is true [Holy Bible]). Whether the events are false flags (covert operations to deceive the public) or whether they lead to conspiracy theories leading to conspiracy facts, as believers, we know the real agenda and what the final outcome will be (again - it is written in the Holy Scriptures).

We know who the mastermind is behind it all (Satan aka Lucifer), but better yet, we know who is ultimately in control - God is in control!

The Lord, in His wisdom, grace and mercy, forewarned all who would take the time to read - in His Word. It is one thing to read about tribulation or trial, and quite another to go through it. Yet again, it is one thing to trust God when all goes well and quite another to trust Him when all hell breaks loose, or the next step is unknown, or His timing seems too slow. 

Unless a person is walking around in a state of denial, I cannot fathom how any of us are not fighting an onslaught of thoughts and emotions, whether a man, woman or child. If ever I was pressing in to the Lord for sure and true answers about where I am to be and what I should be doing that would glorify Him, it is now. Each of us need personal direction daily, not just corporate. 

The hand needs to know when to "pick up" (touch) or "let go" (don't touch), and the foot needs to know when to "walk", "run" or "stand still". The mouth needs to know when to "speak" and when to be "silent". Yes, we all need personal, individual and daily direction.

Chaos is upon the entire world, as we all are aware, but it is only going to increase, until the time where one domino is pushed, and then all the dominoes fall...where there is no stopping it (until the time God appoints, and has spoken of).  

However, America is slated (planned, scheduled) for her fall and it takes no rocket scientist or prophetic gifting to see it.  Throughout history, every great empire has fallen (come to an end). Is it not so? No matter where we live in this world, to be without Jesus Christ (Y'shua) and out of God's will with our individual lives is beyond foolish - it's dangerous!  

Everything is escalating at an astounding speed, both in natural and man-made events, but also the spiritual. 

The Lord is forewarning of more horrific episodes coming in rapid succession - domino effect - it is coming, it shall come, suddenly, severe - truly expect the unexpected. Do you not feel the shaking? The dominoes still stand, but the ground beneath them is shaking, trembling! Awake, awake!

Firstly, in the Boston Marathon bombing, the media mentioned a 20 year old Saudi suspect, which of course would lead people to believe Muslims (Islam) were behind the bombings. 

Then, it suddenly changed...attention was diverted away from Saudi Arabia. It suddenly shifted to two young men being pursued, Russian immigrants, with one confirmed (the eldest) to be following Islamic belief faithfully (of course), but not the younger man (the brother of the now-deceased older bomber). 

So now America is being led to believe that 'domestic Islamic (Muslim) terrorists' (Russians) are rising up and were behind the bombings. The entire city of Boston was locked down, while door to door searches were carried out - all for one "unarmed" 19 year old man. 

Boston businesses and transportation were shut down; people were forced to stay in their homes because a 'terrorist' was being hunted down, yet when an "armed" Christopher Doner was on the loose, no city went into martial law lockdown.

Boston - April 2013

I have wept over this and other events in other countries as well (yes, I know...in these past years I weep many tears before the Lord...seems like ever since I became committed in 2005, and my eyes were opened).

It is because like other events, this one is not what it appears to be, not at all. In fact, much of what we see is not what it appears to be when it comes to be, not with government and those in power [control] behind the scenes.

Deception is so boldly in the face of people, one wonders if the occultic cliche 'hidden in plain sight' should not be added to.

Hidden in plain sight... (but catch us and prove it, if you can)  

In the very first part of this series (Battle above the Clouds) part one, it was expressed that the writings would be focusing on deception, both in the world and in the church. 

Although believers of Jesus Christ [the Body of Christ], (particularly those who participate in spiritual warfare because not all Christians do) are Satan's primary target, we are most definitely not his only target. All of mankind is hated by him - all are targeted.

BUT those walking obediently with Jesus/Y'shua will face the most severe battles. We know God is with us; He will strengthen us, but that does not mean it will not be hard, or that we will always understand at the time. Often, understanding comes later...in hindsight (maybe even after we leave this earth).

In Part one on January 18, I wrote: 

"The heart of the Lord’s watchmen is to sound the alarm, to be messengers of the Most High that cry out for the people to repent (including themselves (watchmen) if need be. We are to be accountable, responsible, teachable and reachable).  Steadfastly and adamantly, we all must keep a repentant heart and press in now more than ever before, cleaving to and abiding in Christ Jesus/Y’shua."

The warnings continue to sound. During the recent period I went through where the Lord was mostly silent, I did share what He gave me to share.  He began with these words:

"Thirteen is the number for rebellion and indeed, rebellion is evident on every level throughout the world, in all nations, amongst all people from peasant to those who rule in power and authority."

Further on:

  "I AM with you.  I AM for you and not against you.  The government of America is purposely provoking the people. Early in the morning, after the elections (Nov 7, 2012), I said, 'Now it begins.  There is a great divide amongst the people and anger and rebellion is stirred up as a troubled hornet's nest.'

I also said, 'The west shall be in great pain; they will be greatly hurt.  The backbone of America is broken; it is severely fractured.'  I warned that the days of great woes, great sorrow were coming, but also great blessings that many have patiently waited for.

The Connecticut incident was a little over five weeks later.  The strategies and tactics of those who follow Satan (Lucifer) have been employed a long time.  The desire for a one world government and ruler did not expire when the building of the Tower of Babel ended, or with the death of Nimrod.

The plans have been carried out covertly.  The adversary is patient to a degree. Now that he knows his time is short, all has escalated. Although some things are happening covertly still, there is less concern about hiding things.

Satan (Lucifer) and his armies are proud and have lifted themselves up brazenly. They have been called forth by evil people through rituals, 'prayers' and blood sacrifices. This is a multi-layered, multi-dimensional structure that is being carried out by those on the dark side, both in the physical and in the spiritual." 

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In a previous article, which is part of this series, it was explained that the hype about the zombie apocalypse needs to be understood deeper.  I wrote:

"It is not a 'Zombie Apocalypse that the government is preparing for, but a 'Citizen Apocalypse'.  All the warnings, all the signs point to it."

Also, it was the Lord who said that North Korea was a distraction for what was going on in secret meetings behind closed doors. Plans were being devised and shall be carried out.  I understood (as most of us do) that WWIII is ''a go" (so to speak), but the focus at the time "was' and "is" a distraction(s). Stay alert and close to the Lord.

As stated, more time has been spent in prayer, but the next article will be addressing the emails wondering about a 'word from the Lord' (prophecy). It is on my heart to urge all to keep in prayer. If we have to wait upon God for answers, so be it, He will be right on time - His time, not ours or man's. I had to get this truly down in my spirit (I knew it, but had to do it) when He was so silent. 

I will say this also. I do not believe that Tamerlan Tsnarnaev or his brother Dzhokhar (Jokhar) were behind the bombings in Boston anymore than I think Adam Lanza was behind the shootings in Sandy Hook. Did those events really happen? Yes, but who was really behind it all? Satan, yes...who else? We all must pray and draw our own conclusions, but let our main focus be on knowing and doing the will of God for our individual lives.  Keep in prayer, brethren...

My son, if you will receive My words, and hide My commandments with you; So that you incline your ear unto wisdom, and apply your heart to understanding; Yea, if you cry after knowledge, and lift up your voice for understanding; 
If you seek her as silver, and search for her as for hid treasures; Then shall you understand the fear of the LORD, and find the knowledge of God. [Prov 2:1-5]

Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.  And I will strengthen them in the Lord: and they shall walk up and down in His name, says the Lord. But I (Jesus/Y'shua) have prayed for you, that your faith fail not: and when you are converted, strengthen your brethren.  [Ps 27:14;Zec 10:12; Lk 22:32]

Let us hold fast the profession of our faith without wavering, for He is faithful that promised. [Heb 10:23]

All the attention has been (for the most part) on the United States, particularly Boston and Waco, but others are suffering. China's Sichuan province with its devastating earthquake, Iran with drone strikes from US, killing many of their civilians, Huntsville/Bracebridge, Ontario Canada, with its dangerous flooding, Sandy hurricane victims...yes, so much going on.

People all over the world are suffering...let us keep in prayer; that hearts may turn back to the Creator of all, through Jesus His Son alone (ONLY).  

for His glory alone

Bonita            dovesofthevalleys4@gmail.com